YoU weRe mY evErYtHinG...NoT anYmoRe

2005年8月24日星期三 --

hello~

Sorry i didn't write an entry yesterday... i was so TOTALLY tired after choir and then i had to go to e math tuition... poor me.. *sobs, sobs* Anyway, choir was surprisingly ok... Miss Lim didn't lose her temper with us. Only the tenors were... so... *clears throat* The basses are, as usual fantastic! basses rock!! =) Anyway, I honestly think basses are the best section... ops... I'm going to die if any altos see this... I'm not a traitor lah.. it's just that basses are so small in number and yet they are always so good and solid... =) i really think that evona is getting on my nerves... oh my gosh...she's not going to see this lah, so.. never mind... but seriously, how can she talk bad about ann behind her back? that time i heard ann saying that someone was saying that she was throwing her weight around as president... PLEASE lah! where on earth did they get the idea from? i think evona is the one throwing her weight about, honestly... she keeps snatching work that's meant to be chew yan's or ann's. and people claim that work is pushed to her! geesh...

Ok, enough about infuriating stuff... Anyway, yar... i froze in e maths tuition yesterday. It was really, really freezing..! anyway, surprisingly, 冰山wasn't so 冰山yesterday... I mean, he actually replied my message instantly. though it wasn't very nice.. I was asking him if the joke was better than the horrible one that i sent to him in a fit of anger and he told me “感觉上还是一样的烂...”so, in my sort of fit of anger, i replied him things like 你给我记住。。。in which i always use and i obviously don't mean it lah...! I mean, please lah..! 我又不是那种人。。。and he replied me, "有必要这么气吗？我说什么了？难道不是实话吗？" 天啊！什么嘛？！ ok, so i was a bit 不爽，and i replied him “是，是，是...是我错...你最厉害，你说什么都对...错的是我...”and huiyi said i sounded so fake... and annoying... aiyo... and she actually said what he said and the way he replied me was interesting. I mean... ??? huiyi said 冰山was interesting? did i like- hear wrongly or something? or suffer from brain concussion...? huiyi...? who practically hates 冰山to the core because of some rather weird reasons like the time she kicked his chair to tell him that people behind were calling him but he didn't know and just stared at her? if i were him, i'd respond in the same way lah! it's not his fault! anyway, about the time she pointed at him, if i were 冰山，i will respond like what he did... I mean, how 莫名其妙it must be to 冰山... and he does not have attitude problem... Oh... er- ok... actually, he does have at times... i don't deny that.. i'm sure he knows that himself吧?

yar, anyway, we got back lit paper today.. and i got like 16/25... my lowest mark in lit history... even with miss lee, the lowest was like- 18 lorh! what is WRONG with me?! anyway, i have no expectations on my ss to pull me up. I don't even know if i can pass lorh... so, for L1R5, i'm using geog. which should be an A1 or A2. because i luckily got 24/30... which is 80. highest is 82... lady luck was shining on me that day... which paper was geog? oh... the one on friday... no lah, actually it's because of the tips miss bake gave. the last question on the aswan high dam got me 7.5 out of 8 because i forgot that the pyramids dwarfing affects tourism... =( *sobs* I pray for a day when my combined humans will remain at A1 and my geog can jump to A2... which might never happen... But for the end of the year, i really must do my best lorh... If i don't have the good foundation in sec 3, i will die in sec 4... and part of me is contented with 12 for L1R5... the other is hoping for a 8 or 9 or 10... to get into either VJC, RJC or HCJC... haha~ i think it's very obvious why... i mean, most people only have one target. since this is my blog, i shall write my true feelings lorh... 冰山's dream jcs are the above 3. but to get in there, for me, is just merely a dream吧~if i don't have the potential, i'll die in there even if i manage to squeeze in. and i hate science, so i can just go arts stream. which is erm- rather useless, according to most people... stupid people... ops... i'm not supposed to say that... 哎哟。。怎么办？i can't believe we have a test before holidays start. though the holidays are in actual fact study days to prepare for our end of year exam which is in week 3. and for the sec 4s prelim's on the 12th september, which is like first day we go back to school... -.-" poor thing...

文峰哥哥要加油哦~ =）anyway, i think he should do fine吧？he seems rather clever except for his most problematic subject. english... though he can don't count it for L1, but he needs to pass or he'll need to stay back. please don't let that happen... i don't want him to stay back... it's a wastage of 1 year... he must pass english... i'm sure he can do it的。。。he's clever enough to come here... he should be able to pass... maybe with a B..? anyway, i heard from silvia that he's really weak in english... he has to stay back for extra remedials for english... even 竞之学长doesn't need to... I think i should try to help him吧？oh... wait... actually, his problem should not lie in communication, i think it's oral and composition... and i have no idea absolutely how to help in that area... anyway, he doesn't even like english, how is he going to score well if he hates that subject? like me... i hate a maths... look at my results... when have i ever scored well?! haiz... and i don't think he likes to speak to me in english... weirdly enough... he chats with joy in english... he's so BIASED! humph...~!

anyway, my father says we are only allowed 30 minutes of online time. darn it...! what can i do in 30 minutes? i can't download any songs...! ='( i hate this... *sobs* whatever lah.. anyway, i did ok for physics... 23/30. =) for the theory paper and a rather ----10/15 for practical... haiz... but should be able to get A lah... I hope... i can't possibly use chem as my one science now?!

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