*yawns* i'm unable to get anybody to talk to me in the chatroom... i'm such a failure... =( maybe my name gives it away that i'm a little girl... i've met people who are 38 ... -.-" How OLD... everybody is like- u're such a small girl... ok, i am small... but do they HAVE to keep rubbing it in? haiz... anyway, this is so sianz.... let me see what i can talk about or do now... erm- download songs? anybody got any good songs to introduce to me here? i've downloaded all the songs i can think of. and i'm now taking down nice songs' titles each time i come across one on the radio. ok, i'm sick of the never be replaced... change song... wait arh... 
now, what should i do??? i'm so bored... i ought to be studying... elect lit needs to be read through even though it is passage based. anyway, for literature, i always just crap and i think i end up doing rather well~dadada has finished... 至少走得比你早 is a nice song~i heard it on the radio and fell in love with it... polly used to always hum it last year... i still remember... haha~ how come i remember har? anyway, she and chew yan are not going for my k-box thingy on my birthday. they er- can't make it... so, i'm arranging another day to go with them... i've never been to k-box with chew yan in such a small number before... anyway, i'm glad the 2 of them are good friends now =) polly will be nice to chew yan~ unlike the unkind people in her class... like *clears throat significantly* that person who is always telling chew yan about 竞之学长，向往学长，德峰学长and the one that concerns me quite a bit, 文峰哥哥。。。even though chew yan doesn't exactly show any sign of wanting to know... i mean, ... ... ... what's the point? is she trying to show how close she is to them? and then there's that very unfriendly girl... i don't like her attitude and she has a serious 妄想症。。。i don't think anybody would be so blind... haiz... ok, actually, i shouldn't say that... like they say, love is always blind.. ... who knows is someone is really THAT blind? *sighs* i pity the fella if he actually exists. oh no, actually, i am quite guilty of doing what i don't like to see in someone. do i really always seem like i'm trying to flaunt how on good terms i am with .... .... ? no right? ok... ... ... ... oh no! This is DISASTROUS! how can i be like people i don't like? this is horrible... i don't see any point in trying to defend myself... apparently, i really do that... Not that i realised it until now... I admit that i do talk a lot about 文峰哥哥。。。and the rest of the china scholars... ... .... ..... ok, this is terrible... but i msut say, i don't always talk about them because i'm trying to flaunt that i'm close to them, in which EVERYBODY knows i'm not. ok, maybe not everybody... most people know i'm not... and they are my seniors, so it is understandable that i show a certain amount of interest in them... 
ok, then why do i care when they are sick? -.-" huiyi and lin xiu were like, "关你什么事？" and i couldn't exactly put my finger on it.. =( in 文峰哥哥's case, at least there's a reason. 竞之学长's case was because i was helping my dearest senior... though i think i made matters worse... =( but i confirmed that he knows her name... which is a good sign... ok, who am i kidding again? it's too slow a development... chew yan was telling me not to pull the red string for her and him. because she likes a lot of people though she's most serious about him... true... she does like a lot of guys and keep saying blah blah blah is cute or handsome or whatever~ i still remember last time when she would tell me during choir, "2 of my favourite guys are standing together..." and i'll be like ... "huh?" and turn back... (we were in the avt then... it hadn't been torn down yet and we were facing mr yong at the area at the bottom and the guys were doing sectionals above at the area when u just entered through the door) and then i'll see the basses and notice that only 竞之学长and 文峰哥哥were standing where she was looking... ok, i didn't exactly care about them much in the past... because they NEVER talk to me... why should i talk to them if they don't talk to me? ok, that's besides the point...and then i'll show her this expression ====>>>>> -.-" 
haha~ i suddenly thought of the time that we played the angel and mortal game... that was one week before valentine's day... haha~ and i got ... *clears throat* and i told her and she was like, "what?!" and she was trying all practise after that to snatch the piece of star paper from me... i still remember that it's blue~ =) but too bad i lost the paper... i folded back into a star after that and left it on my table when i lost it... *sobs sadly* oh what the- it's just a bloody piece of paper...! what is wrong with me? anyway, obviously, she didn't succeed in getting it.. and she was threatening to go after.. erm- edwin. jokingly lah, of course~ that was after the chinese new year concert and she was like pretending to ignore me... because i wouldn't exchange with her for deborah... maybe i should have realised then because i like deborah too but i was simply refusing to change with her. i'm so BAD... MUHAHAHA~ops! that was like- such a give-away of my devillish personality... *blinks eyes innocently* haha~ i didn't exactly mean that~ =) but that seemed like ages ago... and now, 文峰is not just 文峰but 文峰哥哥。。。and silvia has given up on him. not that she was really serious about him in the first place... thank the heavens! or i'll probably a good friend =) haha~ nah~ silvia is very forgiving... anyway, i was like- still worrying afterwards that she'll kill me if she found out i actually liked her target. ok, ONE of her targets... haha~! =) if she's reading this, i'm dead... now, i regret telling her my blog address... i should have realised earlier... anyway, i still marvel at where i got the courage, or as i would prefer to call it, insanity to be so initiative and so 主动as to sms him first. i'd have to thank the doggie~ =) who is now with 韦利。。。='( *sobs and cries and wails* MY POOR, DARLING, DOGGIE~MY PRECIOUS, CUTE AND LOVABLE DEAR DOGGIE... ... i still feel very 心如刀割even after so long.. that was a very expensive soft toy, mind u! speaking of which, how come i didn't tell 文峰哥哥off that time?! i should have done that!!! haiz... it's been over rather long already though... 是啦，是啦！我很记仇啦！随便你。。。of course, i'm not going to start getting angry now.. it's over anyway... but- *tries to calm myself down with a LOT of effort* ok... ok...算了。大人不记小人过。。。~=) i can barely imagine the look on 文峰哥哥's face if he reads this...I think he will 断绝关系with me... haha~ 没有啦~我想太多了。。。haha~ 呵呵~taufik and rui en just came out... TAUFIK!!! he's so handsome!!! =) rui en is so pretty!!!＝） not that the song is very nice... reach out for the skies... I like taufik!!＝）oh no, do i sound very 花痴？i'm NOT! 真是俊男美女啊！！！singapore, happy birthday!!! =)taufik rocks!! wow! fireworks! 好美哦！！！ =） 太棒了！ wonder how much money they waste every year on the fireworks... ops... but they're really beautiful mah~
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