Desheng, the guy who's sits in front of me and my cousin for english tuition, has got back his results for 5 subjects. and it's his R5, I think. guess what's his score so far? 5 points....

OMG

people are INSANE

i will be like, the only one with 20 plus. haiX

NO!!!!

i don't want!!!!

but omg.... i will never get that type of score. actually, isn't this the type of score he gets?!

...... ......

hahahahahaha

that just proves that we're of totally different standards.

..... .....

n i have not completed even 1/4 of the puzzle!!!!!!!!!

i must have gone mad to choose a puzzle that is 95% BLUE and it has no numbers behind the pieces to guide me at ALL. OMG i just want to die.... 1000 leh!!!!

n i have to finish it quickly. how to start revision like this?! I feel like dying.... i can't possibly leave the puzzle there for 1 whole month....

n i'm stil wondering how to give him. aaaaahhhhhh

n i doubt he will like it.

because we have very different tastes and I like it quite a lot. it can glow in the dark. i'm like, broke now. it's 120 plus.

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

aaaahhhhhh

what is wrong with me?!

aaaaahhhh


i think i will ask for help from xiang wang. although i don't think he will agree... n i dun haf his hp no. (that's quite easy to solve, actually... i can ask around)

erR

all that will be left for when I have actually COMPLETED the puzzle. anyway, he will be having his promos soon. hope he can do well~ jiayou, jiayou!

i doubt he'll have any problems. afterall, we are from different leagues.(".)

CANNOT! i must buck up!!!!

似曾相识 by 陶吉吉. I LOVE THIS SONG. although the mv isn't that nice.... but I had been waiting for it to be uploaded onto you tube for SUCH a long time. finally I found it! what a great song....!~

miraculously, my dad din remove the modem. (".) but i haven't been blogging for obvious reasons... P-R-E-L-I-M-S

-.-"

haiX

well.... so far...

bleah =X

haiX

the papers were SUPPOSED to be much easier than normal anderson standard. (.")

at least, it was for chem and a maths. but yaR... I'm very stupiD so... i screwed it up.

n the paper that totally shocked me. that was the understatement of the year. because I was distraught. seriously depressed when I was doiing the compre. OMG WTH

i died in that time. i've never done a paper like this. a paper that would make me feel so useless and doubtful of my english. (although my english isn't THAT good... but still... at least I never got C's in my whole life for english. not that that's an achievement either...-.-") but GOD what was that paper about?! and i screwed up the summary, which was ironically supposed to save my skin.

haiX

so saD

btw, they say that the prelims this year are made to be closer to o level standard. (I don't think so for english... if our compre comes out in o level, i will seriously just drop dead and DIE) did i mention i have to count english because i need the A1 i got from chinese last year. because.... i CAN'T count A maths and chem. so YAR. GREAT. JUST GREAT.

anyway, if that's true, if i still can't get 11 for prelims. i don't think i'd be able to for the actual O's.

AAAAAHHHHH

what the heck....

i'm still trying to get over english. ='( so SAD

haiX

aiyar, E maths. I need that A1!!!

let me go sleep first before i start. this week has just been.... one word. HELL. din get enough sleep at all.

and oh my goodness i am becoming a 'u must mug' freak. even when i sleep i dream of the subjects i'm taking. and i think my consciousness is an extremely powerful thing.

because i hate studying at my desk, i study on my sis's bed or mine. and sometimes....

unfortunately, i doze off. and I don't know what's wrong with me. i never fail to have weird dreams that wake me up. no, they don't exactly wake me up. they scare me so that I wake up. not that it's bad.

but still... I have dreams that are totally weird. i dreamt of a beach with many corpses and skeletons. I dreamt that cockroaches attacked me and climbed all over me. EEEWWW.... gross! I dreamt that I fell off my bed when i didn't. i dreamt i was chased by a giagantic hyena along with my friend, who is faceless. n i dreamt that wenfeng was angry with me and we had a very heated argument. that was the scariest dream. because i din know that i was dreaming. and it felt so totally real. i woke up and was like, oh no, i have to apologise to him. then i calmed myself down and realised that it was just a dream. god... -.-" must have been really freaky because I've never really argued with him. and he's never ever angry. (at least according to him)

and last night I had this really weird dream. but it somehow woke me up too. my dreams don't make any sense. I was somehow outside a room and went inside to see haha.... him, xiang wang and a girl. so, I (in my dreams) quickly closed the door and was quite shocked. I remember that i was smiling and punching the air in my dream. then i went inside. and somehow, i don't know. but it seems like it's those rooms in hostels. and the girl inside with them was my room mate. god knows how i ended up living in a hostel when i have my own home with my family. and i remember that I (in the dream) was elated and i asked him why he was so kind to visit me. he said that they waited for me at school for 3 hours (huh?! doink... where did that come from) so the me in my dreams asked him why. and he said that he wanted to see me because he suddenly realised that we hadn't met for a long time and he and xiang wang wanted to have lunch so he felt like asking me to join them. and he said that he had never treated me to a meal before. he was saying there was this restaurant which offers good food. (haha.... that'll never happen in a million years O_O) and xiang wang was saying that he suggested they come here to wait instead. then, he disappeared off to somewhere. (he like, vapourised for a moment) then the me in my dreams asked wenfeng when he was going back to china. and he said after his exams. somehow, that time, he was already taking a levels. he said the moment he got his results, he'd fly back home, find a job and work until he had lots of money.

the me in the dream sat down on my bed, next to him and i was saying that I wanted to earn enough money so i could retire early. i asked if it was so for him and he said he was studying very hard so that he could get a degree and a good job because he had to.then all of a sudden, xiang wang reappeared and was telling both me and wenfeng that they had to go back because their teacher had something urgent to tell them.

i only remember the me in my dream being extremely sad because I hadn't seen him for a long time (in my dreams). then... i woke up. and realised i had little time to study chem. denG. but i was really exhausted after staying up to study for geog e night before, so i went back to sleep again. and ended up not finishing reading macromolecules. and i totally forgot what it was about. so, as a result, i screwed up chem.

dreams never make sense. although I do admit that the feeling in the dream was so nice. as in, it was so real, as though i was really talking to him. haiX. must really miss him. and actually, we've never really talked about our dreams. (".) denG

Shall be the start of prelims on monday....

frankly speaking, I'm hopeless... think I'll be in the super diamonds' list again.

it's stupid when u know that u have to get 11 points but yet... the more u think about it, the more u are intimidated and don't really feel like studying. actually....

a part of me has already admitted defeat. 11 points... is out of my reach...

I did try for prep prelims. and yet, i'm still over 20.

I'm really very very tired...
每次都要说服自己我可以的。明明知道我没有那么聪明。。。却拼命的想告诉自己我不笨。。。
你知道喜欢文峰这样的人真的好辛苦
好累
你知道每次考试之前我都是怎么过的么？
前一个晚上我都是和泪水度过的。。。
拼命的告诉自己我可以的
如果考不好就真的要分开了
你知道这一年我是怎么熬过的。。。
如果考不上，就是不同的JC，那不用妄想可以见面了
真的很累

因为我们是不同世界的人，所以我连走进他的心都要花比别人多两倍的努力和时间。。。已经要两年了，我才刚刚慢慢的靠近。。。现在的距离已经够远了。。。如果考不上。。。
it's so tiring to like cheng wenfeng....(".)

HaiX

谁叫我要自讨苦吃。。。明明是自己不肯放弃，却在这里喊累。。。haiX. so qian da.... (.")

有时会不时地想如果没有遇到，喜欢上文峰我现在会是怎样的?
肯定会比现在考得更好很多吧~
不过从来都不会后悔遇到他。。。
一辈子也不会后悔

by the way, my father's removing the modem
so shan't be online or blogging for some time...

Damn... I'm like, so slack!!!

oh gosh..

i will regret it all my life if my hopes were dashed all because I was too lazy to study. or because I am just not clever enough.

aaaahhhhhh!!!!

O_O

anyway, i have decided to name the bear 思文

not 斯文 but 思文

direct meaning if u break it up, would be 思念文峰...(".)

I was looking for a more 诗情画意 name... so that it sounds more grand and all... but then, I think a meaningful name would be more appropriate. was thinking of 静文，丽文，嘉文... n yar, they are all names ending with the 文character. no need to elaborate why... (.")

anyway, I made a book for it. wenfeng bought it on the 4th september. so, that shall be its birthday. one day before mine. and 九月四号。四si 思si. same pinyin but different 音调.so it now has something to do when i'm reading or doing my work. haha~ shall make a pillow for it after prelims. O_O

u noe, my sis said that i'm going insane.

(".)

actually, i agree. what's all the fuss about this bear?

(.")

ok, never mind~~~
but it's really cute mah!

I was telling angeline that I was very scared. and she pointed out that obviously she's more afraid than me. agreed. ok, fine, so i'm second scared. (".) that sounds really weird. but yar... both of us are aiming for TJC. i suppose it's fair to say that it's because of a reason that hasn't really got much to do with the school itself, or rather, who's inside it. anyway, tjc is really very far to both of us.

but i never get my first choice.

look at psle. i went to anderson, although i think it was the best thing that ever happened to me now. but i was very easy-going then so i wasn't really that upset with not getting into nanyang, which was my first choice then. thank god i din get in. or i'd never ever have met so many great people...

so, i should tell everybody i want to get into hwa chong. then when the results come out i'll get into tjc,which is really my first choice all along

ok, that has no logic at all.

i'm desperate to get in, see?

hmm... shudn't i be studying?

alright...

haiX

chloe, u must jiayou. do u really wana be separated from him for another 2 years?!

NO!!!

NO! No! no! no! no....

do u know how agonising this year was for me? =(

never wana relive this. and my sis was telling me, why are u so determined u will like him forever? wun u meet someone else in jc?

erR maybe.

but seriously, now, and for as long as I can, I only want to like him. nobody else. I won't regret going to TJC. I'll make sure of that. anyway, i don't think he will have a girlfriend for a long time to come. he's the 'I want to study first' type. so i don't have to worry about going there and finding out stuff that i will be sad to hear.

anyway, isn't it better that i'm his mei? I have an excuse for him to take care of me and give in to me. haha~I'm really afraid that if we're together and one day we quarrelled and from then on we pretend we don't know each other when we meet again... that's the worst thing that can ever happen.

anyway, what am i doing?! go study!!!

this is by kangta n vanness again. this one is 127日. it's a very nice song!!! =) also discovered by me yesterday. ok, fine. it wasn't discovered by me. although xiang wang thought it was. we din have any songs lined up so they started playing songs from k-box at random. and wenfeng and i were in the room alone at that time. xiang wang came in after talking on the phone and he was exclaiming that this song was nice so wenfeng pressed the replay button. I listened to a bit of it before i went to the washroom. when i came back, xiang wang had finished singing. O_O so i din hear much of it yesterday. but I heard the full version today. very nice! haha~ (".) xiang wang was saying that they are a duo with a very bright future. the mv is so sad! =(

haha~ this song was like, released quite a long time ago. FINE, i'm really slow and outdated blah blah... but the mv is really cool! I was totally uninterested in this new duo kangta and vaness. i still am. but this mv is really, shuai, shuai and shuai. and kangta is cute. =X u noe when u're in k-box and this song is shown and the lights are dimmed, wow! the effect is really really nice! xiang wang said that the mv is really shuai. so we were like watching the mv without singing. aaahh! i agree! although i must say that the english rap sucks. (".)

OK lah, it wasn't very sweet.

because I was quite PMS....(".) hope nobody minds. =X

well, in the morning I was to meet linxiu so she could teach me physics and e maths. in the end, well, not much was accomplished.

hweeli and chewyan gave me my birthday gifts. =D

thank u so much! luv both of ya. like hweeli said, no matter what happens in the future, i must be kai kai xin xin de. n i'm having sore throat. so i can't have the cadburry chocolate u gave me. but i like the 'princess' cup. although my cousin gave me a winnie the pooh one. do i look like I break cups often?! everybody's giving me cups. haha~ O_O

thank u, chewyan. the earrings are too glam so I couldn't wear them today. I wore a peach top with 3/4 white pants plus sport shoes today. like quite inappropriate with the earrings. =D i like the purple one! n the necklace. although i don't like beads. haha~ u noe I like those little shiny bling blings when it comes to necklaces. haha~ O_O

went to swensens the day before. ate this chewy chocolate ice-cream thingy with my bro n sis. yum yum!

yesterday i had black forest cake from Han's. =) my sis loves it to bits but I find it... satisfactory.

haha~ she will kill me for that (".)

so yar...

then when it was nearing 1 I went to change. I asked wenfeng to meet me at 1.40 at somerset mrt station. hmM... so, he asked me who else was coming n asked if I would mind if he brought xiang wang along.

and my first reaction was...

HUH?!

i thought xiang wang doesn't like me?! i mean... duNO... juz haf this feeling...

so i said, of course i don't mind but he doesn't seem to like me. wenfeng was saying "he's very happy to be celebrating ur birthday." I was like... HmM... really?

so I met them at the mrt station. for once, wenfeng was there earlier than me. xiang wang was there too. we were quite awkward at first. he said he saw me when he came back during teachers' day. we didn't say hi to each other... because we are like strangers, except that we know of each other's existence because of wenfeng and choir. but mainly because of wenfeng.

so we walked to cineleisure. wenfeng presented me with a present. it was put in a kalm's plastic bag. Kalm's!!!! what do u think of when u hear of the word? EX. damn EX lah. it's like precious thoughts, only worse. at the time, i didn't know the gift was from him. I was asking him to hold it first because my stuff are seriously heavy. but i took it from him later when he asked "don't u want to open it?" we were going up the escalator out of the mrt station. so i asked who wrapped the gift. because... seriously, it was wrapped really well. =)

xiang wang and wenfeng were pointing to themselves. i was quite confused by them. I asked the same question again and they did the same thing again. (".) so I was like, confused. then, xiang wang was saying he wanted to check the gift. I was totally confused again. why must u check the gift if u're the one who gave it? "why do u need to check it when u prepared it?" wenfeng was smiling and smiling. xiang wang was saying he wanted to check if there were any things inside that weren't suitable for a 16 year old's eyes for fear that it would adversely affect my growth psychologically. I was quite... huh? "ok, u check it then." wenfeng was smiling and smiling again. xiang wang took the plastic bag from me, took out the gift and was trying to see what was inside. then it struck me. the gift is from wenfeng. xiang wang was laughing, saying that he couldn't tell what it was as he held it up against the light. he returned it to me and told me "actually the gift is from wenfeng." OOHHH.... haha~ no wonder. so i asked wenfeng, "what's inside?" xiang wang was saying "it's a present." i was totally frozen."what's wrong? that wasn't incorrect," he said. "haha~ of course i know it's a present. what is it?" xiang wang was saying,"oh, i will give u a more specific answer. it is a present that is wrapped."

OMG

hweeli... go n learn from the master of lameness...

so i was saying "YAR! No wait. it's a present that is wrapped with a wrapper with bears on it." xiang wang was saying that I was specific and precise. i forgot what cheng yu he used. but yar, he used a chinese idiom n he was marvelling that he knew how to use chinese idioms. OMG who doesn't know that his chinese is great?

wenfeng was like laughing and laughing. fanstastic lorh. his friend bully me he still pretend he hear nothing.(".)

so we went inside. sometimes, ok, most of the time they would talk in sichuan language. n the poor me. don't understand what they are talking about. it's impossible to be able to tell. (.")

so we were reaching cineleisure. then, xiang wang was saying that wenfeng was his 大哥. i was asking, "i thought that wenfeng is younger than u?" xiang wang was saying that in terms of age, yes, but in reality, he's the younger one. I was asking "因为他比较有钱吗？" "不只是钱，他什么都有。我没有的他都有。我有的缺点他都没有，有的都是优点。我的优点他也都有了。" he sounded like he was strongly recommending wenfeng to be my boyfriend or something. wenfeng was looking quite embarrassed. he is very easily shy whenever he's being praised. haha~

then we went inside cineleisure. and....i asked them to go the other way so we could take the escalators. and haha~ they were looking at me and wenfeng was saying "干吗不坐电梯？" i was totally... aaahhh.... do u have to make me lose face like that?! xiang wang was saying "oh, u take the escalator? actually, u can do that. but the escalator only leads to the 6th floor at most." I was quite grateful to him. apparently my feeling that he doesn't like me isn't true. (".) opS. so we took the lift n checked into Room 12.

anyway, xiang wang and wenfeng are both really good singers. n i sucked. partly because my voice was horrible. and i didn't feel like singing thanks to the FREEZING air-con. it's cineleisure k-box by the way. ever been there? if not, go experience the 'Coolness'. it's so cold that even guys like wenfeng and xiang wang were going "it's so cold..." i was wearing so much less than them. (sleeveless top compared to their t-shirts) wenfeng was in jeans. xiang wang in shorts. anyway, your legs rarely feel cold. (".) speaking of wenfeng's shirt. it was so nice! did i mention i love it when guys wear white shirts? it was collared and the design was so nice!

i suppose they had fun singing. they were entertaining themselves as they sang. so i was entertained as well. wenfeng kept urging me to sing. n i just kept refusing because my throat was terrible and i could barely reach those very easy notes that i have always been able to reach.wenfeng suggested that he and xiang wang sing the birthday song. i was like- erR haha~ no thanks. so weirD... birthday song in k-box...

then I was bored mah, so i asked wenfeng if i could open his gift. he said of course. so i did. and it was a teddy bear! aaawwwWWW... wenfeng asked me if i thought it was cute. i nodded. it is really cute!!! besides, it's from him. =) i'd like anything he gave me. just as long as it isn't really something weird, disgusting or freaky. so i put it on my lap throughout the whole time i was in k-box after i took the bear out from the wrapper. did i mention it was well-wrapped? haha~ =P and i was playing with it and hugging it cause i was freezing...(".) when i was looking at the tag on the bear's ear, wenfeng suddenly exclaimed, '啊！！' and i was like 'huh?' he asked me to pass him the bear for a while. apparently, he forgot to check if the price tag was still there. (".) it wasn't. he passed it back to me, relieved. xiang wang looked on this with amusement. later wenfeng took the bear from me and started playing with it. I was quite amused because... he's always saying that i'm childish. although I am really childish. but yar... haha~=P

unfortunately, later, i had this pms wave sweeping over me. so i went out for a while and walked around the k-box area. it was the 8th floor one btw. people were staring at me as they walked past. n then i started tearing because.... i was really afraid that this would be the last time i would ever see him...

ok, let's not talk about sad things. keep this entry sweet.

=(

then i went back into the room. wenfeng was standing by the door, waiting for me to come in. he asked if we could go pay the bill. we checked out early by the way. even before 5. (all 3 of us were freezing, as in really FREEZING) I nodded and took out a piece of tissue from my bag to blow my nose. i don't know if they realised that i had been crying. but they acted like they didn't see anything. they went out first and waited for me outside. I was blowing my nose and drying my face for any signs of tears before i went out.

then the person said that it was $46.96. I was going to take out the money from my wallet. but wenfeng took out a $50 note and put it on the counter. seriously, he looked so 帅 when he did that. haha~ =D he gave me the receipt. i was asking him how much to pay him when he said "不用了，我请你" in a very 潇洒and 帅way. wahh! haha~

then xiang wang asked if we could go play pool. he asked me first then he told wenfeng to go K-pool. i was saying just now in the room that i might not be allowed in. xiang wang was saying "16 years old. aren't u 16 today?" wenfeng said that there's no age limit. wenfeng asked him if i was ok with it and xiang wang replied yes. so we went to k-pool.

this is the first time i've been in there. obviously. since i'm just only 16 today.

I didn't play at all. because pool is normally played by 2 people, taking turns. it's so extra for me to add in. anyway, i don't know how to play. wenfeng was asking me if i wanted to learn and offered to teach me. but i didn't want to.

so i sat at the bench and watched them play. actually, i was still feeling quite sad. but then wenfeng... has this gift of being able to cheer me up. he was quite terrible today. he was saying that both his and xiang wang's hands r totally numb and it's very difficult to play.

i never knew that pool was such a challenging game. it's really difficult. it's really entertaining to watch the 2 of them play. they take turns to miss. or they hit the ball they are supposed to use to hit the rest of the balls into the hole. haha~

it's really funny to watch them cursing or laughing each time they miss a simple shot. n they would curse each other, hoping that the ball won't go in. wenfeng was resting his stick on the table and he blocked the hole in which the ball xiang wang hit was supposed to go into. xiang wang was saying that he cheated and he was acting innocent. so cute. haha~

n they were playing songs over the radio. i kept myself entertained by watching them and singing. they were also playing and singing for certain songs. and I really want to say... wenfeng is really very shuai!

haha~

=X

really mah....

so i had a great time. n was cheered up. because i have never been able to sit and watch him for so long without worrying that he'll ask me why i'm looking at him. they played quite a lot of rounds. they used table 20 btw.

then wenfeng went to the other end of the room. i wondered what he was doing. xiang wang came over to sit near me. he said that wenfeng was never so terrible (as in his standard in pool) before. he said that it must be because we were in the air-conditioned room for too long and their hands are now frozen. he said that they have played many times and wenfeng would always be able to do very well and the shots xiang wang has problems with, wenfeng would be able to hit the ball into the hole easily. he said wenfeng is better at controlling the strength to use and he knows what angle to hit the ball at. I was nodding. hmM...why is he telling me these? anyway, it didn't matter to me. whether he sucks at pool (which i don't think he does, after hearing what xiang wang said and seeing him succeed in scoring some difficult shots) or whether he's an expert, it doesn't matter. I like him all the same. =X

ok, what i just said was really mushy. *goosebumps* wenfeng came back, he had changed the stick and his luck almost immediately changed for the better. so, i just watched them having fun and cursing each other to lose.

when we left, they were charged with $16 plus.

then wenfeng said that they were going home. obviously, i was quite sad. but then it's true that nobody can accompany someone forever. so... yaR

they said that they were taking the bus. wenfeng asked what mode of transport i was taking. so i said the mrt. then he said they would send me to the mrt station. so nice!=) obviously i didn't want to be separated so soon. but oh well... they had accompanied me for... 5 hours plus.

then wenfeng who was originally walking in front with xiang wang fell back so he could walk beside me and asked me what's wrong... i was saying that i was fine. he said that i'm very quiet today and said he and xiang wang aren't bad guys. haha~ obviously not lah. i'm just... sad that we're parting? haha~if i had said that, i wouldn't be here right now. (".)

so we reached the mrt station entrance. surprisingly they took the escalator down to the station. then when we reached the area to tap the ez-link cards, wenfeng told me that they would take the train to city hall. i was pleasantly surprised by this change of plans. then we went down to take the mrt. we were going in different directions. then the train to marina bay arrived. (their train) OK... so i was telling them to go. wenfeng was saying they would wait for me to get on my train first.

i was like... huh?

but nonetheless, i was very touched. obviously. so sweet.

=X

so xiang wang said that there was a seat there. wenfeng walked over there and we followed. then he overshot the seat so xiang wang called him back. xiang wang pointed to the seat and told me to sit. (there was only space for 2 people) i was feeling awkward. because then they'd both be standing and i'm the only one sitting. so i said that i'd stand. they were like qutie puzzled why i chose to stand.

but it made no difference. because at that moment, my train came. O_O

so much for wishing that we had more time together. wenfeng said that my train was here. xiang wang pointed out that their train hadn't left yet. wenfeng was telling him they'd take the next one then. wenfeng told me to have a happy day. xiang wang wished me a happy birthday. then we bade each other goodbyes. and i got onto the train and chose to stand right by the doors. I was looking out to where they were standing. they were still standing there, looking in. so i waved goodbye and i felt terribly sad as the train started moving and they, (oh ok, he) wisked out of sight.

haiX

so sad.

oh well, today's entry is supposed to be sweet.

had a great time.

and i really like the presents from everyone.

love the teddy bear from wenfeng. this is like, the first gift he ever gave me. smile, smile, smilez~ n it's so cute!!!

what shall i name it?

anyway, the instant he left my sights, i sms-ed him to thank them for the day. and him for the present and the treat to k-box. this is sort of our tradition. each time he spends a day with me, i'd sms him the moment after we part to thank him for his company.

and so he said 不用谢

well, what an unforgettable sweet 16. shall remember today forever. =D

haiX....

next year... ...

...

*change encoding to chinese simplified to read chinese words*
this song is sung by jiang mei qi and guang liang. it's called "对你有感觉"

我曾深刻体会　对爱感到胆怯 还好有懂我的你　给我安慰

看你失落的脸　又再为爱憔悴 我心痛的感觉竟　如此的强烈

眼角的泪　它给过谁 伤透了心　也无所谓 我会愿意　静静地　陪在你身边

如果说爱　已不可为 那我宁愿　藏心里面 其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉 又深怕朋友默契转身不见 矛盾着犹豫不决 没准备　跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉 深陷朋友恋人之间的危险 进与退　被爱包围　谁犯规　都狼狈 谁能解围　让一切完美

怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉 深陷朋友恋人之间的危险 你和我　拥抱瞬间　不后悔　这暧昧 星光唯美　把爱放心里面

what a nice song =)

how many countless times have I cried over u? whether directly or indirectly. seems as though my life revolves sorely around u. without u, I don't think I'd be complete.

well, so it doesn't make sense for me to give up.

no matter what happens

i have cried my eyes red. they are totally bloodshot and reddish. and they are stingingly painful.

oh welL...

since I am dealing with my 'xin jun', i will be like cai jing from Goong. and be strong, cheerful and unyielding.

jiayou

damn, i'm down with flu. flu totally kills ur studying mood(".)

I duno what happened. but somehow he's not replying my sms...

maybe he din see...

maybe I'm just thinking too much....

but u know?

that feeling... that a storm is brewing is constantly with me

i did not manage to study at all today

as i spent most of the day crying

pathetic right...?

n all these are all because i asked for it.

i am the stubborn idiot who clung onto this 'dan lian' for nearing 2 years le...

when it totally seems bleak. n even up till now i wonder if....

i ever mattered to him

even the slightest bit

even if i did not manage to hold that special place in his heart...did i at.. least have a position as his 'mei'?

although... i'm not his only mei...

but...did i at least make him worry? did how i feel ever matter to him?

the first mistake i made was to ignore him and reply so late. and reply so coldly.

what's the second mistake?

no

that's not it

the first mistake is liking him
the second mistake is refusing to let go

the third mistake is realising it was a mistake right from the start and still refusing to let go

Name: (Chloe) Tang Wei Mun
Age: 17 going to 18
Bdae: 5th Sept 1990
Spiritual Bdae: 5th Jan 2008
Studying at Temasek JC
Sweet & nice
God's child

Good grades
Love
Acceptance
Nice clothes
Nice bags
Idol dramas
More time
More sleep

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