Sorry i didn't write for 2 days... I was extremely tired on saturday after we went out... I was the earliest at orchard mrt... then, lanli came and i called ann, who told me that chew yan is sick and can't come along... =( 好扫兴哦！and i had decided to seek her advice on clothes i was going to buy... but... yar... so, we went to popular upstairs and looked around until yu kang called ann to tell her that he's there already... so we went down and then we went up to popular again.. ann had to go to borders to meet her brother... lucky her... she has 2 elder brothers, if i'm not wrong... ='( i'm so envious... anyway, so, yu kang, lanli and I were just looking around popular when james called yu kang... and he came up to join us later... we spent about an hour inside doing nothing, just looking around... so diaoz... then, we went to meet ann at the mcdonalds in ngee ann city in which was being refurbished so we couldn't find it and ended up waiting at the aquarium and ann had to come to look for us... lanli and i were looking at the fishes so attentively and then she boo-ed us from behind and the two of us got the shock of our lives... phew... anyway, lanli sort of reminds me of yixuan... yixuan's always grabbing my hand. lanli put her arm around mine when we were walking along the streets of orchard, and i feel so weird when she does that... it's a little bit creepy, actually... haha~ =P but that was because she couldn't stick to ann that time... she's closer to ann actually... and yu kang and james always walk together...

so we went to taka finally and settled down at mcdonalds. and they bought fillet and i bought nuggets and a mcflurry... =) ok... more calories... my fat thighs... i really want to look good on wednesday的！！！可是我抗拒不了诱惑。。。！=P aiyar... why am i writing so much? i have to study like hell for chem... i have a feeling i'm going to sleep for like- 2 hours or so like last time again... -.-" anyway, yar... so, after eating, we went all over the place looking for the shop and we found that it was actually right next to mcdonalds in which we started out from... -.-" haiz... so diaoz.... and it turns out that the plant lanli told us about wasn't exactly suitable for miss lim and mr yong... so, we looked around and found this magic egg in which a plant can grow out from. =) so cute! and i was assigned to wrap it... i should have said no... it gave me so MUCH trouble... i spent like- 3 hours or so wrapping the boxes on sunday... ='( poor me... ok, that's sunday... i'm talking about saturday now...so, we went to toa payoh's valuedollar to buy boxes. there weren't any square boxes available... =( so we bought heart shaped ones... 3... and i was telling them it's very hard to wrap, which is the ABSOLUTE truth... but then... we bought it anyway... and then, we wanted to take neoprint! and yu kang needed to go to cristofori because he rented the exam studio for 40 dollars and only had half an hour to go practise there for his practical exam... he's of a very high grade in piano, mind you...

so, we went to j8.... and the guys refused to take neoprints.... so, we resorted to our 绝招! muhaha~ i was tugging at james' sleeve and ann was tugging at the other side... he escaped into royal sporting house on the 2nd floor... yu kang was outside... ann managed to persuade him to agree to go. and lanli and i went to tell james the good news... and he refused to believe us until he went out and heard it from yu kang himself... muhaha~ then... we were presuading and persuading and then- james sought shelter behind 竞之学长...! yes... he was at J8... and he was wearing a red t-shirt... sadly... he was alone... ='( wonder if 冰山ever goes to J8 other than it's NTUC to buy his basic neccessities... And i greeted him! 我好乖哦！I'm so respectful... =) and i remembered to add a 学长behind...haha~=D anyway, yar... james wanted to drag him there but 竞之学长was much cleverer and he escaped... after wishing good luck to james when he found out that all the persuasion and tugging was all because of a neoprint... and he went into royal sporting house... and...james finally relented... so, we went to take neoprint!!! the neoprint is with ann... it looks ok lah... but ann and lanli were so noisy inside... *shudders* aiyo... and i really mean noisy... they were practically screaming the whole way through other than when the camera takes the shot....

so, ann went home first and the rest of us joined yu kang at cristofori (he left when we were decorating the neoprint) and listened to him play his examination pieces until 4.30 and the next person came to shoo us away...so, we walked around and wasted time... then, we decided to go home and as we walked past breadtalk, we met Edward! haha~ it's so weird... -.-" i never meet them at J8.... oh... except 冰山and向往学长that time...and i didn't think it wise to go over and say hi... anyway, edward knows me... i was hi-ing and bye-ing him and he actually responded. so, we all went back...james on bus, yu kang going to khatib, leaving me with lan li for me to go to dhoby ghaut to change to the purple line to go to kovan's this fashion to buy my clothes... she's actually quite ok lah... dunno... but she was telling me that we met 竞之today... hm... oh, it's nothing... just that i'm not close to him, so i'll have the 学长。。。i think for her, it's pointless to add that...

anyway, i was so tired when i got back... so, i tried to wrap the lid of 1 box and almost died... and i had to slam the lid hard on the box to close it... hence, i gave up and decided i'll buy boxes from valuedollar shop in amk on saturday... then,chew yan called to say that ann had forgotten about mdm leow... so, lan li was told to buy a purple egg through my smsing... (my precious sms...) and i was to buy another box... in the end, i went to valuedollar after guitar and tuition and it wasn't sold there... or at toa payoh... so, i was feeling desperate and upset and depressed and dejected until we went to a cake shop after sort of giving up and saw the cardboard boxes they had. and asked about it... turns out it can fit the present so we bought it... 4... 1 for 30 cents... so EXPENSIVE!!!

then, i felt a new lease of life! =) so, i went home and immediately began wrapping... and wrapped, and wrapped and wrapped... i spent about 4 or 5 hours wrapping the cardboard box because it was pink and its design was horrible... what a lot of effort went into making those 4 darn boxes... and then i was so sianz so i sms-ed 冰山who gave me a rather cute reply so i told him i was unwell on saturday and apologised for not sending a joke yesterday... and he was so nice... 好好养病吧~he only uses "~" when he's in a good mood...~=D i'm so glad... =) happy, and elated and exhuberant.. (is it spelled like that?) yar... 好感动哦。。。ok... i know i'm being stupid... what else can u say? and then... after that, i almost died from the pain in my stomach... i will never tell 文峰哥哥i'm sick ever again... it was so 邪！and i couldn't stand it anymore... i was in such pain i just dumped the fulscap from my table on my bag... (i was attempting to do the maths question mr lim gave) and then... i dashed for my bed... and i had to climb the torturous ladder up the double decker... and slept... or rather, tried to sleep...

then, i woke up this morning feeling as horrible and i didn't want to get up. so, mom gave me noodles and gave me medicine... haiz... so, later i went to school all the same... because i needed to hand in the geog file or i'd get 0 marks... =( and the present for mr yong... and just seeing 冰山made my condition worse... the moment i saw him coming in from the gate, i felt like i was going to die... then, i sat down on the floor later because it was unbearable... and mr tan came to scold me... what the hell-? what is HIS problem? can't he see that i'm sick?! is he BLIND?! and i was forced to stand throughout flag raising and i squatted down for sometime until mr lim came my way and i instantly jumped up to get in line.. because i don't want to go and rest and neither do i want to go to the sick bay...

lessons were dull and boring and i was so angry with mr tan because i didn't understand the mgh formula... ok... i admit, because i was seriously suffering from depression and i felt absolutely lousy. reccess was worse, one look at the food and i felt like puking... and we had to learn how to line up under the scorching sun... i can't believe mr tan.. eating into our reccess somemore... aarrrggghhh! =( yar, then... obviously, it got better... so i went to choir... i hate taking medicine... =( *makes disgusted face*

多一个星期就是筱文的生日了！yay~ i'm turning 15 in 1 week...! should i demand a present from 文峰哥哥...？haha~ aiyo... so bad... anyway, i just asked him if he takes essence of chicken and he asked me what it is... -.-" now, why did i ask him that...? because his prelims are coming... and i wish to do something for him... other than telling him to 加油and try his best or cheering him on... i hope it will help make him more alert on the day of his prelims examinations... but if he has never drank it before, will it not agree with his stomach...? won't i be making things worse then? anyway, if i want to give to him, i need to give it to him on friday... so he can drink it on the monday school reopens and he has his first examination.. 2 weeks... i won't be able to see him for 2 weeks... ='( but i really want to do something for him... =(

should i demand a present from him...? =P

haha~anyway, the syf photo is out... mine is A4 size... finally! i have a picture of my kor! =)

Today's a happy friday~I'm so 乖...~i actually wore the anderson yah t-shirt... =) haha~ and i did a horrible job tying my hair today... it was very very badly done.. but i was about to be late already... so, i decided against re-tying it...

yah... then, we had chem and i got this sudden urge and took up the marker in my pencil case and wrote "I love A maths!" on my left hand... i must have gone insane... i'm trying to brainwash myself lah! i mean, sure... i passed a maths.. but... i got a C6... i'm always at C6.... i really want to get a B4 at least for the end of year... reallly... i think i can do it... =) hopefully... anyway, last night.. i got this urge to do something about my study life... so... i wrote down my targets, L1R5 less than 10... Eng: 2. chinese: 2. E math: 1 a math: 4 chem: 2 combined: 1 geog:2 physics: 1.. i'm insane... i know... but i think if i work really hard, i can do it... anyway, 冰山is working hard, why shouldn't i be? we can work hard together... 一起努力读书，考取很好，很好的成绩。。。！ And i wrote 2 copies of that... and put 1 in my file and the other on the ceiling of my room so i stare at it before i sleep everyday and even when i wake up first thing in the morning... 我一定可以的。。！I have 32 days before my final year... yes... i did a countdown myself and pasted in on my wardrobe door... and i wrote "I love A maths" in bold and pasted in on my bedroom ceiling too... and "U should be studying" on the ceiling to prevent myself from sleeping so often... and another one on my wardrobe door to stop myself from spending too much time in front of the mirror... 我一定要加油哦！

Anyway, I need to arrange my geog file... i forgot to bring it today... mdm has said she wanted to collect it... luckily she made it monday for those who forgot to bring... hope i have everything inside... yar...

and we went to do this teachers' day dedication thingy after school... mr lim selected 28, 29, and then 30 before i could say i had choir... which was at 2... and the filming thingy was at 1.30 so i couldn't run away from it... then, huiyi stayed back so she could accompany me there... mr lim chose 5 people but only me and wei siang went... plus huiyi... 3 people... we waited for a rather long time before we could go in and mrs lee told us what it was all about and showed us some really cute clips of classes' dedications. and so, we decided to do the 喜怒哀乐of mr lim... which was all the same expression... a slight smile... haha~ haha~ mrs lee showed it to us first... so wei siang was doing the face and he looked totally like mr lim! and i was the idiotic and act cute plus spastic one... and ruining the happy teachers day song with the extremely out of tune note... though i don't think much people care... and we zoomed in on the "I heart a maths" on my hand... and my other hand was covering the word chem which i wrote underneath it... haha~ -.-" so spastic... and the 1st take was horrible... i totally stunned there... don't know what came over me... and i felt like laughing... -.-" lucky we did a 2nd take... =) in which i ended it stupidly... anyway, i'll endure tauntings from everybody the moment that video is screened on on teachers' day... =P haiz... aiyo... whatever lah~ i'm so happy with myself...! i'm so responsible...! =) haha~

Choir sectionals was ok today...only i was singing wrongly... of course i can tell... because i felt a horrible sore throat after that... which healed after i drank some water... i was practically shouting throughout because oi man said i was very soft... ='( *sobs* i was already trying very hard了诶！maybe my voice blends too well... -.-" ok, ok... i shall stop coming up with excuses. anyway, we were in the inspiretown...! it's airconditioner is so COLD!... which is good lah~ haha~ and the "ok" chair is actually worth $1000 sing dollars eh! and i was like spinning and enjoying myself on it... i actually sat on a chair worth $1000.... haha~ i particularly liked the red one.. muhaha~ got blue, orange and ... er- another colour... oh yar! yellow! it's so CUTE! wish mr tock would bring us there one day during chinese lesson... most of mrs lim sh's classes went in there before... unfair! i saw 冰山in there that time i walked past the area during pe... unfair!!! 我也想在那儿上华文课...！

anyway, mr tock gave me 55/70 for my chinese composition... and he said that my composition was 幽默诶！ =D haha~ =) 真是太棒了！我。。。！我。。！我诶！ 我幽默诶！我幽默。。。！muhaha~ i'm humourous! haha~ =D this is fantastic~! haha~ of course, i'm still very far from people like 冰山's standard... weili's essay was marked by mr tock and he gave her...64/70! ok... a whole difference of like- 9 marks... she's obviously clever... then again, since when are PRC scholars not good in chinese...? hm...anyway, i'm humourous~! i'm humourous~!

yar... =P i'm so happy... first time he marked my composition, i got like- 40 something... so low lorh...! thanks to 冰山。。。he evoked my interest in chinese~! 谢谢你啦~even though i doubt he knows it... but thanks to him indirectly, my chinese composition writing skills have improved...=) haha~ and actually, i learnt to type chinese sms at a faster speed ... i didn't know how to do that in the past... i used to be so slow when sms-ing him last time... now... i should be considered fast 吧？

anyway, tomorrow yu kang, ann, chew yan, lan li, hui shan, sheryl and me are going to bugis to buy a teachers day gift for miss lim and mr yong, our beloved conductors~! geesh... i'm being so fake here... haha~ no lah.. they are the best! =) anyway, i'm planning to go and buy clothes for be yourself day... i've decided to wear black and white... and i've found my darling black and white hat i bought in malaysia... and is so expensive...! it's quite cute lah.. but my sister says i look nicer without the hat and advised me against wearing it... aiyar... when i feel unbearably hot, i'll take it off... =) anyway, whatever~ i'm wearing it~ i think it's cute... who cares what others think? anyway, i'm not going to cut my hair until 6th of september after my birthday... =) can't really bear to part with it... it's the longest i've kept my hair ever since i started growing it in primary 4... i'm always cutting it before it gets to the length it is now.. =D haiz... must spend money.... $$$$ haiz...i'm going broke soon... and i haven't bought 冰山's birthday gift... still dunno what to get that kor of mine...

my birthday is coming...! 9 more days...! =)

冰山looks much more handsome in real life.. i don't think he looks nice in photos... =P as for me... i look bad in both... muhaha~obviously, i got this photo from someone's blog...=)

hm... I just switched off the computer just now when I on my handphone and 屋顶started playing... so... i went to check it and... I saw silvia's message "u want to see ur ugly kor? go to ....XXXX.blogspot.com" hm...

So... obviously, out of curiosity, i instantly went to check the website out... yating... she's in 4/6... and honestly, i hate to admit it but she's prettier than me... which is-- actually very normal... seeing as i'm not exactly pretty in the first place... and she's very thin... *SOBS* honestly, i feel that i am SO plum all of a sudden... geesh... and my arms are so flabby.... *CRIES* and they went to watch fireworks display together... And i don't mean 文峰哥哥and her lah...! thank god it isn't just the two of them.. it's 竞之学长, him, her and 韦利学姐. silvia says that they are in the same band for english.. band 4... oh ok... isn't she a singaporean...? oh my god...! i did not just say that... ok... i did...

oh no, i sound so annoying and stuck-up... i'm not! and agnes will kill me if she saw that paragraph especially about singaporeans being in band 4... oh my god...! ok, i shall be quiet... and silvia was telling me that she thinks 冰山likes the girl. and i was utterly shocked. it then turns out that she was trying to make me jealous... because the 2 of them don't even talk... i don't think they even know each other well... oh wait... apparently they do or they won't be hanging out or even going out together even in a group in the first place... *CRIES* This sets me wondering... ... ... *CRIES again* ok lah... i'm being extremely annoying... it's not like he's mine... i am a reasonable huamn being capable of thinking and being subjective...

haha~ this person seems to like to take photos a lot... they went to eat si chuan cuisine after the fireworks. and 文峰哥哥didn't want to take a photo with her. hm... haha~ oh my god... i'm actually feeling happy for once that he doesn't like to take photos with people... haha~ 呵呵~oh my god... i am so evil... and to think just last entry i said i was going to be gentle, kind and thoughtful... or something like that... which i am so not doing right now.. haha~ but ... haha~ haha~ oh my god.. what is WRONG with me... ...?! ok, i shall stop cracking up already... it is not exactly very nice of me to do that... but then again... haha~ haha~ it's quite obvious he's not very 熟with her... so... i think too much... that's the conclusion of the day... 结论：我实在想太多了。。。haha~ haha~ what a relief...i'm so happy~ haha~i can't believe that 竞之学长gave her a music box for her birthday.. i mean, she's not a scholar, so they aren't exactly close, right...? i pity silvia.... i wonder how i would feel... oh... i don't have to worry about that...文峰哥哥probably never gives anything to anybody other than the PRC guys scholars whom he is very close to. so, haha~ er- I hope so lah....

hello~ my brother and sister aren't at home now.. haiz... Anyway, today the sec 4s are starting their prelim science practicals...and i thought that 冰山's doesn't start today... so i pretended all was normal...but then today, i noticed that the bus had arrived and i only saw a few scholars... by a few, i mean 4 or 5... yar... apparently, 4-4 to 4-7 don't need to come so early because of their practical later... it seems they are having practicals all the way to tuesday... 好可怜哦！anyway, i realised how i had forgotten to wish him good luck, so i sms-ed him. 加油！ =)

anyway, today's lessons were ok... we know our overall marks for maths already.. a maths i got 54... i improved 4 marks from last term..! haha~ -.-" ok... never mind me... but... yar...! yeah! 筱文真聪明~！呵呵~oh ok, i'll stop being so thick-skinned. anyway, i've decided to act gentle from now on wards... at least, in school lah... *looks guiltily at feet that are crossed underneath the computer table* Anyway, i managed to get a A1 for e math... 76... what a close call... let's see L1R5... Hm... english i should get a A2 吧？我应该不会太差啊！1 science: physics... should be A1 or 2 lah... hopefully it's 1... then... 1 maths: e maths which is A1... then, 1 humans... geog 80/100 for the test, should be A1 if include file bah... anyway, she said it's going to help pull up the marks herself... so.. chinese... i think got A2, right? then... left with 1 more subject to take... i can't possibly take chem or a maths...they are sure to be C6...! that leaves me with the only subject left... combined humans... in which used to be my best subject... (ok, not really best lah~ but it's one of my best subjects) but after i scored horribly for lit,i don't think even if i get full marks (which is practically insanly impossible) i will still not be able to get an A1. I can't go to the top 5 jcs like this... =( this is horrendous.. i don't even know what i want to be... actually, i'm thinking of taking pure humanities... really... i mean, ok, i suck at geog... but i'm interested in literature... that's probably the only subject i'm interested in... but we have to do shakespeare in A levels.. which is horrible because i don't understand what he craps about in the old english... haiz... what should I do? i don't know where i want to go... strictly speaking, i don't even know why i want to go to the top 5 jcs... honestly... with my standard... i'm like- made out for jcs that are - *clear throat* not as good... now what..? i really really... ok, maybe not really really, i hope i can go be in the same school as 冰山。。。not that it'll help our relationship or anything but... i don't know... and also partly because miss bake says vjc offers pure humanities... i'd like to do that... because i don't want to be in the science stream.. i don't like science... and i'm trying to get as far away from it as possible... *shudders at thought of chem* eeew... and i think i'm going to flunk the class test we're having next week...

Anyway, our be yourself day theme is vibrancy... and we're restricted to 5 colours.. our school colours, to be exact... red, blue, yellow, white and black... how are we supposed to be vibrant with merely 5 colours?! -.-" anyway, what should i wear..? haha~ i still remember the devil thingy~ that was really fun~ i doubt i'll wear anything that dramatic this year... i mean, er- ... ... ... besides, i don't have money mah~ so.. what can i wear? i think i'll just grab a t-shirt and long pants... short skirts aren't allowed... what is the definition of short...? above the knee...? haiyo... it's so troublesome... and no accessories are allowed. hey... they didn't say that make-up isn't allowed... whee~ ok, never mind... i'm not exactly good at making up, despite so many choir performances in which i ended up looking like a porcelain doll. what should I wear..？不知道。。。怎么办？！穿什么好呢？

ok, enough about that lah... i'll decide over the weekends.... i have time anyway... meanwhile, i should start revising for end of year... yar..! i ought to do that totally...! especially for a maths... i can't do anything about lit... i shall go and memorise the ss stuff... i need to get my geog, chem and a maths to be steadily good... ok, good is too much to ask of me... haiz... just when i thought i could rely on my chem, which is A2, i had to get a borderline mark...hopefully, i don't fail... i'm sure my marks will be like... 51... what is wrong with me?! so concerned about my studies all of a sudden? i think the urgency that o levels are nearer and nearer is extremely pressing... i mean, in the blink of an eye, 文峰哥哥is taking his prelims soon... i need to stop being so slack!!! I have to buck up! Or i will never be able to achieve anything much less go to the jc i want to.

there's choir sectionals tomorrow. at 2pm in the inspiretown... i need to inform everybody tonight... lucky i got all their hp numbers already... =) i am so 乖。。。呵呵~haha~ =D aiyar...i have used the internet for so long了。my mum is nagging... better go now..

my birthday is coming...! 5th september is 10 days away~ =D

Sorry i didn't write an entry yesterday... i was so TOTALLY tired after choir and then i had to go to e math tuition... poor me.. *sobs, sobs* Anyway, choir was surprisingly ok... Miss Lim didn't lose her temper with us. Only the tenors were... so... *clears throat* The basses are, as usual fantastic! basses rock!! =) Anyway, I honestly think basses are the best section... ops... I'm going to die if any altos see this... I'm not a traitor lah.. it's just that basses are so small in number and yet they are always so good and solid... =) i really think that evona is getting on my nerves... oh my gosh...she's not going to see this lah, so.. never mind... but seriously, how can she talk bad about ann behind her back? that time i heard ann saying that someone was saying that she was throwing her weight around as president... PLEASE lah! where on earth did they get the idea from? i think evona is the one throwing her weight about, honestly... she keeps snatching work that's meant to be chew yan's or ann's. and people claim that work is pushed to her! geesh...

Ok, enough about infuriating stuff... Anyway, yar... i froze in e maths tuition yesterday. It was really, really freezing..! anyway, surprisingly, 冰山wasn't so 冰山yesterday... I mean, he actually replied my message instantly. though it wasn't very nice.. I was asking him if the joke was better than the horrible one that i sent to him in a fit of anger and he told me “感觉上还是一样的烂...”so, in my sort of fit of anger, i replied him things like 你给我记住。。。in which i always use and i obviously don't mean it lah...! I mean, please lah..! 我又不是那种人。。。and he replied me, "有必要这么气吗？我说什么了？难道不是实话吗？" 天啊！ 什么嘛？！ ok, so i was a bit 不爽，and i replied him “是，是，是...是我错...你最厉害，你说什么都对...错的是我...”and huiyi said i sounded so fake... and annoying... aiyo... and she actually said what he said and the way he replied me was interesting. I mean... ??? huiyi said 冰山was interesting? did i like- hear wrongly or something? or suffer from brain concussion...? huiyi...? who practically hates 冰山to the core because of some rather weird reasons like the time she kicked his chair to tell him that people behind were calling him but he didn't know and just stared at her? if i were him, i'd respond in the same way lah! it's not his fault! anyway, about the time she pointed at him, if i were 冰山，i will respond like what he did... I mean, how 莫名其妙it must be to 冰山... and he does not have attitude problem... Oh... er- ok... actually, he does have at times... i don't deny that.. i'm sure he knows that himself吧?

yar, anyway, we got back lit paper today.. and i got like 16/25... my lowest mark in lit history... even with miss lee, the lowest was like- 18 lorh! what is WRONG with me?! anyway, i have no expectations on my ss to pull me up. I don't even know if i can pass lorh... so, for L1R5, i'm using geog. which should be an A1 or A2. because i luckily got 24/30... which is 80. highest is 82... lady luck was shining on me that day... which paper was geog? oh... the one on friday... no lah, actually it's because of the tips miss bake gave. the last question on the aswan high dam got me 7.5 out of 8 because i forgot that the pyramids dwarfing affects tourism... =( *sobs* I pray for a day when my combined humans will remain at A1 and my geog can jump to A2... which might never happen... But for the end of the year, i really must do my best lorh... If i don't have the good foundation in sec 3, i will die in sec 4... and part of me is contented with 12 for L1R5... the other is hoping for a 8 or 9 or 10... to get into either VJC, RJC or HCJC... haha~ i think it's very obvious why... i mean, most people only have one target. since this is my blog, i shall write my true feelings lorh... 冰山's dream jcs are the above 3. but to get in there, for me, is just merely a dream吧~if i don't have the potential, i'll die in there even if i manage to squeeze in. and i hate science, so i can just go arts stream. which is erm- rather useless, according to most people... stupid people... ops... i'm not supposed to say that... 哎哟。。怎么办？i can't believe we have a test before holidays start. though the holidays are in actual fact study days to prepare for our end of year exam which is in week 3. and for the sec 4s prelim's on the 12th september, which is like first day we go back to school... -.-" poor thing... 文峰哥哥要加油哦~ =）anyway, i think he should do fine吧？he seems rather clever except for his most problematic subject. english... though he can don't count it for L1, but he needs to pass or he'll need to stay back. please don't let that happen... i don't want him to stay back... it's a wastage of 1 year... he must pass english... i'm sure he can do it的。。。he's clever enough to come here... he should be able to pass... maybe with a B..? anyway, i heard from silvia that he's really weak in english... he has to stay back for extra remedials for english... even 竞之学长doesn't need to... I think i should try to help him吧？oh... wait... actually, his problem should not lie in communication, i think it's oral and composition... and i have no idea absolutely how to help in that area... anyway, he doesn't even like english, how is he going to score well if he hates that subject? like me... i hate a maths... look at my results... when have i ever scored well?! haiz... and i don't think he likes to speak to me in english... weirdly enough... he chats with joy in english... he's so BIASED! humph...~!

anyway, my father says we are only allowed 30 minutes of online time. darn it...! what can i do in 30 minutes? i can't download any songs...! ='( i hate this... *sobs* whatever lah.. anyway, i did ok for physics... 23/30. =) for the theory paper and a rather ----10/15 for practical... haiz... but should be able to get A lah... I hope... i can't possibly use chem as my one science now?!

Choir was considered ok today... surprisingly... and mr yong didn't blow his top... which is definitely good... the sops have improved considerably... =) anyway, yup... the 5566 album was just added today... wasn't there yesterday... trying to download the songs.... yar.. anyway, chew yan is not coming to choir tomorrow... 天啊~就这样抛弃我了。。。so sad.. how can she do this to me?! anyway, she's going to film 方块精灵 for the 有话就说come on, shoot for channel U. wow~ so lucky... =) yar... whatever it is, i'm going to skip lunch tomorrow again... so i ought to eat for reccess tomorrow...

anyway, i feel so tired. i just slept for a bit today. because choir ended late and i was waiting for chew yan after their choir committee meeting... and suddenly felt this strong feeling of emptiness... wonder where that came from... ... ... ok lah! 冰山hasn't replied for 5 days and still counting...oh my gosh... the 好久不见from 5566's new album is so... ... ... er... don't know what to say了。。。yar, anyway, back to what i was saying, haiz... yar... who knows what that 冰山thinks.. 我一点都不了解他。。。！不然，可能我想太多了吧？唉。。。我受不了了啦！！！为什么？！ok... what is wrong with me?! aaarrgghhhh! i don't know lah... anyway, i don't think it is wise to ask him out了... after i think about what happened the other time... -.-" anyway, 人家有o level prelims leh... 我要做害他考不好的罪魁祸首吗？haiz... yar... BUT i still really want to take a neoprint with him... actually, now that i think about it, whatever lah... photo can了啦。。。but it seems so impossible... since i doubt there will be anytime i will be able to do that... and he's leaving so soon! aarggghhhh.... ='(

anyway, i moved the 绝对superstar pictures, 斗鱼and 仙剑奇侠传。。。onto a cd-r... it's the only copy i have... and i'm lending it to yirong... please don't lose it.. all my photos of junyang... and 小燕子and 于皓，not to mention逍遥and 灵儿。。。haiyo... i hope nothing happens to it lah... because my computer loads too slowly due to huge megabytes occupied by the documents i have... partly because of pictures, other because of songs... =P

yar... anyway, today we got back the results for our a maths quiz.. that was supposed to help us... which ended up with a lot of people failing... huiyi, don't be too upset 了！just bear with it in band 1 lorh... for things to change, you must change yourself first... try to view things perspectively... anyway, since u can't do anything about it, u just have to make do with what u have lorh..or ur life will be very miserable的哦~=）不要想那么多了~忍多一下下就好了！and for the quiz, i just have to say... just write anything u think might be correct down lah! u might get marks... who knows, right? just write everything down and don't care mr lim lah~ he always 被我气死的哦~可是他又没什么大碍。。。~还这么fit... haha~ =D 总之，往好的方面想吧~at least, try to lorh...anyway, back to myself, i got 7/10... =D because i became stupid and wrote the y-coordinate instead of the x. and i manipulated g inverse wrongly... haiz... too bad... anyway, lin xiu is insane... she got 9 and she was telling mr lim how he should minus her marks... -.-" is she mental or something because she keeps getting marks that are always so high, she's so sian about it now?

anyway, english right..? mrs lee gave us的summary, a lot of people didn't do... so she's using the tsunami thingy... anyway, she's teaching us this thingy (forgot了啦。。。）that enables us to be able to pronounce any word... cool! it'll be helpful for oral... she was saying the prc scholars were trembling when they were reading for o level oral... for other school lah...i think 冰山was probably like that too... 好可怜哦。。。so poor thing... i think he really needed me to wish him good luck的诶。。。

yar... anyway, i feel so awkward around someone... maybe i think too much le bah, but i can't help suspecting that he likes me... er- anyway, i'm just avoiding him as much as possible... ok lah... i know i'm VERY bad and horrible...i mean, i won't want 冰山to do that to me... wait a minute... i'm not even sure if he likes me a not...maybe i have a serious 妄想症problem..? it's possible that i'm mad and i think too much, like 冰山is always telling me... hm... yar... =( but i think maybe i've given people the wrong idea... oh no... do i give people the wrong idea..? i certainly hope not... anyway, if sms-ing means that u like the person or giving gifts, then i'd have become a flirt. then, it means that i like hari and amos and 德峰学长and 竞之学长 lorh? please lah... -.-" that's so impossible... anyway, i don't think anybody will be so lame to think that way 吧？ haha~ it's not as if i'm THAT 花痴lorh...ok lah.. i'll stop avoiding him... on accord that 冰山was never so heartless to me... though... come to think of it, he sort of was...

haiz... anyway, i need to study for chem.. because i hardly get what i'm supposed to do.. and i brought the 10 year series of a maths back because i don't know how to do matrics and i ought to have more practise on it. which is like... Duh~yar... but i don't exactly know how to start... maybe i ought to go and bathe first 再来说吧~oh yar, today, for PE, we took our weight... and i'm surprisingly 46 kg... something must be wrong with the weighing machine.. i just weighed myself recently and i was like- 48kg... now, it's like- 46kg?! 2 kgs within like- a day? it sounds so.. totally impossible lorh...but... i'm quite light哦~but i hate my legs... they're so fat... and they look like pig trotters... -.-" ok.... i know huiyi is going to say i am insane when she reads this... but... i always prefer to wear skirts or mini-skirts one... and they don't exactly look good when my legs are *clears throat* this type of a size... and i seriously think my legs look so disgusting... as in the fact that it is so hairy.. *clear throat*what lah?! really嘛！i need to buy veet... i think i have more hair than some guys...which is like... gross lorh! anyway, i have resorted to hair removal cream for my hands... and it's rather troublesome because i have to spend a lot of time every week in the bathroom and scrubbing at my hand after 6-8 minutes... but at least it looks ok lah.. 勉强的来说啦。。。

haiz... wonder what the theme is for be yourself day next wednesday... haha~ i still remember vividly last year when i was a devil.. it was so expensive to rent that costume... and i didn't win... ='( haha~ but at least it was fun~ =D hm... last year...冰山was here already吧？oh.. yar, he was here already...only i don't think he knows my existence at that time... seeing as they are SUCH soliditary figures... and to think, 德峰学长described him as gregarious... ... gregarious... 冰山a gregarious person?! don't make me laugh... Him gregarious? then what am i har?

anyway, yay! my birthday is next next monday- er- correct, right? =P yay~ but i really really want to take a neoprint...aaarrgghhhhh! =( should i ask him? should i? should i? should i? aiyar... ask won't die one de, right? ask or don't ask ... to ask or not to ask... hm... aiyoo!!!!! 问还是不问啦？！问不问？问不问？问不问？！*crying* this is so difficult... should i ask？ do i want to ask? DUH... that's so obvious...我当然要啦！ i want...but... there are so many things to consider... and how should i ask him so that it's not too awkward? sms...? nah... i don't think so... he'll think i'm kidding... OR he'll pretend he didn't see when he did see it... he's an expert at doing that... oh my god... how can i say that of him...？？ he's my kor leh... =P ok, pretend u all saw nothing... i did not just doubt him... ok... i did.. aarghhh.... aiyo... how do u expect me to have 100% trust in him when he's so weird and pms-prone plus 超级冰山? anybody can give me suggestions? my birthday is getting nearer了诶。。。

haiz... sunday... another slacking day.. =P i just finished burning the 舞狮dvd rw for hwee li.. i tried watching it, it's successful =) yay~ anyway, i'm trying to download 如果的事 by fan wei qi and zhang shao han... it's quite nice =) i went to sembawang music store today and saw kelly's 单曲cd.. and i bought it... $7.80 worh....so expensive.. inside got 遗失的美好and 老鼠爱大米sung by all the 绝对top 24(i think lah) contestants... weilian's album also got 老鼠爱大米。。。the packaging arh... very ... *clears throat* well, let's just say that it's not very nice... 呵呵~anyway, yar... so expensive.. ='( but it turns out quite ok lah, the song, i mean.. i've not done the summary thingy for english.. no idea how to start. and i don't feel like starting... anyway, 5566 released their 3rd album了...er- i'm intending to download leh... because i'm broke le... so i checked the website and apparently, i have to check tomorrow because it seems like it was only released today. anyway, the website is really fast... yar... yar... anyway, i seem to have lost my liking for them了... i mean, they're not exceptionally good at singing or anything and they don't have anything that's extremely special...

anyway, i don't feel like doing homework...! i always end up like that during weekends... not accomplishing anything, 所谓，一事无成。。。haiz...可悲，可悲。。。ok, what it wrong with me?! -.-" yar... so... whatever~ anyway, my birthday is coming!!!! ok, actually, i'm not that excited about it... a birthday comes every year what~ anyway, i really really want to take a neoprint with 冰山！！！but then again, now that i think about it, i really wonder how he stands me... i'm so 自作主张n unreasonable又超级野蛮。。。haiz... hm... maybe i should do a self-reflection... hm... i ought to think about what i can do to publicise to him that it's my birthday on the 5th... hm... 哈哈~好卑鄙哦。。。=P quick, i must think of a foolproof plan... haha~ erm- i can't think of any way... anyway, it's not as if he will care... that heartless and feelings-void person... oh, wait, he's an iceberg...

haiz... i'm so bored... my stupid brother is annoying me... dream on...he wants me to log off... now my brother stormed off to his room and locked himself in it... and he's scolding the **** words... geesh....

saturdays...extremely slack days... haiz... i just finished changing all the pictures of junyang that i took of the most recent performance to jpeg format so its size is smaller... yirong wants me to send them to her...but.. there are 300++ photos leh... i've hence decided i'll just burn a data disc for her... then i can charge her ... muhaha~ can earn money... no lah~ but i am broke... and i need to save up for k-box on 5th september... 九月五号是王心凌的生日哦！也是筱文的生日~呵呵~anyway, my parents are taking me out for dinner on the 3rd, because i'm going out with my friends on the 5th mah~ i wonder where to go... pizza hut? sakae sushi? jack's place? dunno leh... haiz... i am thinking of what i want for my birthday... hm... actually, i don't think i really need a lot of things.. maybe a mp3 player bah~ but that's so expensive... =( anyway, i won't know how to use the software and install in my computer etc... haiz... but... i can learn 的啊~ actually, i think i'm very sure what i want... i want to take a neoprint with 冰山。。。is it too much to ask? ok... it is a little bit too much to ask... haiz... haiz... =( anyway, he'll be busy studying for his prelims的。。。all the sec 4s will be so busy during the september holidays... i thought of asking liting, agnes, shi ping and silvia out but i don't think i should be distracting them from studying.. anyway, i know they all are aiming for the top5 jcs... 加油哦~ =）

for some reason, the website i'm surfing can't load... i've refreshed about 5 times了！！！气死我了啦！！！aaaarrrrggghhhh! whatever lah~ i want to download 末日之恋... it seems like a really awesome song... i love 俊扬's version... 超好听诶！！！i can't find the website yirong told me about that enables u to download all his performances... aarrrrggghhhh.... but anyway, i want to download his 童话... it's really SO nice... nicer than weilian's anyway... anyway, i still can't believe he really know lin junjie... haiz... lucky guy...

hm.. why won't the darn website load? aiyo, forgot to change the song... 彩虹眼泪is rather sian if u listen to it repeatedly. *changes song to 你是我最深爱的人* i think derrick sang this song rather well... except he was too "hiong" right from the beginning... and it sounds like he's shouting throughout... why can't i find the website to download the performances?! aarrgghhhh! anyway, i saw how people were abusing and critisizing weilian on the forum... they're so bad... i personally want kelly to win lah, but i don't think weilian deserves to be treated so badly. they should blame themselves that they didn't vote enough for junyang... it turns out that junyang has never won weilian in any results show except the one in which he was so charming with 流水年华... and weilian sang that horrible song... -.-" but that was the only time he won weilian.. so it proves that in terms of 人气，junyang had already lost to weilian... and since popularity takes up 70%, it is very normal that junyang lost... even though i think he has a lot of supporters too.. but weilian does have sympathy votes... after quan yi fong told everybody how he called the director of the mv to apologise because he couldn't make the mv better, the votes shot up more than before. even though he was already leading in the beginning... apparently, it is true that he gets sympathy votes... though it is true that he sings well, but one cannot deny that he has a considerable amount of sympathy votes.

my mother is SO annoying... she was showing me this newspaper article today that said that weilian will win... because when he was a street performer, he already won the hearts of the people... i can't believe my mother... she keeps saying that weilian is so good, etc etc, blah, blah, blah.... aarrrghhh! i'm going to vote for kelly for sure this time.. only... i don't know if i should buy her album... i really think her 遗失的美好is not as nice as xinhui's, even though i like kelly... =( anyway, i don't think it's possible for weilian to survive in the music industry... sorry to say this, but i really think it's true...

ok, why am i talking about 绝对superstar so much recently? maybe i'm still upset junyang is out... no lah~ actually, i've already accepted this cruel fact... i hope that at least his EP can be sold... hope only lah.. but i don't think in the whole universe or history has there ever been a blind person who actually released an album... hm... ... ... ... ok lah, forget it.. anyway, whoever wins, i hope he/she will have a nice journey... HEY! I also found out something! there's going to be another singing competition... it's for the secondary and jc students... and it's going to be hosted by 绝对superstar contestants... the main thing is, i think we'll be able to join!!! =) it should be fun... er- though i seriously doubt that i'll be able to even get through the 1st round of auditions... finally, the website loaded and i'm downloading e song... which will take me.. 10 minutes+++... HAIZ... i really ought to get broadband... seriously... yar.. anyway, i really think it's so cool! i mean, secondary students... =) it's fantastic! if i get a chance, i must join!!! =) even if i know i surely won't even get through the 1st round...

yar, enough about that... i'm still rather upset about choir... what else can we do? i pray that our practice on monday won't suck like last tuesday's...wow, there's a thick fog as i look out of the window... hm... or am i imagining it? hm...oh no! i'm suffering from schrzophrenia... ok, however u spell that lah... god only knows how i managed to get a a2 for english... i know for myself that i'm a b3 standard... 唉。。。anyway, i feel that it's not true that we have lost the passion for choir.. it wasn't even there... except the syf that time... that was really a time when i felt... choir is so united...! now... and we have not lost the passion for singing... or for choir... at least, in my case, it isn't so... i don't deny that there was one time when i looked forward to choir so much because of some *clears throat* particular reason that isn't present now... oh, the fog is because people are burning the things for the 7th month... ok lah, it's mainly because of 冰山... but also because there's my seniors, 田慧学姐，agnes, liting, shi ping, silvia and everybody whom i didn't really make too much an effort to know... =P but anyway, now they're gone, i feel very empty whenever i go to choir... haiz... 好想念他们哦。。。i really miss them... and i hardly get to meet them了。。。because we are not in the temp block any longer... so we hardly even get to meet along corridors... anyway, i don't think i have lost the passion for singing... i still enjoy singing的啊！！！

aaaaarrrghhhhh! the song i downloaded is wrong!!!　怎么会这样？

对啊，是真的。。。俊扬竟然出了比赛了。。。他被淘汰了。。。好伤心哦！I can't belive he lost to weilian... junyang was so upset... he was crying after that... i read an article that said he cried not because he was sad he didn't get in, but because he was touched by all that had happened so far and how good his fans were to him.. it seems he's going to continue his studies to do honours in NUS... of course, life has to go on for him... 我觉得俊扬应该赢的！ 唉。。。i won't be able to see him perform or hear him sing anymore... unless some company decides to offer him a contract... i really hope he gets a contract... and he actually does know lin junjie... lin junjie met him in st andrews jc... so, the wayne he was thanking was lin junjie... he could have been the one standing next to his good friend on 1st september, singing with him... but he didn't make it... ... i really thought that he would...! i voted 10++ times for him... junyang...i really think his 童话was so MUCH better than weilian's... i would have bought his album de lorh...i just can't believe that he does know lin junjie... they all say he sounds like him.. can't believe they do know each other...and the day they broadcasted the competition of the guys was actually junyang's birthday...haiz... anyway, kelly got in! i only voted 2wice for her, ironically... anyway, congrats to kelly~ i'll be rooting for her at the finals... (duh... i wanted junyang to win... i don't hate weilian..but...)

ok lah~ enough about 绝对superstar... anyway, it's over... i guess i'll just have to come to terms that i won't be able to see junyang performing le... maybe he'll appear for other events etc... but not as the 绝对superstar... anyway, hope he and candyce have a good relationship~＝）haiz... so sad ='( haiz.. they rumoured that a lot of fans 变心because he and candyce's relationship was spread about... i think they're so lame... i mean, he has the right to like someone, right? his fans are not his mother or anything, why should they approve or not and then rob junyang of the chance to realise his dream just because he has a girlfriend? (though junyang says that he wasn't 示爱ing to candyce in the video clip he prepared that was shown when he was eliminated... hm... like i believe...

anyway, today, puay fen, deborah, joy, ziyuan and jia hao came to choir sectionals... yu kang sought puay fen's help... and i think their presence has obviously helped a bit... but we are still horrible... puay fen is really disappointed in us. they felt that we were not good at all... I really don't see what to do... sectionals don't seem to be helping very much, in my opinion... haiz... choir 不可以跨！！！！我们一定要保持学姐，学长们努力建立的好水平。。。！

anyway, today we were checking chinese names for e o level chinese exam mah~ and mr lim was looking at us signing. and he read my chinese name, "惠文" then he said, next time i'll call u hui wen hor... i was like- ARH?! 啊？！ why? then he said, i like to call people's hanyu pinyin names... -.-" er- haiz... don't know what to say le... last time i asked him to call me chloe, he still call me weimun.. now of all things... huiwen.. haiz...

junyang rocks! i hope they will sell his EP. his 童话is really very nice lorh!!! haiz... 伤心。。。ok, i shall stop harping on it... BUT- i can't believe he lost...! haiz... ='( anyway, kelly MUST win! kelly, 你一定要赢！！！！

今天心情好好哦~huiyi was absent today... she sprained her leg... hope she makes a speedy recovery... feels empty without her... *sobs* and she abandoned me... didn't even message me to tell me... i only heard she was not coming from lin xiu.... huiyi!!! U are so BAD! u... 重女轻友！still say me 重色轻友。。。humph~ u also mah~ so biased!!! hm... aiyar, whatever lah~ the physics show and tell is postphoned to monday and so is the dateline for the physics file...

haiz... i don't know if i should record or watch the 绝对superstar girls' finals...anyway, i'm sure to watch the results show... and i'm planning to record... though i think it's quite sure that 俊扬will win! his results from the judges was better than wei lian's. and i personally thought he sang better... junyang, 加油！after that i'm watching 十万吨情源。。。it's very cute lorh! and the lead character is so cute~ oh my, i sound so 花痴。。。

i realised that冰山is happier later at night... and he will reply my message... haiz... now i even have to choose a time he's happy to talk to him to prevent more quarrels. haiz... what kind of a person is he? haiz... people with pms are so 麻烦。。。！anyway, i saw that next monday is hot and spicy day lorh! and... i don't take spicy food! aaarrrrggghhhhh! i think 冰山will have a great day... and he'll be like- telling 向往学长，“他们那种食物也叫辣吗?” haiz... all the PRC scholars from sichuan must be really good at eating spicy food... lucky them... i really admire them... sichuan cuisine is famous for their spiciness. 好佩服哦！冰山好厉害哦！that time, i was queing behind him and i saw him putting chilli on his plate...

anyway... yar... physics prac was done in such a hurry... my refractive index is 1.44... darn... it's supposed to be 1.5 leh! aaarrggghhhh! anyway, i got a good news! i PASSED my chem!!! 17/30 somemore! thank god!!! i PASSED! I actually passed my chem!!! i passed! and 17... i got full marks for multiple choice, u see... it saved my life..! muhaha~ and... as expected, i got 0 out of 6 for the separation question... haha~ but i still passed and that's what matters...! =) whee~the A maths test was ok... only, i think i got the first question wrong le... quite happy with my overall performance... seeing as i spent the whole of yesterday watching 绝对superstar and screaming over junyang's fantastic performances and voting for him each time i felt unsafe... and i lost count after 15... i think i'm going to die when my bills come... they'd have exploded... aiyar, haven't inform the choir members tomorrow sectionals at 2pm in music room... later bah~

haiz... I passed!! muhaha~ i passed! =) and my 成语was 20/20... 卓老师marked my 耳濡目染wrong... because he said my 濡was written unclearly but he gave the half mark to me. my 长文缩短was 5.5 out of 10!!! *cries* but then i got 1 mark more. 16.5/20... not bad lah~ hope my 作文doesn't got out of point... please... i need at least an A2....! haiz... my grades seem to have dropped for almost every subject... so sad...

anyway, i haven't done the chem workbook... shit... 没关系，待会儿做吧~！i ought to go watch 绝对superstar now... i'll take the photos tomorrow bah~ anyway, it's already recorded mah~ =)

昨天好累，好累哦！ 所以就没写咯~不好意思。。。I doubt anybody actually writes their blog everyday... 呵呵~ ？I am so extra mah~ No lah...

anyway, yesterday i went to school feeling ok. then, i experienced cramps... so, I wasn't even standing during flag raising. i sat down on the ground later. and then, i could sense elaine, yirong and eunice fanning me rapidly. then, i heard mr lim's voice "why never come and tell me?" -.-" er- ok, i shall not further comment. anyway, he was giving me so many suggestions, go sick bay lah, sit by the sides lah, go in front because it's very stuffy here... ... after i refused to go to the sick bay or the canteen, he said i should get out of the sun because i'm in the sun. so, i was steered to up the stairs and to this area where there's a chair there and i sat there. eunice was telling him that i didn't eat my breakfast. and he said he was going to the general office. Ah?! 啊？！天啊！and then, eunice and yirong were accompanying me. i saw mr lim going to the office then climbing up the stairs. the clerk came and gave me a cup of milo in a styrofoam cup... damaging the environment.. haiz... people these days... don't they know the ozone layer is like- depleting? global warming is SO serious! anyway, she gave me a fork as a stirrer... -.-" eh? how come i remember arh? hm... then, eunice left to go to lab lesson. speaking of which, i missed a really important chem lesson. i ought to go ask mr leow for a make-up practical. because i'm going to fail chem horribly by the looks of it... anyway... then, mr lim came down with a cup of milo(rather big cup, actually) and biscuits. he saw the cup in my hands and was like- trying to force yirong to drink it, but yirong was so clever, she was like "oh, i ate breakfast already" and he was saying "oh... then, afterwards u help me to wash and put back in the staff lounge on the 3rd floor" er- deng... i was trying not to laugh. haha~ and he was saying he needed to go invigilate for the normal acad sec 4 classes so he went off after telling me that i can go home and telling me all the things about what i ought to do if i want to go home... and i wasn't even listening because i didn't even want to go home in the first place... anyway, what do we have for a sick bay? a pathetic heritage room.. ops... i'm going to be killed.


anyway, after yesterday, i feel that... mr lim is a nice person. so i ought to be more obedient and also try harder for maths... in which, actually, i am already trying hard but i just can't get more than a just pass...haiz... anyway, tomorrow there's this a maths functions test. and it's going to be counted. i had so much difficulty passing and now there's another test which concentrates on what i'm bad at... great! and it's supposed to HELP me...! haiz... i will be studying after i finish typing... and sleeping.. haha~ anyway, yar... and i spent yesterday trying to do my chem worksheet. and i even have problems with the chemical and ionic equation! haiz... so pathetic, huh? ='( cry... cry... 怎么办？and i asked hari and got myself all confused though i know he's had 1 year more of schooling than me and his chem is like- A1 BUT i still don't understand despite his continuous effort to enlighten this particularly thick and dense person here... so, i gave up eventually. and i actually spent 2 hours cracking my head over the 2 worksheets. and i have not even attempted to do the theory workbook. in which i'm sure i won't know how to do... haiz...

yar... so, anyway, yesterday i was in a very bad mood because choir was like crap... miss lim was SO fuming mad... she said our sound is bad, we can't blend, our attendance is bad, we have very little people, we can't even do simple warm-ups. ok, basically, everything sucked. and she was very very disappointed in us. she was telling us that we are too slack and we ought to buck up. she said that our sec 1s are the worst of all her choirs... and i personally agree... because they are simply inaudible. and they don't dare to sing. (honestly, who dares to sing when she's so angry?) and she was mad with the alto seniors because we didn't teach the sec 1s well.. she said that it's no use that we are good but our sec 1s can't sing. she was most furious with the sops. they couldn't blend, they were airy and their sound was horrible. some were correct some were singing incorrectly. she wants us to train up the sec 1s or she's leaving. and if we continue this type of pathetic standard, we can forget about going overseas for the competition next year in june. i really want to go... but o levels... whatever it is, i'm going. because it's during the holidays... that is, i'm going if miss lim decides to bring us there... but looking at it, if we don't pull up our socks, we're dead... not only won't we be able to leave the country for the first time in anderson choir history, but miss lim and mr yong will most probably be leaving. i don't know what to do. she's furious with the new commitee... thank god i'm not in there... anyway, i feel that i haven't been doing enough. if i were that confident of my singing, i would drill the sec 1s but... i'm not the sectional leader and i'm not qualified to do that. the sec 1s just won't open their mouth to sing! aaaarrrrgggghhhhh! anyway, we have sectionals on friday... expected huh? because we sounded totally like crap on both monday and tuesday. miss lim is extremely angry with us. and i'll say we deserve it. we have really been too slack. the thing i can't stand is her saying that we cannot survive without the sec 4s... after our seniors left. it's not TRUE. the seniors are good, yes... she kept saying that we're now a bronze choir. ok, there was even once when she said we are a participation choir. she was scolding us. how our seniors worked so hard to get us that gold, which was supposed to be a gold with honours... and how we just let choir die at our hands. it's not true. choir is not going to die. i don't believe that we cannot match up to our previous standard. sure, the basses are not as strong, the tenors do not concentrate as much but they're actually good. the sops... i'm sure ee ching can do something about them... the thing is, she wasn't there for these 2 practises in which the sops were like, practically scolded the most. anyway, altos are ok, except that according to miss lim, we sing without brains. which ... is really bad...and our voice is sometimes a little too chesty. she kept asking for a ringing tone and she seems contented with our sound. but she still thinks our sound is horrible as a choir. this is really, really, really bad... we can't possibly just leave it as it is. i wish i could make a difference...

anyway, enough about choir... i really have no idea what to do now choir is facing this crisis. whatever it is, today was normal too.. oh, i got back e maths paper, 29 out of 40... it's a A2... i dropped a grade... haiz... guess i shouldn't be complaining. but 1 more mark and i have secured an A1... and i lost a lot of marks due to careless mistakes and 1 for the line of the graph that i drew being too thick... how terribly ironic... haiz... my A1... just flew away... anyway, i should be glad, wei siang is the highest in class and he's 31. so... yar... i should be happy...

i got back chinese today and i'm totally upset with myself. because i got 27/40. which is a B3. a B3 for chinese! a B3...! a B3... ... ... oh my gosh... ok, i shall try not to think about it anymore.... ='( 3。。。 我怎么对得起我的父母，祖宗八代？*伤心欲绝状* 哭ing... oh well.... and i have a bad feeling i'm going to score badly for lit elect. which is terrible because i am going to flunk SS because my stand was to a certain extent... my A1 for combined humans depends on these 2 subjects... geog is not reliable at all... anyway, i made a mistake of downloading a 蔡淳佳 song that's in mp3 format, which is taking a darn long time to download compared to one of a wma format... this is horrible...! i wasted so much time in which i could have downloaded more songs! aaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!! anyway, i think i'm suffering from a serious psychological problem... 我有严重的妄想症。。。怎么办？！ok, i need to get a grip over myself... it is impossible that a person like u if he asks for ur handphone number for practically no reason whatsoever. and replies ur messages instantly when u reply... hm... ok, i think i'm seriously thinking too much...我是想太多了。。。想太多了。。。

huiyi was telling me that all my entries will have that 冰山。so, to prevent her from teasing me again, i shall not refer to **** as ****... 冰山其实很适合他。。。yirong refers to him as 王八蛋。。。呵呵！天啊！我好像在幸灾乐祸。。。呵呵~anyway, i think it's funny...i'm so happily laughing over this nickname when i'm the one who sort of caused it to be created because i was still angry that time... oh! yar! yesterday, i was wishing 冰山 good luck for his o level english oral after i checked the notice board and saw that he was taking his exam yesterday... and he was like “此人已死，清明烧纸...” haha~ 呵呵~ haiz... i thought 冰山was ignoring me? 他不是跟我冷战的吗？so, i have deduced that he suffers from serious pms... oh my... if he sees this,i will die soon... it's like- he can be so nice one moment and the other so horrible, so mean,so insensitive, so 冷漠无情， so不解风情，so讨人厌，so白痴。。。

whatever it is, i downloaded the 梦在手里song huiyi told me about... and ... it's nice!　=) i'll see if i can learn it lah... she keeps changing the song she wants to sing one lah... can't stand her... then next moment when i've finally learnt the song, she will tell me... oh, i decided to change the song again... -.-" haiz...i was wondering if i should even take part next year... this year's turned out to be a disaster... i don't think i was very relaxed with 冰山looking at me... and listening... i don't know what was his opinion of my horrible performance. but he was quite angry with me when i said that i was very horrible and i shouldn't even be in choir. hm... but that was like, so long ago... ... and how come i still remember it?! ok, i'm weird...

anyway, now i can't ask 冰山any questions. because i stupidly said i won't in my fit of anger... and i'm seriously regretting it now... ok, i know i am being really silly... but anyway, he doesn't exactly answer my questions. haha~ now huiyi can't say that i'm always 文峰哥哥 here and there~ and i do NOT talk sorely about him, ok? did i just type the forbidden word? i meant, 冰山。。。 anyway, i saw 冰山walking home with 竞之学长today. i realise that i've become an expert and i can recognise him from very far away. mom was driving past RI mah~ then i was like- looking out of the window in the front seat and instantly when she turned at the traffic light, i spotted the nike bag. and i was right~ haha~ i'm so observant. anyway, he broke a school rule...his shirt was not tucked in. anyway, 向往学长is having his oral today...well, good luck to him... i heard their invigilators are from st nicholas... no wonder 冰山was so unconfident... poor thing... 好可怜哦。。。=(

ok, i shall not want to become a 重色轻友person again.. anyway, lin xiu and huiyi actually bought audrey birthday presents... i think they're er- mad... i mean, mentally challenged, to put it nicely... what the- what's the point? she's beyond cure... oh my... i do realise that huiyi will be reading this... hm... ops... whatever lah~ anyway, it's really what i think lorh... i don't think it'll work... i still cannot believe that a person can be so... .... i shall not elaborate more. i think it's true that people who look better lack something people who are not have. character.

today, 俊扬is performing 童话！！！and the girls are singing 遗失的美好。。。all my favourite songs... must watch today... and i must vote for 俊扬！junyang, i love u! =) oh my, i'm so 花心。。。哈哈~what the- i'm crapping... please ignore me here... anyway, junyang rocks!! i will be sure to vote for him~ and i'm recording today's performance to take screenshots of him... anyway, there's this really cute advertisement of him as the 主角。。。好可爱哦！he's so CUTE! anyway.... kelly, 加油！junyang, 加油！你是最，最棒的！我爱你~anyway, it's junyang's birthday today~!俊扬，祝你生日快乐！happy, happy, happy~ (goes higher and higher) happy birthday to u~ *applause* whee~ happy bdae to junyang ~

hm... i guess that's a very long entry from me... haha~ ok. bye bye~ wish me luck for e test tomorrow~ =)

kaho is so lucky.. she has such a nice kor~ i wish i was as lucky as her... her kor dotes on her a lot!

我呢。。。昨天还是照样发了冷笑话给文峰哥哥了。。。hm...是啦！我说话不算话！我自己也不想的嘛！>.< 唉。。。总之，我什么也没有提，也没有道歉什么的。呃。。。不过，他没有回我简讯诶。。。那应该很正常吧？我们在说的是文峰哥哥诶！奇怪了，我怎么又叫文峰哥哥了？哎哟，真搞不懂自己。。。真是的！！！哎哟，管他那么多了。反正他应该没有那么小气吧？何况，其实，比较有资格生气的是我诶！！！humph~ 哎哟，今早看到scholars到了学校，可是没有看到文峰哥哥和向往学长。。。就不知不觉的担心了啦。。。这是正常的，ok? 他毕竟是我的学长。呃。。。听起来好奇怪哦。我已经习惯文峰哥哥这个称呼了。以前那个文峰学长听起来好遥远哦。。。突然想起那时我问他要怎么称呼他，他说“叫我文峰啊， 不然你想怎么叫啊？” 哈哈~那个好像很久以前咯~可是，其实才过了五月多。不算久吧？对了，我拜天没事干， 就去数。。。然后数到，拜六，就是我跟他“吵架”的那天，是刚好我们认识满六个月。可是，我觉得我好像越想做他的妹妹，越是离他越来越远。不管我怎么努力，他还是那么讨厌我。。。

Oh, forget it... i shall not think too much into it... afterall, I have other things in my life... anyway, today's 成语测验was ok lah~ i remembered everything and i'm quite confident of it. Except the 长文缩短was rather badly attempted... PLEASE, don't let it pull my chinese down... 一边答卷，一边想到东窗事发，防患未然和因人而异。。。 。。。anyway, i hope i get an A1 for chinese... and we got A maths paper back... i was thinking i was sure to fail... BUT... I PASSED! I ACTUALLY passed!!! *fanfare plays* this is GREAT! i have never felt happier... i heard that in 3/4, only 1 person passed... heard that it's dev... and there's 3/3 with only 3 people who passed.... I ACTUALLY passed! i PASSED!!! oh, thank the lord and the heavens! i passed! and in our class, 19 passed out of 39... ok, 21 out of 40 isn't very good... in fact, it's horrible.. but i PASSED! ^_^ ok, i sound like i'm mental, right? hm...anyway, i failed my chem practical by half a mark... so, i can kiss my chem's A2 goodbye... .... i think i will have problems getting even a pass this time... 12 marks gone... 3 marks left to deduct from... i know i most probably won't pass... BUT please... save me! i really need to pass! i'm contented with a pass! i won't expect a B... (i know it's out of the question) please let me pass....

anyway, enough about results... i think i'm in danger of failing social studies... i wrote i agree to a certain extent and everybody said that they will immediately get 0 no matter how much u wrote... please! i can't afford to fail social studies! i really need my combined humanities' A1! I seriously need to get good grades for SS... i can't depend sorely on my literature, though it's really important too... i really can't flunk my best subject... i can't afford to flunk combined humans... it's what i'm counting on for my 1 humans subject... if i really flunk, i don't know what i'd do... i know i will cry like hell for sure...

anyway, choir was ok today... feels weird after not going to choir for 3 weeks and then having to go back again.. hm... but it was ok~ we got sweets from mr yong... =) the coke sweet is really nice~　haha~ hee hee~ 呵呵~ anyway, i like sambalele.... it's such a cheerful and fun song... it's a bit like sigulempong... haha~ i miss that song... actually, i miss even the SYF songs which i thought i would never miss because we'd been singing the same 3 songs for god knows how long ... but, i really miss gobi, adam and even sunset... ='( and i also miss the seniors~ i didn't really get to know them well... except agnes, liting, shi ping, silvia and 田慧学姐...anyway, one in a million by bosson rocks~! it's such a nice song... miss congeniality rocks! it's so funny! =) chew yan was right.. i didn't really get what she was saying when she was happily chirping about how nice and funny it was... because i hadn't seen it before mah~

yar, anyway.... i feel like sleeping... but i just had dinner and i'll become really fat if i sleep immediately... so, i decided to satisfy myself by typing my dear blog~ =) i love my blog! and i love 洪俊扬！！！俊扬，我爱你！你是我的绝对superstar! junyang rocks!!! =)

我觉得，我没有必要道歉，反正错的根本都不是我嘛！我干嘛要为一件我根本没有犯的错道歉认错？何况，是程文峰无理取闹，讨人厌，不可理喻！humph~ i am not going to apologise because i did nothing wrong... If i was so rude and unfeeling and inconsiderate to him, would he be angry? obviously... so, i REFUSE to apologise... i am not in the wrong...

great... i sound really petty and childish, don't i? 我没有！幼稚的人呢，是程文峰！！！我只不过问了一个问题诶！有罪吗？真搞不懂，有什么人受的了那个无聊头顶，不可理喻，无理取闹，神经病的家伙。。。请问他是不是人啊？他根本没有感情，没有肉，没有血，没有人性。。。而且说话不经大脑。。。等等，他又有大脑吗？是啊，我是跟他没有关系。。反正他打从一开始就从来没有把我当人看，更不要说妹妹。。拜托他，如果他不希望管我，不要和我有任何瓜葛，就不要叫我做他的“妹妹”嘛！！！说实在的，我当时就应该拒绝。。我还在那里想，文峰哥哥人真好。现在呢？我想，他根本就是被人唆使什么的。。。唉。。。讨人厌！！！总之呢，我不会道歉的。我不要理那个讨人厌，无理取闹的讨厌鬼加100%的冰山！！！

ok, maybe i am being stupid and childish... aargh! but i can't exactly pretend nothing happened when what he did got on my nerves quite seriously...ok, i can...so...? what do i do now? hm... >.<>

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我闯祸了！我刚刚要offline的时候，我竟然很没有礼貌的对文峰哥哥说“from now on, i'll refrain from asking u questions, lest i get another lecture from u...and because i'm so annoying and irritating。 i'm going to have my dinner .... 88~ though i'm very sure u're glad to have gotten rid of me” 我真是太没大没小了。。。唉，我当时真的，真的很生气嘛！不然，我哪敢这样？而且，我发觉我好像还是很在乎他。。。这是不妥的！！！我不应该那么管他，反正他跟我没有任何关系！！！我很清楚，他根本不把我当妹妹看，我想，他对我算是大发慈悲了。。。文峰哥哥。。他其实应该不讨厌我吧？我是说，他虽然是online又away了一阵，不过，他先跟我讲嗨的。。。我其实在看他会不会先跟我讲话。。。不瞒你说，我真的是很高兴。不过，后来他的言语太过分了，我不生气是不可能的。总之，我现在冷静了，觉得我并没有错。呃。。。除了发脾气以外，我并没有做错什么。。。但是呢，我还是道歉比较好。。。反正我道歉惯了。而且，我好像还是喜欢着他，虽然我非常不想承认，也不想这样。但是，事实好像是这样。。。不然，我今天下午就不会因为他的话而掉眼泪。。。哎哟，我应该已经死心了！！！文峰哥哥是我的“哥哥。。。”是哥哥！总之，明天发冷笑话时道歉吧~反正，我讨厌跟人冷战，尤其是跟文峰哥哥冷战，我最讨厌了。。。我不管了。文峰哥哥的事我管定了。就像我今天对他说的，“我要管就管，你管我！”就算我跟你没关系也好。。。我知道他根本不把我当妹妹。。。

文峰哥哥跟我说嗨。。。然后呢，我们就什么话都没讲。。。后来，我就问他他的laptop不是拿回中国了吗？然后，他就送上了一句“和你有关系吗？”我真的那么令人讨厌吗？我有那么烦吗？我只不过问了一个问题。。。我犯了很大的错吗？

我怎么哭了。。。筱文很没有用。。。筱文真没用。。。我怎么哭了。。。我真的不知道要怎么样才能跟他沟通。。。我真的那么烦吗？我真的那么那么的讨人厌吗？我讨厌死他了。。。我有错吗？我哪里错了？还是，我真的想太多了。。。？现在，我不知道要怎么样跟他讲话才不会让他讲这种我最不像听到的话。。。

i can't post ONLY pictures... what is wrong with this system?!

everytime i want to delete 1 photo, it ends up deleting everything!!!!

and the format is so horrible....!

it's the weekends.. examinations are like- over... and i don't know why, but i feel rather sick... sick of life, and its monotony... i'm still wondering what i actually mean to others... whether i am transparent... in which i mostly shouldn't be... but then again, i am transparent... mom asked me whether i want to go to shanghai for december holidays... 文峰哥哥is online now... but his status is away...he changed it shortly after i came online... i hardly see him online, so i should talk to him, right? but i don't want to... i am SO tired.. i'm tired of him. i'm tired of his cold attitude...and i feel very lousy right now... so, i'd better not risk talking to him and blowing up or losing my temper, which is always on the rise nowadays...Anyway, it's quite clear he's trying to avoid me...Ok, my mother just told me that we are going to shanghai on 5th, 6th and 7th of september... honestly, much as i want to visit china... i don't want to go on my birthday! which is like- the 1st day of the school holidays...mainly because we are going to k-box on that day... and... ok, i shouldn't exactly be hoping that i can ever get my wish... because i'm wishing for the impossible... can't we stay in singapore?!

And then, they are insisting on going... so, i will have to spend my birthday on my own if i want to stay...or i have to move in with 二姨。。。?????!!!!! can someone tell me whether i'm supposed to feel happy?! not that my family is more important than my friends... anyway, i'm not exactly in the mood for this kind of thing...i don't really know why, but i feel so lousy and horrible... though i didn't do anything wrong or nothing very bad happened to me, unless u count 文峰哥哥 not replying me, which happens all the time, it's not much of a surprise anymore... i've learnt not to expect too much of him...whatever lah~ anyway, i spent a very long time changing all the screenshots to jpeg format from bitmap format so they will take up less space... let me show them off... haha~ i think my website is going to explode... i really don't feel like typing today... i feel so tired and so sick...

俊扬好厉害。。。俊扬，我永远支持你！

I am so bored....

haiz...

derrick is out 了~不知道是好还是坏。。。如果他跟俊扬比，我得浪费好多钱去投票给俊扬咯~总之，这个星期的比赛我一定要让俊扬进去！他是最棒的绝对superstar!!!!

kelly and junyang rock!!! 希望他们两个可以顺利进大决赛。。。！

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