Final year examinations have started... the english paper 1 was first... and I wrote a story that wasn't original... i don't know if i'll be penalised if found out... i hope not... i kind of hope i can go to band 1...

and today was the 2nd paper... I didn't study properly last night. And this morning, I woke up with a seriously bad headache and stomachache and i was trembling in cold. but my sister said that unless you are in an hospital currently, u will get 0 marks if you report sick. so, i was shoo-ed to school in my father's car. and he was driving at top speed so i could be on time. i went into the school gate and everybody was lining up. I just felt horrible.

I was afraid. I didn't want to score badly. I couldn't afford to not get an A1... I couldn't... social studies... my combined humanities is the subject i'm counting on for my L1R5... Chinese... I am afraid i can't write well... I can't afford to get an A2 for chinese... I see that as letting kor down... ... maybe I was giving myself stress... the headache got worst... and I couldn't stand it... so, I broke down ... and I mean, seriously broke down...as in crying like hell... I couldn't stand it. I think i'm suffering from a mental illness... I need to see a psychiatrist probably... And so, I was sent to the general office when mr lim came over. and he was telling me not to cry.

I think i'm insane. I seriously think that the headache is caused by myself now... but I felt like dying... as I was walking and trying to look at the road i was taking through tears, the national anthem started playing. and all throughout, I was thinking "I don't want to score badly... I want to go to the same jc as wenfeng... I want to be as good as I can be..." thinking back, I think I was being totally stupid. I should be glad with what i have and if I know that I have tried my best, it's worthwhile...

and so, I spent some time in the office, resting. and the chair I was sitting on was blocking teachers from going inside to do their stuff. it was the clerk who put it there. and i didn't feel like moving... i finally stopped crying after some time. and mr lim was accompanying me until 7.50 because he had to go up to invigilate the class... and he was explaining that if i was well enough i could go take the examination or I could go back and rest and they'll project my marks based on the last tests for the 2 papers i'll be missing. and he told me to make a decision. and later he went up... then, I just sat there resting. until mrs muthu asked me if i wanted to go home. mrs koh was there too. i didn't know that she is actually quite nice. she explained that I would need to go to her office if i wanted to take the examination because i'd be starting later than the rest. and she told me not to force myself if i couldn't take it. but i had to go and get an MC or i'll get 0.

in the office, many teachers walked past. mr ang asked me what was wrong with me and asked me if i got these headaches often... -.-" what a weird question. and this nice teacher asked me if I was ok. everybody else was busy with what they were going to do. and mr tan asked me "chloe, are you ok?" now that I think about it, i didn't answer him... that was rather rude of me... and... i don't know why but each time i'm sick, I feel that mr lim seems to get nicer and nicer...He called the office after he went up and asked about me. the clerk told him that my parent is coming to pick me up. and then in an instant, he was at the office again. i think he was supposed to be invigilating. if i'm not wrong... but somehow he came down. and he was telling me that the school will hence project my marks if i produce an mc. then he went off for a while. and I accidentally spilled the milo on the ground and on my right shoe. and I felt totally useless... i feel like i'm stupid... i can't do anything right...

and then i was taking tissue and trying desperately to clean the milo. and I began crying again. mr lim was suddenly behind me and he was telling me not to worry. he asked me to sit down and he'll take care of it. so i sat down and felt like i was useless again. and then he was telling me later that i should go back and rest properly over the weekends. and i was crying silently. guys don't seem to feel good when girls cry in front of them. and mr lim somehow magicked a piece of tissue paper and was telling me not to cry. and he was patting my head and telling me not to think too much. at that moment, i thought of wenfeng. he is always telling me not to think too much. and thinking of him didn't help at all. i just felt worse. But for one moment, i felt like what he was saying is true. that I shouldn't think too much and just rest and everything will be fine...

So, I went back home and heeded mr lim's advice. and it sort of worked. i feel so much better now. and i realise that my friends care about me a lot. hwee li sms-ed me. lin xiu is the one who is sick now. i hope she rests well. huiyi also sms-ed me. =D thank u everybody.

I am very tired... I wish someone would tell me everything is going to be fine and take me into his/her arms... I am tired of comforting myself...

I just chatted with my kor... er- not wenfeng. another kor. and i think what he says makes sense. the examinations later are what that matter. i ought to put my heart into studying and not think too much any longer. Because I have no time to do so. I have no time to think about how much I want to go the same jc as wenfeng. I have no time to wish that he would treat me better and show some concern for me. I have no time to think that I am letting him down if i don't do well...

I will work doubly harder for the following examinations. thank you, kor... =D

ouch, my stomach hurts. and I'm feeling cold again... must be all the thinking again...

i'm going to work harder. I will do very much better for the other examinations. it doesn't matter if I fail as long as I feel that i have done all that I could. It doesn't matter if i most likely won't be able to make it to the same jc as wenfeng. All that matters is i've tried my best.

and next time i feel sick for any examinations, i'll only come back home and miss the examination if i faint on the ground. (like my mother reckons i should have done today) I will do well... I will definitely do well...

Hello~ I remember promising to write today last friday... so, here I am...! I'm really really really going to study this time... I cut my hair on saturday, after I wrote the entry for my blog on friday, I told my mother that i wanted to get a hair cut. and so... I did... so, my hair is shorter... ok, very much shorter than last time... and I got my fringe cut...

and when i went back to school, the response from everybody was... haha~ oh well... just weird... everybody seemed shocked ... (to put it lightly) I am resorting to doing a comprehension everyday so that I can do exceptionally well for english... I really want to get an A1... ='( and I really hope I can do the same for the chinese o level i'm taking this year... =( And even for my higher mother tongue... chinese is the most important subject to me... and I cannot afford to get a B... and i've complied a vocabulary book... hopefully it'll help in composition writing... I'm more concerned about the functional writing... I still remember the passing mark i got last year... it was horrendous... and this time, i'll set aside enough time for functional and attempt it properly instead of getting it done slipshodly (it's spelled like that, right?) but i always take a very long time to plan my story and i always end up ending extremely abruptly because i ran out of time... hopefully it won't be like that for chinese... i do realise that i won't be able to use my stack of phrases... i have to get everything memoriesed as soon as possible... =( haiz... I really hope one day I can write a very impressive composition... I want to feel how it's like to score 60 something out of 75 for chinese compo... (so far, i've only gotten 55 as the highest...-.-") how do people write so well?!

anyway, yar... studies, studies... wang zi bian qing wa is a very nice idol drama...it's quite funny actually... =) the couple inside is so cute...really...i've been cutting down on blog time, so i've had more hours of sleep... ok, not really... I go to bed at 12am... but then i fall asleep at 1.30 or so.. i'm suffering from insomnia... ='( it's horrible... tossing and turning in bed but just not being able to fall asleep... i don't know what's wrong with me...

this weekend, I WILL study... I MUST do well for my end of year... but my chem is horrible and so is my a maths... haiz...and i don't understand the mole concept... I envy the sec 4s... they've ended their prelim today... ok, but they have o levels... so, maybe being a sec 3 is better off afterall... The sec 4s are as good as having graduated... they're just concentrating on their studies now.. maybe except over this weekend in which they'll probably spend shopping or just going out... after 10 days of examinations... I think i'll do that after my exam.. oh wait! i still have o level chinese... ='( I MUST get an A1.... I need to strategise.. I shall go get advice from my seniors....

And I realise that nothing in the world is actually that difficult. I once thought if I didn't talk to a person, I will die. but obviously, it's not true... anyway, I have a clean record of 10 days now...last year, i used to think that when edwin graduates, I'll never be happy again.. obviously it's not true at all... seems like i forget about people easily... maybe it's because edwin has a girlfriend... is that why i forgot about him so readily? maybe...and it was the same for "apple..." so, i shouldn't worry too much about not being able to move on... I think... time will heal everything and make people forget... But i think i will always remember the fun, the countless tears i've shed, the thrill, the awkwardness, my craziness and of course, him...I genuinely hope that he will do well for his o levels... he will go to his dream jc and become a very successful person... and no matter where he is, I'll be wishing him the best. and he will be my target to work towards to... so, 文峰哥哥,你一定要加油！I will set his results as my target... =D I don't believe that I can't do as well as him... 总之，你要考得高一点，这样我才有得比，赢了也会比较满足！

I'll fret over my kor's birthday present after the examinations... I have completely no idea whatsoever of what to get him... i'll think about that later... I've got time anyway... though i don't even know if he will go to school that day...it's arts festival on that day but the sec 4s should be having block revision... ? no idea...

well, seems like i have to work doubly hard for chinese and a maths... =(

by the way, i'm going to chengdu at the end of this year...alone... haha~ not really lah... with the school but my friends are not coming along, so i'll be alone in a way...but I'm sure I can make friends on the way... and i'm more interested in joining the school there for lessons. their culture and their education system should be different... but I have one huge problem... =X 我不会吃辣啦!!!怎么办? who doesn't know that sichuan cuisine is spicy, spicy, and more spicy... I think I will die there... or I could starve to death... ok, i'm so exaggerating... this friend of mine was telling me that chengdu isn't suitable for me... and she keeps telling discouraging things to me and strongly advises me not to go. everybody seems shocked that i'm not going with a friend... But then again, i'll be sec4 next year... so, i don't think i'll be able to go overseas on trips .... oh wait! the trip to Czech republic.... ! choir is going overseas for competition, you see... but that's different... anyway, everybody's saying how china is becoming a very strong country and how important it is to learn chinese very well so when we go there and we are told we would surely go there next time, we'd be at an advantage... i seriously doubt it... but since they put it that way... suit themselves. and i've never seen a panda before... oh wait. actually, i have.... in hongkong. -.-" ok, never mind... i'm still extremely worried about the fact that i don't take spicy food! AAAHHHH!!!!!

ok, i shall worry about it when the time comes... anyway, the trip is from the 22nd - 28th november... it's a 7 day 6 night trip... that seems erm- a little bit long now that i think about it...=X haiyo....

& my family is going on another holiday after I come back... =D yay~ that'll help me forget what it's like to miss somebody...=( I think it's obvious that we're drifting further and further apart...I guess it's sort of expected...but i'm glad to say that after I met him, i've becomed so much braver. anyway, it's not as if I haven't been through my seniors graduating before... =( I miss my choir seniors.. peijia, fanny, yiting, julia... =( next year i'll be a sec 4... that's horrible! i don't want to take o levels... ='(and this year's batch.... i don't even want to think about it... ='( liting, agnes, silvia, shi ping who are the best and closest to me... hari, whom I only got to know through the angel and mortal game... =D and is now my chem teacher... hahaha~ my nice and caring angel... Amos, the person whose guitar and piano playing is.... (speechless, impossible to describe how nice and good it is through words) wish I was like him... vira, who's a very nice alto senior and is quite caring... i remember the time I fell down and she asked me what happened and told me to take care of myself... oh my gosh, i'm so weak now that I think of it...i was crying during choir because the pain was horrible and limped off to the toilet to wash the wound...who else...? and liyin who was so sweet to write me a postcard to thank me for the gift that I gave all the sec 4s... there's still a lot more of course... I sometimes miss puay fen, vijay and deborah's scoldings and naggings... haiz...德峰学长who is always blasting in my ear it's driving me nuts at times and always gives me a lot of stress, but is a very nice and friendly person. and his passion for learning english is... admirable... i don't even bother to read newsweek and yet he forces himself to read it...竞之学长who is ever so polite and rather nice.田慧学姐who is always talking to me during choir and is also another one who is so eager to learn english... i remember during the speech day rehearsal that she was reading national geographic...! I mean... (shocked look) and i was taking a look at it and I couldn't help noticing how many words i've never heard of... -.-" and i was teaching her how to read certain words... oh! and the incident in which she snatched my bracelet!! i'll never forget that... and she was telling me that unless I go ask wenfeng how to pronounce his name in sichuan language, she won't return it to me. and she gave 1 to silvia to wear... ok, i'm a bit pathetic, i wore 2 and both were snatched away... haiz... and put me in a very difficult position... because I never talk to him. shall I say NEVER again? as in face to face... so, after some bargaining, I could ask other people... so I went to ask defeng senior...obviously.... and so I walked over to him and started asking the question. and he didn't hear me... I had to endure the agony as i repeated myself again and puay fen and the rest of the people around us were like- staring at me and listening...='( and when he finally understood what I said, I had to remember it and walk back to her to repeat it to her... and she told me that the bracelet wasn't with her when I went back. and then wenfeng came over with the bracelet and was asking tian hui what she was doing... ok... I don't know if I ought to feel angry or happy...and tian hui pointed to me. so wenfeng asked me if it's mine... though i must admit, he looked so funny holding the bracelet... it's a bracelet of heart beads, of alternating colours of white and pink... hahahaha~ wenfeng looked so funny...! hahahahahaha~=D it totally doesn't suit him. and I was too shocked to say anything other than "thank you" and taking it from him. after that, I felt like strangling tian hui, though she is afterall my senior and i ought to 敬老尊贤 。。。haha~ that makes her sound so old... but anyway, she's very nice... and I enjoy going home with her. because I need to walk to the RI bus-stop to take the bus, so I would go back with her ... that was only for a mere couple of times... but it was fun... =) and I remember vividly how she took care of me when I was sick during speech day rehearsal that time... she's like an elder sister whom you can depend on. =D and she wanted to see me home that night... because the rehearsal was up till a very late time. she offered me to go back with the scholars. I must say, I was touched. she's so nice! how come I never realised that last year...? hm... and i remember that she was the one who came to me during choir last year during the september holidays and asked me if I was the 小魔女on the be yourself day... i was the devil u see... and she said that it was cute... i rarely get such compliments, so i remember it up till today... =P

hm... who else have I missed out? oh...向往学长...er- there's simply nothing to say. I never talked to him before. er- ok, if u consider telling him that 枇杷膏is not a medicine and he ought to drink it. i've never seen anybody who hates 枇杷膏so much... although i think it's not that nice last time but now i think it's quite nice... oh, I remember that I had a very deep impression of him because he's so tall... and the essay that he wrote that was published in a book was quite good. and his sarcasm is not easily forgettable. i always thought he's a cold-blooded creature. but then that time I saw that 田慧学姐fell down and he saw it. he was actually concerned, so that proved that him being a cold blooded animal is quite incorrect. and he's always with wenfeng... haha~ I sitll remember how I asked defeng senior why they are always together and if they are gay... SHH! if they find out, i'm dead...and defeng senior was telling me "it's bloodily obvious that they're not." erm- *nervous laugh* 呵呵~how was i supposed to know? and he was telling me how both of them used to have girlfriends before... I remember that I was more shocked about the 2nd part... but then again, chew yan says that the 2 of them are probably 校草in their school and are extremely popular... so, I guess I should have expected that... judging from how he handled what I did so calmly and nicely. it's as if he's done it dozens of times before... anyway, yar... they are not gay... wait... that was in the past! who knows...? OH OK! i'm just kidding, ok?!

and of course i will inevitably miss that moronic kor of mine... ok, he's not moronic... ok, actually he is sometimes & he'll make you feel like killing him or strangling him to death but you know that you can't because the whole world will come to seek revenge after that. erm- hm... why am I listing the people I will miss when the sec 4s leave this year? ok... i have nothing better to do, apparently... anyway, despite the fact that he gets on my nerves with his ice mountain attitude at times, the fact that he is the most insensitive person in the whole world, he is still quite caring. as in, he will actually ask about your sickness at times. I don't think forcing me to go to bed counts as caring though it is true that there is school the next day and i ought to sleep early... and he is clever. that is an undeniable fact. ok, maybe except in terms of english, he's a little weak. and he sings well... that is also an undeniable fact because he is my senior. and he is quite humourous. and he jokes sometimes. though there is still the fact that he can say hurtful things and then say that there is nothing wrong with what he said... and he's a rather materialistic person who judges people by looks... but at least he knows he's materialistic and... er- ok, i shall stop here, seeing as I have typed mostly good points.

anyway, still, I am thankful to him. for thanks to him, my chinese has improved and I have a deeper interest in chinese. and i learnt to sms in chinese. honestly, i never use chinese in sms... and I think that I have becomed braver. I don't think I will do something like what I did ever again... but at least I now know that i have the courage to do so. and other than the times he made me cry, he's quite good in making me smile or lifting my spirits for the whole week sometimes because of a joke or something he said that is particularly funny. and I have learnt the true meaning of 哭得死去活来...not that that is good.. but it'll always be in my "chloe's book of records" 1 hour and more if added up together... and coming down with flu after that... and I realised that actually, I don't know the difference between liking someone and liking someone and treating him as an elder brother... -.-"and I ought to thank him for being my first "kor". I shall not elaborate further, it's just that I always wanted a kor. ops, i think i spent too much time typing this... =( I shall go and do some a maths questions now...

Been some time since I last wrote... sorry, I've been totally into preparing for my end of years.... today is a friday so i decided to write an entry for my blog to prevent my habit of writing often from going away...

Anyway, i marvel at my willpower... ok, haha~ not really... this is the first time i managed to carry on the cold war... anyway, I'm not intending to sms him so often to bug him anymore... I have to revise...! 14 days... mind you... And i have 7 more sujects to revise... I'm doing 2 a day... except A maths and Chem which are the two subjects i don't have an A for term 3 of... and I read this chinese book my father bought from china that time...I had taken it but hadn't taken time to read it until monday... or tuesday... and it really taught me a lot... I really think the method works... so, i wrote "I got 7 A's for the end of year examination and i am thrilled" in chinese on my left hand to remind myself to think of my target... so that i can work towards it and praise myself and reflect on what i did that day to try to achieve my target...Everybody thinks that I am insane... ='( *sighs* geesh... I'm not insane! anyway, maybe it's just sorely what i think...but i do find learning not as tiring and my learning attitude had changed for the better...=) really! honestly...! it's really true...! and i have been doing a responsible job of revising... well, i decided to start on english first... I really hope to get an A1... (for once) instead of an A2... I find myself sometimes hoping that I can be promoted to band 1... but then again... I don't think it's such a wise idea... because I obviously don't belong there.... i'm probably a B3 but mrs lee is a lenient marker... so I went up by one grade... *sighs* guess I should be contented with being in band 2... =)

oh well...anyway... I MUST do well for my end of year this year...! i must do well! I have to do well... I want to get into a better JC than Ice Mountain... hmm.... I guess this is the only way to make myself want to study and put most of my time in it without complaining...Or making empty promises to study but not fulfilling them... I have to win Ice Mountain...!!!

Yesterday, i went to remind jz senior to wish silvia happy birthday... I knew he'd forget.. sure enough, he did... he saw my message after he went back to the hostel after the examination and then asked me what her handphone number was... doesn't he know that the sec 4s went back early because they had their examination? I was still in class then...It seems that today is chemistry...And then when I turned on my handphone after chem extra lessons in which mr leow revised bonding and i realised that I think I need 4 days to revise chemistry... cause I forgot everything! =( and then I saw his message and silvia's saying that she was happy... because he wished her happy birthday... hm... and she asked me what she ought to say so that their conversation can be longer... she added a "since you're more experienced" in front... -.-" er- i'm not experienced.... I'm a failure, remember? I still remember how she used to say I was a failure and now she was looking to me for advice?! anyway, huiyi told me that it was better to let her know what I did... So, i did... and she was so shocked... but she wasn't angry... thankfully... and apparently, she has a new target... oh my gosh! how can she be so fickle?! I can't believe her...she said her old admirer.... oh my gosh! Ice Mountain used to be one of the people she liked... er- Oh ... ok.... seems extremely unlikely...

But that's the last time i try to help anybody...really.... i've had enough of heart attacks... and today, I told huiyi about the unfeeling and sluttish things I've done... and mostly thought of... huiyi was totally freaked out and sort of disgusted by me... I'm turning into audrey! ='( what is wrong with me?! ok, i'm working on it... I'm trying very hard not to think schemingly.... (why should i be doing that?) what is wrong with me?! I never used to be like that... and now, I can lie without batting an eyelid... and i can even think of hurting myself just to gain other people's care or pity...I am turning into people whom I detest and hate... who knows what i'll think of doing next? maybe even hurting others... or making them suffer in guilt... I don't want to turn into someone so scary... I don't want to... ...Please don't turn into someone like that... i'm not evil... i'll never do such things... and i don't want to...but i feel much more at ease with myself now... i mean, i finally told someone about how despicable and loathesome and scheming I am turning into... hopefully, will change for the better... I cannot imagine if one day i can feel nothing when I hurt people who are the closest to me and matter to me most deeply...and actually laugh at my victory... I really dread turning into someone so... shallow...

I will not sink to the level of Angel... I will not use guilt to push people over the cliff... I will not make use of other people's pity or their care for me to take advantage of them, to let them do what i want them to... I will not act innocent and make others the bad guy when they actually did nothing wrong... I will not pretend to be kind but actually be thinking something of the complete opposite in my heart... i will not be hypocritical...and I will never pretend I'm sick... unless i really am... and i will not resort to crying to make others feel guilty or pity me or shed crocrodile tears... (don't worry, i've never done that before)

I have to save myself.... and i have to study really hard... I won't be writing until next friday... Sorry...

I think I am going mental... oh no...I think I am going mad... ok, I guess mad people don't really know they're mad... so, i'm normal, right....? right? I sure hope so... haiz... not really... I am trying to control the stupid habit of sleeping in the afternoon... And I was dozing off during maths lesson today...before huiyi hit me rather hard in the arm and i woke up in shock... and i hit her too because she was about to fall asleep too after having hit me and had her moment of fun... although i think I was too light... you know me, i can't really hit people... or punch people... maybe i can do better at slapping... I have decided that i will sleep one hour extra today.. and i'm timing my activities so I can wake up for dinner exactly... so, I'm going to bed at 6pm... and waking up at around 7 to have dinner then i can go and study until about 11 or 12 at night... though i always end up sleeping at 1am or 2am plus...for some weird reason, I never have a good sense of time...

and I went insane this morning... I actually broke down... ok, it's not really that exaggerating... Well, I just cried... that sounds so much better... I broke down sounds like i suddenly burst into tears and couldn't stop and was crying and crying and crying and crying... which I wasn't doing... I merely cried a little... until I felt better... crying really helps... chew yan was rather mad at me (she told me during reccess when i was fine already) because i didn't want to tell her what happened when she came over to ask me if I was ok in the morning. I don't know what is WRONG with me... ok, obviously i didn't cry for fun.... (who'd be so insane?) I am now having a cold war with "bing shan" (i'm lazy to change the imput again...) yes, that annoying iceberg! or ice mountain or whatever! just an icy thingy with no feelings and has no brains to think and no heart to feel... I would be surprised if he actually takes literature, he's bound to feel because he's just an empty shell with no feelings and no sense whatsoever.. how can ANYBODY stand him?! how did his ex stand him?! he is SO ... *looks around desperately for a word strong enough to use to describe his serious crime and grave offence* he's just such a... *unable to find a strong word* AAARRRGGHHH! i give up trying to find words to describe him.. his stupidity is beyond compare and it isn't exactly what words can describe... his unfeelingness (is there such a word?) is simply incorrigible... His attitude is... just ... *checks thesaurus* fallacious...(wonder if it's appropriate) When I talk to him, I feel that he is simply abhorent, abominable, appalling, awful, heinous, revolting, loathesome, repulsive, revolting, annoying, pig-headed, tenacious, ill-mannered, mulish, brainless, cretinous, deficient, dense, dim, doltish, dopey, dozy, dull, dumb, foolish, moronic, obtuse, slow, sluggish, thick, witless, woodenheaded, idiotic, imbecile, ludicrous, nonsensical AND finally, totally, extremely, and super duper senseless..!! what misfortune I have to run into such a person.... oh, i've not used vulgarities... i've learnt to control my anger... =) that's a good sign.... I think.... And I am NOT childish... like he's very mature?! he's only 3 years older than me for heaven's sake... Like I said, he is afterall, simply abhorent, abominable, appalling, awful, heinous, revolting, loathesome, repulsive, revolting, annoying, pig-headed, tenacious, ill-mannered, mulish, brainless, cretinous, deficient, dense, dim, doltish, dopey, dozy, dull, dumb, foolish, moronic, obtuse, slow, sluggish, thick, witless, woodenheaded, idiotic, imbecile, ludicrous, nonsensical AND finally, totally, extremely, and super duper senseless... So, i can't really blame him.. I shall not bother myself with such a person... humph~

Ok, i know i am so contradictory... If i am not bothering myself with such a person, i wouldn't be writing about it in my blog.... -.-" erm... why am I debating with myself?! I'm going insane... *sobs* it's all that senseless, *attempts to paste the whole chunk of description again but decides against it* welll, u get the idea... I shall now calm down... yoga should be good... except that i'll break my bones trying to do it... ok, I shall meditate.... ohm... ohm... ohm.... I sound like some machine... ohm... ohm... ohm.... This is so hard to concentrate, especially when I've got "this is stupid, this is stupid" running across my mind constantly as i attempt to clear my mind and see past my stand...

oh... I guess I shouldn't be so petty... I'll see about that... since I am childish, I shall not talk to such a BIG adult like him... what is the deal with being of age? and technically, he isn't even of age in singapore... he's only 18... oh, correction.. he's only turning 18...! oh my gosh... I am being childish by writing how annoying he is in my blog... oh well... that doesn't count... i'm stating FACTS here...

what is wrong with ME?! i am turning insane... I'm going bonkers... so, I am ignoring him for 2 weeks.... ok, 5... because i'll be having my final year examination after his prelims... hope he does badly for them.. oh my gosh! i can't believe i said that... what is WRONG with me? I obviously didn't mean it... Of course I hope that he will do well... really, really... afterall, he is my kor... despite how horrible and unfair he is to me...ok, maybe I am exaggeratting a bit too much... ok, ok... he's not that bad to me... then again, he is quite bad to me...anyway, I've decided that i will not send him jokes anymore since he is such a cold, unfeeling *u get the idea...* person ...oh, I mean, ice mountain cum ice berg...and I will refrain from talking to him too much or asking him to be my walking dictionary...

what's the point of saying all these? i don't know if i'll abide by these rules i've set... the last time i was going to have a cold war with him, I didn't... this time is different... I can't BELIEVE him... How can anybody be like him..? one moment he is so nice to you and the next he is breathing down your neck and attempting to kill you by giving you a heart attack.. and being totally insensitive and unfeeling... and yet sometimes he can be quite caring... and sometimes he can be so happily joking away and others he can be totally criticizing everything that you put in effort to do...

never mind, I suppose i'm getting used to it... he's always doing that...

i just wasted so much time talking about the annoying person! oh my gosh... geesh...

anyway, yesterday I was making the heart-shaped box for silvia... and I almsot died... spent hell of a time making it... but it actually looks nice... i'm bringing her her gift on friday... er- I think they go to school to attend flag raising, right? I haven't wrapped her gift yet... i'll do it after chem revision tonight... (and end up sleeping late again...) i think my body won't be able to stand it one day and i'll collapse and never wake up... ... that'll be good, isn't it? the world is rid of a childish person...

what is WRONG with me?!

This picture is taken from my mvp valentine...it's so sweet! i don't think anybody in the right mind will do something like that though... ok, actually, what i did was as bad... hey! it was nice, ok? and i spent so much effort... this are just flowers that are bought! I spent so much time and effort to make the stars...! humph~ Hm.. today, my mood is quite good too... Dad came back from china yesterday night at 10 plus pm... And he bought loads of DVDs...! i want to go to CHINA! =( but i don't think i have a chance this year because of the extra lessons the sec 3s are having.... ='( geesh... and he bought mr and mrs smith... my sister was balistic with joy! really really... so, she watched it and got the shock of her life because they were showing advertisements that were in german or french or some gibberish language...and she was extremely afraid and we couldn't read the menu either because it just looked like rubbish to us... nope, it definitely wasn't english... that i can guarantee... anyway, then we forwarded to the actual movie and it turned out that english was coming out of brad pitt and angelina jolie's mouths! yay! and the movie was quite ok... it's about these 2 assasins sent to kill the same target and ended up being forced to kill each other... but the irony is these 2 assasins are married and they have no idea whatsoever the love of their life is an assasin... and probably because of this secret bewteen each other, their marriage... well, isn't working out well... but overall, it was cute... there was this scene in which they were going to kill each other and they ended up making love instead... haha~ so ironic...

anyway, so, today my parents were going to bring me to bukit timah to take the photo i'll be using in my IC... right after guitar... and my mum told me that my face looks not as nice.. so it'd be best if i put make-up on.. so, i did... and i went to guitar with make-up... and terence (the name of my teacher) was asking about it. and he thought i was going to a concert after that or I was going for a date... as if i would wear make-up on a date... I mean, won't your date just stare at your face and say "geesh, your powder is so thick...!" and i'd be totally embarrassed. anyway, my make-up skills are not that good... as in I don't really look natural... and it's really obvious I have make-up on... the uncle took like- 3 shots... and he put it on the computer for me to see... and he told me that the 2nd one looks beautiful... I thought they all looked the same... then again, i'm an idiot when it comes to photography... i just like to take photos of myself with a camera... -.-" so, he developed it. and my mothre wanted 6 of it... wonder what i need to much for... oh... yar, to apply for scholarships... but I already have another one... anyway, i haven't changed much, according to what I see... The one in yellow is the one i took today... and the one in pink was taken last year.. and i don't see any difference... actually...

yar... whatever... anyway, we had to wait for merely 15 minutes before the photo was ready... so we went to eat... and i was rather hesitant about trying the mutton soup at first... my dad seemed to like it a LOT.... so, he urged me to try... so i took a sip and thought it was good. =) so he bought another bowl and I shared it with my mother... haiz.. seems like a very long time since we went out together... i mean, we do eat out as a family (duh!) but i've never gone out with my parents without my younger brother and sister...and we went to the bookshop and I was looking for a ribbon or something like that to put on silvia's present..speaking of which, I bought it today! (in a hurry) at gift a name... honestly, i didn't think a lot because i was just in a hurry to get to guitar... anyway, there's nothing cheap at J8 that's nice... I made do with a cup and this cute little rhino soft toy that comes with it.. it's quite a reasonable price... i'm not going to say it here... who knows if silvia really reads my blog, even though when i gave her the address, she was saying "who wants to know about your boring life?" My life is NOT boring! ok... erm- maybe a little... haha~ =P

anyway, i went to seiyu after guitar and looked at the billabong shirt i had on the list of "possible items to get for my kor's birthday present..." and I think i'm going to cancel it out... it's SO expensive!!! $36++++++ for a t-shirt! what is the world coming to? i mean, isn't it a bit INSANE? ok, not a bit... VERY insane? anyway, guys are SO troublesome... for girls, i'll just go to a gift shop and pick what I think looks nice and the person will most probably like... for GUYS, however, god knows what and how they think...! I was thinking a basketball but a good one is much more expensive than that bloody shirt... oh my gosh.... i said bloody... eew... i can't believe i said that... the world is falling apart! ok, i'm so dramatic today.. =P anyway, I have a feeling wenfeng doesn't need a basketball.... hm... haiz... and I really don't think i want to ask him.. and risk getting scolded... ok, sort of scolded... why don't i just ask Xiang Wang Senior? oh... yar... i'm not on good terms with him... and i have this feeling he hates me... for some weird reason... and he's definitely going to tell wenfeng... and wenfeng will think i'm insane again... but i am insane, so... it doesn't exactly make a huge difference... =) haiz... i really don't know what to get that stupid kor.. ok, i didn't mean it.... he's not stupid... Haiz.... his birthday is on the 26th of october.... that's the last day of school, i think... i know, it's kind of very far away... i don't even know how i'm going to pass him the gift... =( I think the sec 4s won't be having arts festival, they'll probably be in their classroom studying... or doing past year exam papers of other schools... poor thing... how am i going to give it to him?! oh well... i still have quite a lot of time... why can't I just give him money?! ok, it'll seem rather insincere... but isn't money practical?

I took a screenshot of shui linglong and li bin.... My sister says that she HATES shui linglong because she looks very "jian..." er- ok... i just don't think she's pretty... she looks weird... -.-" really!

And then, I took screenshots of my MVP valentine... it's a idol drama about basketball and of course, love... I love watching people play bastketball...! but as for playing... *laughs nervously*forget it... One day, i will get someone to teach me basketball... until then... haha~ anyway, everybody says it's very funny to imagine my playing basketball... GEESH! I am not THAT gentle and that girlish! but then again... what's wrong with being a little girlish? ok, maybe i'm not a little... quite... yar, that's the right word to use on me...! anyway, people look great when they shoot...

this is a picture of me and Xiao Feng...He is a present from Lin Xiu and Hwee Li... by the way, i'm lying on my mother's bed... and oh my gosh... i really look so horrible... my complexion is so bad... compare this with the 2 passport sized photos... it's an EXTREMELY huge difference...

Today is a saturday~ =) haiz.. i didn't study today... because in the afternoon, they were doing construction work or something... and they're building lights...? -.-" instoring lights... (as my sister said) the hot dog bread she's eating looks nice...=P haha~ and she's telling me i'm lame... ='( she broke my glass heart... oh ha ha~ ok... i know it's quite obvious, i'm in a happy mood~ or rather, crazy mood...=D

At least i don't have homework already...~ I still remember the march holidays, I was going insane with the huge workload... haiz... and that time we had to go back to school because of choir... oh, actually we went to st nicholas... oh...~ the happy choir times~ I miss my seniors... ='( haiz... and I went to eat at the hawker centre because i refused to eat at mcdonalds...chew yan, bi fang and i met christine and oi man there.. ~=) and we finished eating first... so I went back with chew yan and bi fang...and we saw the scholars on the way back... haha~ and bi fang and chew yan were like, "chloe, i know u have very long legs, but do u need to walk so fast?" That... erm- haha~ *nervous laugh* I tend to do that at times... walk super fast... haha~ of course, i didn't do it on purpose.. anyway, brisk walking helps with slimming down... muhaha~ not that i want to slim down... though i must admit that my thighs and legs are so... *shudders and sobs* but at least i'm of a healthy weight... not too skinny or too fat.. =) but at least i'm not like those girls who are so darn skinny and they keep going "I'm SO fat..." when they look like they'll be blown away just by a breeze... haiz...what is wrong with those girls?

So... what did i do today? hm... I woke up at 11.30 am... haha~ ok, i slept at 2 am, u see... hey, i suddenly recall someone telling me u'll turn fat if u sleep too late.... and i think it's slightly true... i have gained 1 kg... though that's probably because I ate noodles at 1 plus, because i was really really starving... i have been suffering from loss of appetite recently... =( nothing looks nice to me... except when i'm extremely hungry.. when I am, i'll just make do with white bread even... =) haha~ i guess most people are like that... and i'm getting sick of rice... and my mum's dishes... oh no! erm- don't tell her I said that... =P she'll roast me... ^.- haha~ops.... maybe it's part of the symptoms... *gasps* will I soon become aneoroxic? (is it spelled like that...? oh my.... my english is horrendous... must be bad influence... and using chinese too much) geesh.. i'm so crappy... coming up with so much excuses...

and then, I was channel surfing and got tired of it.... because there was nothing of interest value... so, I went to pick up a book and began reading... it's called 再见了，野狼学长！haha~ i know the title sounds crappy... if it's directly translated, it'll mean "goodbye, wild wolf senior..." HAHAHA~ =) Its sounds so stupid... but it's a rather lame story... about this girl who likes this guy and they ended up together... and the story line and how they talk to each other is so ... predictable... but the girl is extremely brave... she actually shouted out to the guy that she liked him and along with a lot of mushy stuff... wow~ I envy her courage... in comparison... hm... haha~ i think i've lost (obviously) but only by a little... ok, quite a lot... haha~=) ok, I think I really have to ask myself... what is WRONG with me today...? why am I so cheery? this is extremely freaky... why am I so happy? nothing good or pleasant happened....

My dad is coming back today... =) I wonder what he brought back... anyway, i can't find my library book, 成都粉子...! It's a library book ! i have to ransack the whole of my house to find it... i can't risk fines... and i haven't finished reading it... anyway, tomorrow is sunday... I have to go practise guitar extensively... sometimes i wonder why i learnt the guitar... ? hm... i mean, i'm such a horrible standard... and guitar is mostly strumming... but i hate strumming. that's probably why I chose to learn classical instead of acoustic or folk guitar... maybe... but partly why i learnt guitar at first is so that I can charm guys... as if... it's rather weird for girls to learn guitar, actually... haha~ hey, i was truly kidding about charming guys... haha~ it sounds so ridiculous... anyway, guys are mostly the ones with the guitar and singing the love songs... though honestly, i'd be rather surprised if it worked.. unless the girl they are singing to has a passion for music or guitar or singing. (like me!) haha~ I belong to the type who likes all three... ~ ok, maybe not music.. i don't really like to read scores... (haha~ ironic huh? i'm in choir and I play the guitar...but i don't like to read scores...) haha~ =D

anyway, it's going to be monday soon.. and it's back to school...not exactly looking forward to it... the sec 4s are starting prelims on monday...I ought to wish my seniors good luck~ =D anyway, should i remind jingzhi senior about the favour he agreed to help with? would it be weird to request him not to tell her I told him to...? hm.. i'll think about that on thursday... I still have time... oh no! i have not bought silvia's birthday gift... ops... =P I don't know what to get her.. haiz... I'll have to go shopping tomorrow after guitar... J8... where else can i go? for some reason, I go there every week and i don't feel bored... I like going there, and just walking about... but I probably shouldn't do that too often now... I should pay more attention to my health... it's not exactly good to walk such a long distance, especially under the sun when i'm going back.. and there are not a lot of places for u to rest in J8 when u're tired... wonder what's so nice about J8 ... it's a wonder how come I go there practically all the time and never get bored... and the journey home is so long... ok, i shan't complain too much.. at least i don't have to walk that way everyday when i come back from school ... I have my mother's car... haha~ =P i'm so lucky... and then when i reach the bus stop, i still have to wait for the bus, and then get down after 2 stops and climb a over head bridge... *sobs* my poor legs.. though it is good exercise, i'd rather just give my mother a call...

my sister is pondering over the maths question...I feel so sianz... =( my cheery mood is going away... wonder if that's good or bad... hm... >.<>

Hey, I didn't talk about **** today.. haha~ who said that I always mention him in my blog? humph~

15:25

Hi~ i'm in quite a good mood today... hm... because I actually managed to get things done today... =) and I did the 20 questions mr lim gave us for homework... only I didn't know how to do the last 2nd question... 呵呵~so I skipped it... =P haha~ what else am I to do...?

And i tried to read this chinese book that i borrowed from the national library...it's called 魔法妄想症....and oh my gosh... the book is extremely scary... I couldn't bear to read it anymore, so i've dumped it inside the library bag and i'm determined not to touch it anymore.. Really really... it's so freaky... it's a 推理小说..而且很恐怖啊！真的诶！and i tend to hallucinate and imagine scenes in books that i've read... so, i ended up seriously scaring myself... it happens all the time... 咳...可能因为我经常想太多了...还是少自己吓自己了啦。。。anyway, they found a mutilated body near orchard mrt today.. *shudders* and i was reading a detective book on this case in which the victim's head was cut off... ok, ok... i shall not think about it anymore... it simply gives me the creeps...

ok, let's not talk about that anymore... 我快吓哭了...*sobs* 好啦！我很没有用啦！ i remember that when i was young, i would read singapore ghost stories and get extremely freaked out, so scared i wouldn't sleep properly at night and imagine myself being taken away by *coughs, cough*ops, i am scaring myself... but at least this time it's so much better... i thought i'd totally freak out after watching 3 horror movies... ok, so called horror movies... but I didn't... though i don't deny that i still tend to scare myself by recalling the scenes... haiz...

hm... what else happened today...? oh... i was feeling a little unwell because my head felt a little bit like it was exploding... and i lay in bed for some time, staring at the ceiling, or rather the "I love A maths" and "U should be studying" that i drew and pasted up there... and i was looking at my targets and wondering if they're possible.. 呵呵~我看到自己写的一定要考上top jc, 就觉得我其实不一定要跟着人家，应该走自己的路...但是，我不知道要往哪儿走...

haiz... ok, enough about such stuff... i've decided that i ought to be more cheerful~ =D 呵呵~hm... I mean, why be so uptight about things? There's nothing wrong with being a little happy-go-lucky... just don't over do it and be so heck care about other things... hm... and i've realised that a smile really brightens up my day... so i shall smile and laugh more... and never be grumpy... 呵呵~ =P

anyway, i was listening to a radio programme today that analyses what type of girls guys like depending on their horoscope.. and i heard that scorpio guys like girls who are cool and mysterious...天啊！and I was wondering what type of a girl I belong to... hm... and up till now, i still can't figure what type of a girl i am... haiz... *sighs deeply* 我看，我绝对不属于冷冷，神秘型的女孩...咳...我是哪一种类型的啊？

真烦恼诶...haiz...突然想到文峰哥哥在我以前问的问题时的答案..yirong once asked me to do this questionaire thingy... and she asked me to pick out of a river, car, house, wind or a forest, what I would use to describe her... and each one represented a different relationship status the person thought of u... 呵呵~我还记得文峰哥哥问我一定要选吗？然后，他就说他会选小河，小河比较可爱...=P 那么，照他这么说，我是可爱型咯？哎哟...那跟冷冷，神秘差好远，好远啊！haiz... 而且，我又不属于美丽的型...高贵典雅型好像也不适合...哎哟...我到底是哪一型啊？咳哟...huiyi is always saying I am a very 女生的女生...hm... 活泼？吵？开朗？温柔？我觉得没有一个符合我...难道我没有好处吗？除了温柔体贴（其实是喜欢多管闲事啦）唉...还有不要脸...哎哟...=X haha~ 好怀念以前我们好多话讲的时候哦...不过，还是看开一点吧~而且，他会关心我，我已经很高兴咯...有时，常问自己他是不是讨厌我...不过，现在，我知道我真的想太多了...~讨厌我的话，会跟我讲话吗？=)

Ok, I shall not fret over what type of a girl I am... but don't I have any good points? =X haiz... *pouts* anyway, I was thinking... whether i ought to cut my hair... but it's so long... but then again, i want to try something new... like a china doll hairstyle.. muhaha~ ok, not that dramatic a change... but it'd be nice to have short fringe for once..? though i did spend a really really long time keeping my fringe and my hair... but then again, it can be grown long again... anyway, i just want to see what it's like... though i don't think it'll turn out nice... hm... but i'm really caught in a dilemna... is it spelled like that...? hm... =P =) but if i turn out to be really ugly... ='( then... *ruffles hair in frustration* but then again, everybody's always commenting on how long my hair is... i wonder what it'd be like to be able to sit on my hair? haha ~I'm kidding... haha~ =D but then, hm... long hair is better.. though i don't have a pretty face... long hair is mostly a plus.. Isn't it...? =D anyway, i was watching 赤子成龙today and i was wondering why 3 men are fighting over this shui ling long.. she isn't exactly pretty...but her hair is so long~ i'm wondering how i'd look with her length of hair... but my head will feel extremely heavy... haha~ =P anyway, it is true.. i look horrendous in 2 plaits...

我的人生目标是什么呢？我都没有一个要走的路..盲目的过着每一天...就只是觉得总之要把书读好，过后的到时再说吧...我这样得过且过，走一步算一步，要达到超好的效果的话，简直不可能...怎么人生就是这样呢？

我常想，一个人活在这世上究竟是为什么呢？我们是不是一生下来就有一条指定的路得走呢？人生有好多事情，好多部分...要一一列出来恐怕不容易...我呢？我的生命里有什么是非常值得我去留恋的吗？。。。 。。。其实这答案挺简单的。我很高兴我身边的人对我那么好，那么关心我，疼我。。。生我养我的父母。虽然偶尔合不来，常常气他们不了解我心里的想法，但是我知道他们应该是世界上最爱我的人。怎么说，blood is thicker than water...不是吗？=) 我好像从来都没有说过我爱他们。。。我这个做女儿的还真失败诶...唉...我真的不知要如何开口。而且有点尴尬诶。天啊！我怎么了？这么简单的话都说不出口。我好可悲啊！哎哟。。。还是不要一天过一天...我不喜欢这样的生活。时间从来不可嫌多。我不应该把这些事一直推后。我过的每一天都仿佛在倒数...所以，我一定要把我想做的做好，这样我就不会有任何遗憾了。而且，我不希望我是那种过了才觉得可惜为什么当初不好好把握机会的人。那么，我应该把我想做的事全部先做好。

我那六个心愿...我想，最可以实现的...是第一个吧...=) 可是，也要挑时机吧！我觉得最难实现的还是关于文峰哥哥的那两个...唉..算了...反正我不可能要什么就得到什么吧？人生没有那么一帆风顺的Y...诶？我怎么都在用中文？-.-"我没事吧？不过，我还记得我以前还挺排斥华文的..可是，最近我越来越喜欢华文了...看come on shoot他们说老师是一种推动力...我想，这可能是吧~卓老师是个好老师...而且可以和我们这些学生打成一片，不容易哦~=)可是，我想，我会去写佳句，背好词，这么拼命的想要让自己的写作能达到某一定的程度，还不是某某人的因素。我觉得我这人太可笑了...哪有人像我这样的？不过，华文是个语文，要学得很好，并不简单...没有推动力，我想撑不了多久吧~那么，我要谢谢某某人咯...呵呵~唉。。。最近常常头痛，而且坐了一下，站起来时，就会头晕...唉...应该挺正常吧？

不知道为什么，我觉得我好像越变越糟...我越来越不像自己了...我开始做一些我做梦都没想到我干得出来的事...我以前不喜欢尝试新的东西，但是现在我却一直渴望改变...我到底怎么了？而且我平常都超胆小，我不会惹事生非，可是现在什么芝麻绿豆的事我都想管...我到底是不是邓惠文啊？而且我也不是那种很主动的人...我是不是变了？是变好了吗？不过，以前我是不会那么过分的...不知道为什么，我觉得我越来越像那些偶像剧里的坏人...那时说好听点的，不好听就是我变成了一个很贱的人...当然，不是说我会专搞破坏，挑拨离间，我还没有那个能力及勇气啦...而且我没那种人的聪明...不过，我竟然好像在演一个角色...而不知道为什么，我好像已经深入那个并不属于我的角色了...哎哟...我也不知道自己在胡说什么...总之，我觉得我变了...而且，我现在撒谎不眨眼，伤人的心有时明知故反，还有时不怎么内疚，我好害怕...我是不是要变成一个大家都讨厌的人？不过，幸好我还没做什么伤天害理的事...（若有那还得了？）唉。。。我一定要改过来...我不要变成那种我看了很想狠狠地打一巴掌的人...

真搞不懂自己...年终考试要到了...一天一天的逼近了...我却还那么懒懒散散的...怎么办呢？我真的提不起劲来啊！不知道为什么...唉...感情的事真烦...!人要是没有七情六欲就好了！我就没那么烦了...! 唉...还是不要想那么多了啦...哇！要打中文字真的超费时诶！哎哟...以前开始用中文发短信时真的慢得我自己都受不了，现在练习多了，自然而然就习惯啦..用中文打字应该也是如此吧？不过，幸好我有学好，反正以后一定用得着...血癌...我今天才知道原来leukumia就是血癌...我还真够笨的...血癌...好恐怖的病啊...比起他们，我好很多倍了...像我跟文峰哥哥说的，我应该暂时还死不了了...但是，我真的有点怕...我真的好希望尽快实现我的愿望，还是小心为妙好... ...可是我的愿望真的好难达成... ...我永远不会忘记情况就是因为我的任性和白痴，变成那么糟...从无话不谈变成...我已不只要如何形容了...不说了...

在rumbling hearts里，一位女主角是因为发生过车祸，因此昏迷三年而把男主角绑在她的身边的...我觉得，还是公平的竞争比较好...但是，世界有许多的不公平。打个比方说，就像男人通常只喜欢美女... 不过， 这样不是有比较大的胜算吗？不过，还是有点卑鄙诶...不希望我是这样的人...不过，我的情况好像根本不一样，不能混为一谈吧？我又没什么太大的病，也暂时还死不了，只是比较可能会生病罢了...而且，谁要因为得了病才把喜欢的人留在身边啊？那个人真的值得吗？我想，应该没有这么厉害吧~

其实，我今天没事干时想了想，我为什么当初会喜欢上文峰哥哥？想了大半天，我还是想不到答案...真是的..为什么呢？真是太奇怪了。。。还真令人费解诶...hm....我想除了自己，没有人知道吧？但我自己都不知道诶...=X 唉...还是不要想那么多了啦...哎哟...我有点捆了... 晚安啦~=）88~

我觉得“爱笑的眼睛”越听越好听... 呵呵~oh... that was so lame... haha~ hm... sorry i didn't write yesterday... i've noticed that i only write twice a day nowadays.. mainly because it's the holidays... so there's not much happenings seeing as i stay at home all day doing nothing and feeling bored with my life... haiz...

yesterday, we had maths and geography extra lessons and i had to wake up at 6 plus... one thing i don't like most about school is waking up early... 呵呵~I always prefer to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling of my bedroom... ok, it's not my bedroom... i share it with my younger sister... not that i'm complaining... because we're always talking at night... it feels great to have someone to talk to about anything under the sun... =) I guess that's one good thing about having a sister. =D I can't imagine talking about girl stuff to a brother.. especially not my younger brother... haha~ anyway, all he really is interested about is maplestory... I see no point in that game... it's rather meaningless, if u ask me... but I really think my sister is quite brave. she has this crush in her tuition class... but she never made an effort to talk to him ever before... i seriously doubt he knows she exists... but during her last lesson, she was talking to her friend about him and she encouraged her to tell him how she felt... i should be the one doing that.. i'm her 大姐诶！oh well... anyway, she was about to do that but he came late that day... and after class, he dashed right out of class and was gone soon... my sister was telling me how regretful she felt... i guess this is a valuable lesson. we should go for what we want and not regret it only when it's gone... but i have to admit, my sister is so brave... she is always unsure of herself because she thinks she's really fat... but actually, she's ok to me... and she thinks nobody will ever like her because she's fat and not very pretty... i think she's worrying too much... she was telling me yesterday that it is impossible to meet someone who doesn't look at looks at all... I totally agree... Actually, i could have been more forceful with her. I could have spent more time and effort persuading her to tell him earlier... now, maybe they won't even get to meet each other.. because he might not take the same subjects as her.. you see, there's a maths and then combined or pure science...I am such a horrible elder sister... I am never really very nice to my younger siblings... =(

My sister was telling me that she was thinking that he would feel very awkward going to tuition and knowing that a girl in the class likes him and he might consider skipping tuition... i think nobody would actually do that... other than virgos... haha~ I really think virgos are weird... i'm not biased... i'm a virgo too. and i admit that i'm weird. and i really think too much... i ought to be more happy-go-lucky...that'll make my life so much happier and more cheerful... If i were in the guy's shoes and i didn't like my sister, i'd really consider skipping tuition... =P ops... but i'm not that guy... and guys don't do that.. I think... unless they're virgos... that's just what i think... it might not be true... at least it was true with edwin... at least i know that scorpios don't do that... =P And she set me wondering how 文峰哥哥tolerated being in choir after the 19th of april.. -.-" not that there was a lot of choir practices after that... but i'm sure it was awkward for him... i never really thought about it before... how he would feel when he met me next time or something like that... i should have thought more about that and considered how he would feel and try to think of things in his shoes.. i'm so selfish... =(

ok, i shall stop being so stupid.. i'm thinking too much again... haiz... I need to get a grip on myself... I wonder how is it I can be more confident of myself.. and am i very blur? everybody says that i'm blur.. i mean... those who don't know me very very well... i'm not blur lah! i'm not a sotong! =X i'm a cat...!

其实我真的很怕...我真的不知道我们还有没有路让我们继续走下去...

I was very sian today because i really don't know how to start studying... i realise that i never do what i say i will do... -.-" and that's definitely not good at all.. I really really need to start revising... end of years are of utmost importance..! haiz... and so i was reading my "diary" which isn't exactly a diary as it's not a book... and I really enjoyed reading the front parts...I was smiling and laughing at my stupidity at times... but i felt like closing it the moment i reached the behind parts...i didn't even want to continue reading... because everything was so short and just... not really worth reading...and i was comparing the length and felt utterly depressed... 有时我会不时想，如果我当时没有约他，我们现在会是如何...其实我觉得我的要求太高了...我其实真的真的很感谢他...我很畏惧...如果我就这么走了...But it was probably proof that relationships will tend to turn bland with time... i suppose that's supposed to be good... apparently not...at least for me...

I was looking at the folder in which I put the short chinese essays i wrote in my free time during the june holidays... and i felt like crying... i think i need to go visit a psychiatrist... (oh no.. i've even lost the ability to spell simple english words! aaahhh....) I am so emotional! why do i have to be a virgo? aaarrrggghhh...i was looking at fairy pictures from fanart com and my brother came and said this china girl from his class can draw very well... i agree... girls from china draw really really well... i remember that 田慧学姐was drawing a picture that time and i was totally mersmerised by the beautiful drawing. that the time we were going to decide on the costume for the syf... if i'm right, that was ... last year...? but i wasn't very close to her then... why am i suddenly talking about this...?

anyway, yesterday i was watching come on shoot on channel U where mrs lim S H was on tv...and i saw chew yan also... she looks a little weird on tv... ops.. =P 呵呵~开玩笑的啦... and i was thinking that chinese is our mother tongue so we shouldn't be spending that much effort learning it...I mean, shouldn't it be natural that we can speak it well...? apparently it isn't true.. haiz... why isn't learning malay a problem for malays but learning chinese is a problem for chinese?! haiz...

是不是只有生病的人能够把心爱的人留在身边？ 这样很卑鄙诶。。。

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Haha~ It's not really very weird being 15... I cried a lot today... I don't know why I'm so emotional today.. but i once thought when you grow older, you're supposed to be more sensible...there's still a maths lesson tomorrow... from 7.30 to 9.30... I have to get up early... and i've not finished mr lim's homework...I was busy with being a birthday girl the whole of yesterday... except last night after i finished writing my blog... and today, I spent most of my time reading... my sister's friend came over to our house to do their project ... though most of the time, they were just sitting down and watching the television... guess that's my fault... i was channel surfing because i was really bored... I should really get down to studying... or i'll regret it later on...

I once wondered... what would it be like to die one day... would the people around me cry over my death or will some be celebrating... I may have offended a lot of people unknowingly actually... i think they'll be jumping for joy... my family would definitely be upset...my friends... would probably be sad too... except huiyi... she said she'll open a bottle of champagne.. jokingly of course... i know she won't be so bad...what about people who don't really know me...? like maybe... my seniors whom i'm not that close to. like liyin.. she's really nice... =) she wrote me a postcard to thank me for the present i gave all the choir seniors during the farewell party... so sweet... or Jingzhi senior... he replied me ... Yesterday, i sms-ed him to tell him that it's my birthday and i have a favour to ask of him... (making sure it wasn't already 12am...) and I explained about silvia's birthday being on the 17th of september.. and asking if he could wish her happy birthday on the 16th, which is next friday... and he agreed and apologised for not replying earlier because he didn't see my messages then wishing me happy birthday... but it was actually already belated... haha~ oh well...~ another blessing... by the way, did i mention that zhi wei actually wished me happy birthday yesterday? i've not sms-ed him for ages...! mainly because he would tell audrey practically everything that i told him... and it totally got on my nerves... and he actually checked my friendster account to find that out... hm... seems like he's a very nice person... though i won't exactly be interested if i were him... but then again, i'm not him, am I? haha~ =D

Hey, I was looking for pictures of people crying and I saw this really cute website with cute thingys... they're simply adorable... i like saving pictures... =) Don't know why...haha~ wenfeng once said that "wo you bing"... which means that i'm sick... haha~yesterday, i was telling wenfeng that i've never really thanked him properly before.. and thanks for everything... and i was wishing him happiness and the usual stuff... and i was saying i'm very happy to have him as a kor... then, i said "oh my gosh... that sounded so rou ma (disgusting) i am taking back the last sentence..." and then... wenfeng replied me saying "why do u suddenly say this? (directly translated) are u alright?" ok.. this is stupid... let me type it in chinese...i am so lazy to change the language imput... haha~ “干嘛突然说这个啊？你没事吧？” erm- so i told him i was going to die...(ok, so i exaggerated... it's not that serious yet... I won't die so soon...) and he replied me 怎么了？生病了？ that was probably the 4th time i felt like he was really my kor...

... .....

then... today, I turned on my handphone the whole day.. because i had nothing better to do... then, i heard 屋顶 playing... (my handphone ringtone) and so I went to look at who would sms me during the holidays... and I was extremely surprised to see wenfeng's message... ok, it feels weird typing wenfeng instead of 冰山or 文峰哥哥... i'll just change back to using 文峰哥哥... he hardly ever messages me first... unless it's because i gave him something or something like that... and he asked me 病好点了吗？for some weird reason, i started crying... geesh... i'm so emotional... and then at first i sent a reply that said I don't know and i said too much last night... I sent a very long sms to him later feeling that i owed him a proper explanation. and then a joke... he replied me that he doesn't understand the joke... it wasn't even really a joke today.. so i said it was just a very lame story... and he said 看出来了... haha~ he's great at 看ing things... I told him this and he said maybe and told me to take care of myself...“大概吧，你自己多注意身体吧。 ” and i started crying again... what is WRONG with me?! oh well... and i couldn't stop...I told him that he can be a fortune teller next time and I will... and I thanked him twice... and after that, i just kept crying...and crying...until i got sick of crying myself.. and used up half the tissue box when i thought i had stopped... and i looked at the message again and started crying all over again...

... ... .... ..... ..... ..... ...... ...... ..... what is the matter with me?! ok, i shall not cry so much... ...

and i couldn't stop... this was quite different from the last time i remember as my best record... that was worst...那时真的哭得死去活来的。。 it was like i felt like crying and crying and crying forever but i couldn't...and i didn't try to stop the tears but they stopped themselves...(u do run out of tears sometimes) i cried for sometime before i got tired & my stomach hurt terribly... this time, i was trying to stop the tears but they wouldn't stop..

why am i talking about how i cried?! oh my.. i think i am seriously losing it...

but I realise that i was never strong to begin with... i'm so weak... ... is a sickness a blessing or is it a misfortune? i don't know...maybe it's a blessing.. at least u get to have your last wishes fulfilled... other times, you may never get to fulfil it... like in "crying out love in the centre of the world" which is“在世界中心呼唤爱”.... the girl wanted to go to the place which was considered the centre of the world... but she wasn't really going to go until she was going to die...will i be able to get my wish? haha~ don't worry, i'm not going to die that soon... but we all die sooner or later, don't we? it's just a matter of when and what u did before u died and how u died... =)

If one day i were to leave this world, I will want to do some actually, 6 things before i go...
1) thank everybody, my friends, my teachers, acquaintances, seniors for being so nice to me...or just being a part of my life...
2) say i love u to my family members because i really do and i'd really hate myself if i never got the chance to tell them something so important
3) score an A1 for A maths... (seems a bit too much to ask because if i'm sick, i can't really think and won't be able to much less do a maths)
4) I want to take a neoprint with 文峰哥哥... i know this can never be fulfilled actually... 我有自知自明。。because we won't even get to meet nowadays.. with his prelims, and then my end of year, then his o levels and he'd go back to china until next year to come back to take his results... and i have a feeling i will lose contact with him...much as i'd hate to...and he'd never agree to take a photo with only a girl... not with yating, not with me...
5) I want a blue coffin... (haha~) ok, this isn't really important lah... i'll cancel this out...oh well... i think i'll just leave it here...i'm kidding, ok? i'm not so lame... i actually kind of like white... i've crowned white as my favourite colour! =D WHITE rocks! =P
And erm- i guess that's about it... i'm easily satisfied, u see...
6) just for once, i'd like to meet 文峰哥哥outside (ok, i shall not demand too much... let's include in school... though that's not of much help) and manage to actually call him...ok... i've had enough of dreaming... these are all too good to be true...and i don't think there will ever be a day when he calls me... seems extremely impossible.. ok, let's not make my life miserable.. so many things to do before i die... haiz... 好可怜啊..！ i think i ought to cancel 4 and 6 to avoid dying unhappily... then again, i'll just leave it there...1 and 2 is the most important...

我不会那么快死的...死了就太便宜文峰哥哥了...=P每天没有人吵他...呵呵~总之，我一定会好好的照顾自己的... ...而且，我答应过只要看着那个苹果，就会想到我在身旁替大家加油！这是我和朋友们，文峰哥哥的约定...

大家说我像一只波斯猫~I am a persian cat~ cats have 9 lives...~=D 9 lives! 九条命哦~=）

Hi, everybody~ today, i'm 15 years old =) well, today's events were hm... ok.... i got a lot of blessings from everybody... sms... peijia, fanny, julia, hari, shun wei with the cute picture and so many more... i feel so happy...~ haha~ a lot of blessings...

and we went to k-box... yiling wasn't able to come... chew yan joined us later because she was sick... she said her voice is horrible but i think that it sounds er- ok... haha~ and she was upset because polly and i said her voice is something like that originally...haha~

anyway, Wenfeng was extremely nice to me. yesterday, he wished me happy birthday...did i mention that already? hm... and today, i requested him to change my name in his handphone which used to be "deng huiwen"... unexpectedly, he said "(directly translated) sure, is xiao wen ok?" and i was totally elated... i still remember how upset i was during speech day when i saw my full name in his handphone... And mind you, that time i was already his mei... haiz... apparently, i'm not very close to him.... because chinese don't usually call the whole name with the sirname... it's not very usual except for people like Xiang Wang. because his name only has 2 characters... mine has 3...! oh well, i think that was quite a good birthday present... i've been meaning to ask him to change it for a long time... but i was really afraid i'll get a scolding...ok... he never actually scolds me... but sometimes, his replies aren't very nice... ...

the best birthday present was given to me by destiny... haha~ that sounds extremely corny, huh? haha~ well, after a very fun 5 hours of singing at k-box with my friends, i went to j8 to shop, and i was starving so i wanted to buy something to eat... i wandered about for a very long time. then finally bought cookies and took the escalator up... when i reached the 1st floor, i was (to put it lightly) shocked. there were 3 guys ... rather tall guys and obviously I noticed someone instantly. yar... Wenfeng ... who was wearing blue and Xiang Wang who was in red. and another scholar whom i don't know...didn't really get a clear view... anyway, it was so SHOCKING... to see him there.... at J8... where i've spent practically my whole life.. (ok, not so exaggerating lah) but i go there for guitar every week on sunday...! and i live at bishan...! and i've never had the good fortune of meeting him... and yet on my birthday... I suddenly bump into him...

But i don't think they saw me... which is actually good...I decided to go up to the 4th floor... so i took the escalator up. & as they were ahead of me and also taking the escalator, i got a clearer view and yes... SO it is Wenfeng... it wasn't my mind playing tricks on me... and then I walked into sembawang and glimpsed them walking into the food court... which is weird... i thought they had dinner in their hostel...? hm... anyway, i went to poh kim and stood outside watching Initial D... I never saw it before... its vcd is out, you see... and i thought it was quite cute.. halfway through my watching, 3 people were walking past me talking... yar, it's the 3 of them... walking to I don't know where... I was finding it hard to call him... I should HAVE called him... I once swore to myself that the next time i saw Wenfeng outside, i WOULD call him for sure... but i didn't.... and heaven was so kind to me... on my birthday... i think it knows that i'm dying of sadness at not being to take a neoprint with him... but i guess that's impossible... anyway, i'm really happy to get to see my kor... =) I have no idea why but I like being a younger sister... -.-" hm... a bit lame huh? I want a kor to dote on me~ honestly i don't think Wenfeng is doing a good job... haha~ no lah.. he's quite nice to me~ =D

anyway, I thought they'd have gone back after that... I decided to stay there and continue watching.. then, I could see from the tv... because there was a portion that was black and could reflect what was going on behind.. and I saw them again... I don't understand what they're trying to do... and Wenfeng was stopping. he doesn't seem to want to walk past that area... obviously, they've recognised me.. and the 2 guys were pestering him so they just walked on.. and I could hear my heart thumping as they walked closer. and they are such GOOD actors... especially Wenfeng... he was like asking xiang wang "what is that show?" in chinese as he walked past me...and i couldn't bring myself to "hi" him... why couldn't they be with Jingzhi or Defeng...?! anyway, it's not exactly easy to call "wenfeng ge ge~" in public... it's a little- .... .... .... i shall not elaborate more... i must give wenfeng an oscar award...! I think i'm quite a good actress myself...~ =P at pretending that i didn't see them... i know he saw me... anyway, thank u so much, heaven~ =D although i should have called him... not that it's a lot of help anyway....anyway, wa...! he's a GREAT actor... ... *nods head*

anyway, i like the birthday presents... thank u everybody~ huiyi and jia ru gave me clothes... chew yan gave me this cute cat notebook and piggy bank.. i haven't opened polly's present yet... i'll tell u tomorrow or day after... wanna start studying... and faris actually sang me a birthday song~! as in he called me and sang to me! haha~ what a great friend... 8 years! so long...! hari "sang" me a birthday song too.. like Defeng's... haha~ in sms format... =)

should I go pester Wenfeng...? haha~ hm... i'm getting a bit tired..sorry i'm not using chinese today but typing everything in hanyu pinyin.. i am too lazy to change the imput... =P I think he's asleep by now...~ i guess i ought to start studying too... he must be busy slogging for the prelims... ... poor thing...

anyway, wa~ 5 hours at k-box...! =D i can't believe i did it! haha~ i'm SO tired... thank you, everybody who helped made my 15th birthday so great... and thank u wenfeng ge ge for the birthday present which is actually quite pathetic but nevertheless made me quite happy and thank u for being at J8 today and being such a great actor (ok, maybe not the last one)... and thanks to all my friends who went to k-box to go crazy with me... and my voice was not as good because of cold... but oh well~ at least i had fun singing badly... muhaha~ and thank u all who gave me blessings... oh no! i have to go ask Jingzhi senior for a favour..! quick, before my birthday ends...!

=P bye~
A happy, elated, excited and very tired Xiao Wen signing off,
Thank u all~!

Happy, happy, happy~ HAPPY birthday to U~! yay~ 筱文大一岁了！太棒了~ 呵呵~我发疯了。。。
anyway, the movie marathon on friday was... FUN~
It was great...! Hwee li and lin xiu were late... we were supposed to be in school by 7.00 sharp or mr tock would lock us out. i reached school and sms-ed them... they were still on the train... so i sat down outside the toilets of the temp block and saw the guard LOCK the gate! i was like- AAAAHHHH!

but then, later mr tock came and let some people who were also locked out in... and i told him the 2 of them weren't here yet... so we waited for them... then, they came in. thankfully...and they came in with my birthday present... this giant lion soft toy...! i've decided to name it 筱峰... so, we headed to inspiretown... and 在世界的中心呼唤爱already started 10 minutes ago when we got in after we gave our consent form to the 3-7 people.. by the way, i saw nicky, jia qian, dev and deng yiling earlier but not in inspiretown.. so they obviously went to the music room... I thought the movie was quite ok lah... but it wasn't as nice as mr tock said it was... let me tell u this, i'm the MOST emotional person on earth and yet i didn't cry.. i can't believe he cried... and the ending was so... diaoz... anyway, the poor girl died of leukemia... poor thing... i pity the guy more actually... but they're so cute.. they record what they want to say to each other on tape and give it to the other to listen to... i want...! haha~ ok... problem is i don't have a boyfriend to do that with.. haha~ 文峰哥哥will be like "R u insane?!" haha~

U know... I have him 枇杷膏on friday... and twisties... ok, actually, i am very biased... anyway, the rest of the class and my dearest agnes, liting and all got titbits too... twisties, cheezels, double decker prawn or chicken.. too bad i couldn't eat... ='( i lost my voice in the morning, u see... and i was asking yirong if she could pass the gift to wenfeng... and she was like- no! and she said she can come with me though...diaoz... oh well... so, i just walked over and stood next to him. and i couldn't exactly talk, so, i wasn't talking... i gestured at the plastic bag and he noticed me standing there. so, he took it, with a very “莫名其妙”expression... i walked back without a word... and yirong was telling him he looked so weirded out.. haha~ ok... -.-"

and then, before i went for the marathon, i was sms-ing him his joke of the day and he asked me 你送我枇杷膏是什么意思 deng...-.-" 啊？？不可以吗？给你润喉啊~i replied... and u know what he replied me...?! he said “... 有病啊...” er- ok... i admit it's a bit weird... but who says it can't be taken even when you're not sick... anyway, after drinking it (because i'm sick these few days) i've come to a conclusion that it's actually nice... =) i used to think it's horrible... i mean... when 冰山told me that it was nice, i was totally shocked... ... but now, i see why... anyway, my sore throat has improved... it's more of the running nose now... ='( all thanks to the great 枇杷膏~wenfeng is so ungrateful...! ok, ok... i shall stop being so unreasonable... i admit that it's weird... and a bit mental... but, it's the thought that counts... who would buy stuff for him just because his prelim is coming up...? ok... er- maybe his mother but she's not with him嘛。。。anyway, i just hopes he actually drinks it... or i'd have wasted money... he'd BETTER drink it...!

Ok, enough about that kor of mine... anyway, the marathon...! after the 1st movie ended, we stayed in inspiretown to watch I-robot... people were getting sleepy... lin xiu was half awake throughout the movie... i watched it before... i have the pirated DVD... muhaha~ ops... i'm not supposed to publicise it... =P geesh... it's quite nice...will smith is so funny...! then, we moved down to the music room to watch premonition...! oh my god! i love japanese movies! it was totally AWESOME! 真的很好看！the sound effects are...! just fanstastic... and the story is actually quite scary... i can't believe i watched 3 horror films now that i think about it...i always tend to scare myself after watching by thinking about all the gory scenes... eew...and hence become 疑神疑鬼的... but this time is better, i've learnt not to do that... premontion is about this guy who can see predictions on newspapers before they happen... really cool... he first saw one that said that his daughter will die in a car accident... ok, let's not talk about it... i'll be thinking about it a lot... then, there's boogeyman... which is TOTALLY LAME! it was horrible... and stupid...! it was so stupid... i watched the whole thing and was totally astounded at the lameness..! it was so diaoz...hide-and-seek on the other hand, was great... as in, the visuals... the plot... the plot! i never expected the twist at the end... it was the father killing everybody ... he was mentally disable and he invented this charlie character and he asked his daughter to help him... he didn't realise he was the one doing everything... then, he turned totally insane and was even going to kill his own daughter... well, he killed his wife because she was seeing another man behind his back... geesh... get a life...! he doesn't have to murder, does he? by the way, i totally froze inside... i couldn't find my jacket at home... so i froze to death... (literally)

anyway, the last movie was X-men evolution and i was too tired by the time.. i didn't sleep, u see...lin xiu and hwee li were sleeping since the 4th movie... getting up occassionally because there was this group of girls who kept screaming at every single thing! everything that wasn't even scary! geesh...! please lah...so, i watched a bit... ice man is so CUTE...! and so... i slept and when i opened my eyes, I saw that everybody was leaving.. and the lights were on... haha~ i slept throughout practically the whole movie... then, i called dad and waited for him to come at the back gate...and lan li was walking past with her friends and she bye-ed me... she screamed a lot too... that time we went window shopping, we went to sembawang music store and she told me she liked horror films but she'd scream like hell when watching... haha~ 自己吓自己。。。何必呢？and i froze again in my father's car.. haha~ and i felt like my eyes were bursting... haha~ it was hard to keep them open ...and they hurt... i ate breakfast outside, then went home, washed up and bathed... watched tv for a while then went to sleep... my dear bed! i love my bed.. the music room floor is so darn hard!

then, i spent saturday mainly sleeping and feeling lousy... because of my horrible blocked nose and running nose and sore throat... and i had to breathe through my mouth most of the time... because one nostril was blocked and i couldn't breathe properly...

as for today, it's better... i sent smses to everybody... saying it's my birthday and i love them.. but later adding that it was said that if u tell people who look like a pig u love them, u'll get eternal happiness...~ haha~& wenfeng was like- 明天真的是你生日啊？生日快乐~ i like the 2nd sentence~ =D haha~ how can he disregard what i write in my letter? does he even read it, actually...? i'm so sad... haha~ ok, it's not that bad... at least i got my blessing...~ can i get him to sing a birthday song...? haha~

and 德峰学长is so nice... he was telling me it's not funny at all... i told him he could have at least 敷衍me.. and he asked me how to fu yan? so i told him to say "哇~好好笑哦！学妹真幽默" and happy birthday... and he was like- oh... sorry, i didn't know tomorrow is really ur birthday... i thought it was a stupid joke... -.-" oh my gosh..! geesh... then he told me he doesn't have time to give me anything... (like i'd expect him to give me something) i mean, we are actually just 学妹学长关系。。。if he has to give me something, then 文峰哥哥owes me a gigantic present... haha~ i'm just kidding... anyway, i told him to give me the photos... he hasn't passed them to me yet...! haiyo... or he can sing me a birthday song... and he wrote in his sms, "happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you. happy birthday to the person who looks like a pig. can u hear me singing?" he's so funny at times... haha~ that got me laughing... so i was saying he's out of tune and a little sharp... he was telling me thank you for your compliment, it is of utmost accolade. and i had to check the dictionary because of that totally alien word he used... geesh... i wonder if he's really a china scholar... i mean, look at wenfeng... oh my god! i said that... i'll be killed...! =X er- pretend i didn't say anything... i know they're all trying extremely hard... =) 继续加油吧~

yar... so, i feel so much happier today~ better than yesterday... and my cold is slightly better... thanks to medicine and 枇杷膏... can't believe wenfeng thinks i'm insane... ok, i'll stop harping on that... he's always like that anyway... he hardly says anything i like to hear... anyway, i look forward to tomorrow when i'll be at k-box for 5 hours with huiyi, hwee li, lin xiu, polly (not confirmed yet), yiling, jia ru, chew yan...! =D i'm going to bring my camera there =) and after tomorrow, i think i'll go and cut my hair already... =D wonder what length to cut up till...

oh, i haven't decided what to wear tomorrow.. hm... anyway, i'm just happy~ we're going out for dinner later... and i got a red packet from mum... and dad gave me $50... ! i love my parents! =D i'm the luckiest person in the world~ except that i have cold...and i still have no way of taking a neoprint with my kor...

Name: (Chloe) Tang Wei Mun
Age: 17 going to 18
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