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2005年7月31日星期日 --

哈哈~

What am i doing here? i said that i wouldn't write an entry one... haiz... i'm such a bad girl... all the little girls and boys reading this... don't learn from jie jie hor! =P haiz.... what a bad example that i've set... 唉。。。小女生怎么可以这么坏呢？Silvia was telling me that she won't be interested to know what goes on in my boring life... HEY! my life is NOT boring... ok, i'm seriously trying to deceive myself... 自欺欺人。。。不敢面对现实。。好啦！没那么严重吧？Oh well~ So what if my life is boring? Haha~ 哈哈~What is WRONG with me?!

Anyway, today is a happy sunday... and i'm supposed to sit at my study table (which hasn't been used for like, how long?) Haiz... Why must i suffer such agony?! hm... silvia was telling me last night that 文峰哥哥is very arrogant... because he doesn't smile when i greet him in corridors... ops... i didn't tell her that i only greeted him ONCE... Hm.... .... Does it make such a huge difference? And my life is not 99% about that PERSON... i am not trying to deceive myself... my younger sister is reading my entry... and she's telling me "你好假哦。。。” which means that i'm so fake... -.-" I am not fake... I'm speaking the one and only truth... don't tell me it's 100%... I admit that my life has a portion that revolves around that person... but it's just this quite teeny weeny portion... very very small portion...

Ok, maybe i shan't crap anymore... what the hell.... haha~ anyway, i added my blog address to my frienster account... though i've not updated it for this very long time... but i realised that i'm so lame last time... I should be LAMER... hm... haha~ 我还真爱胡扯。。。oh ho ho~ it's a gift, ok? to be able to crap and crap and crap... hahaha~ Anyway, i didn't know that shao yong has a frienster account... hm... actually, i think out of all my cousins, i'm closest to wee ting only~ 其他的人我大概都不是说很熟吧？haiz... i'm so pathetic... i don't understand how come i am so quiet at times... i seriously think i'm suffering from split personality... or something like that... 也许我还有被害妄想症。。。严重的神经病。。。

anyway, i just sort of ended guitar... and i don't want to study..!!!! 怪不得这个人的成绩会满江红。。。Haiz... how am i going to survive o levels next year? don't ask me... i'm praying fervently that i'll manage to at least get 10... ok, 10 seems a bit too high for me even now... hm... teacher gave me this song to learn... looks like i gotta figure out all the notes one by one again.. haiz... but lucky next week, after 7 papers, we have 5 days holiday! not really lah~ national day mah~ but at least got break... or i'll die lorh... but the remaining 2 papers are physics and elective literature... why can't A maths be next next week?! i don't think i'll have time to look for an appropriate joke for 文峰哥哥。。。文峰哥哥，我可以放假吗？*一副可怜兮兮的样子* 唉。。。what am i doing?! I survived the CA2 period...now i know why my results were so bad last term... haiz... i'll go and apply for leave... I love national day! thank singapore for having her brithday near my common tests~ i love singapore... (haiz... i think all singaporeans will be ashamed of me... so materialistic...) hey! i'm very patriotic, ok? i spent 5 dollars to buy this singapore t-shirt... ok... that was actually because i had nothing better to do.. haha~ ops... i just revealed my true colours... all people reading this... i'm not like that... i'm just- er- going crazy for this short period of time...

i don't want to study!!!　我觉得我好倒霉。。。我看到了向往学长。。。I am so unlucky... J8 is a cursed place... everywhere i go, i will bump into people... So many people... haiz... and i'm like- am i supposed to greet them? in the end, i always pretend i didn't see anything... 眼不见为静。。。haiz... so bad... I find it extremely unusual meeting people i know outside... even in school... ok, in school is considered perfectly normal... but i'm mostly the one initiating the wave or a hi... except in 文峰哥哥's case... why should i wave to him when he doesn't?! *不爽的表情* ok... i'm kidding... i'm not THAT petty... i don't greet him anyway.. besides, why is this so important?! what am i doing...

I am trying to download the slam dunk theme song... and failing quite horribly... because it loads so damn slowly... I need broadband!!! I'll make a want- list...
broadband
mp3 player (preferably I-river... I really envy lin xiu... )
money
brains (mine are spoilt)
我要跟文峰哥哥拍大头贴！！！
do well for tests (i doubt it... since i'm still here typing my entry for my blog...)
a new computer... so that i can use MSN...

Haiz... 我好无聊啊！！！！ I wish there was a way to make myself more motivated in studying... I don't know how 德峰学长does it... studying on a saturday... ops... i think i'm the only one who finds it a chore to study on a saturday...am i?! Why can't life be as simple as waking up, sleeping, end of story... ? What's wrong with sleeping? 最直接，最有效，还有助于身长发育。。。that was quoting 文峰哥哥。。。i really admire his crappiness... though he doesn't crap nowadays... i wonder why... whatever... anyway, i think people who are full of crap are interesting... (referring to myself here... haha~) anyway, silvia says she thinks blogs are nicer with pictures... so, i'll try to put more lah~silvia, if you're reading this, it's all for you.. i'm such a sweet junior... i really envy her for being so free after prep prelims... though she's not exactly supposed to be... -.-" oh well...

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