YoU weRe mY evErYtHinG...NoT anYmoRe

2005年12月11日星期日 --

YAY! my comp is back to normal!!!

Thank the heavens! my computer is currently workable!!!

er- except that for some reason, i can't log into my QQ... (.") but then again... never mind! and the best thing is, all my files are like, still there! whee~~!!!

BUT i still can't log into Qq... never mind... i guess i'll worry about that like, next time...

and another but... my dad says for now, we can't download anything... aaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh! ok, fine... i can deal with that... anything as long as i still have my photos and those of wenfeng gege...

still got one more but... i can't find the toolbar that allows me to type chinese... oh my gosh!!! (.") zen me ban?!

never mind... i shall try to endure this painful experience of not only not being able to type chinese, but also having to use hanyu pinyin which some people just read very weirdly... and take some time to figure out...

anyway, yar...

today... i went to Bi Shan Ting to take my scholarship of yes... a cheque of $200 sing... (duh! obviously it's SING) ok... $200 may not be a lot .... but still, it's money... but yet... i can't use it... (.") i mean, my mum always banks it into my bank account... (.") well, at least that's twice of what my ygr bro got... he only got $100... because he's primary school category mah~ i'm secondary... wah! imagine how much u get when u go to uni... or jc... *money sign stamped over both eyes and shimmering in the twilight* ooooh hooo~ =D money, money, money~! i love money!

ok, main reason for my sudden love for money.. i'm BROKE... ok, i have the $50 my mum gave me... but then... WHO in the right mind would "she de" in other words, bear to use it?! it's simply - unbearable... anyway, i already bought chew yan's present... from precious thoughts... what the hell is wrong with me...? anyway... that one later...

so, this morning, i woke up at like, 8 plus feeling terribly unpleasant, unhappy and unkind... because it was totally early and i like slept at 11pm... ok, not very late... but still, i was still very sleepy and didn't like to be disturbed from my beauty sleep... so, i was very grumpy and refused to eat breakfast which was like, a gross "luo mi fan" which is like, glutinous rice...(er- i think lah) anyway, it was like- yuck! i'm not eating that! I took a few forced bites and then wrapped it up again instantly... (.") bleah...if i'm not wrong, dad threw it away... ops... ok, pardon me for wasting food but i wasn't in the mood (".)

anyway, then, we bathed and got ready... dad managed to repair the comp! YES! and then, we headed to bi shan ting... where i was more immersed in my own world of me and my darling dearest mp3 player and the songs... we queued up to register and took a sticker... i pasted it on my clothes... didn't wear much today.. couldn't be bothered... anyway, mum was not taking photos... so ... never mind lah... it's not like i'm gonna meet people i know there... so, i was wearing this black top mixed with white and jeans... and i've discovered something today... i look horrible in jeans...when i was in chengdu, i thought it was because i was wearing thermal pants underneath my jeans and hence, i looked fat.. however, it's now proven that... i look... fat in jeans... duno if it's the jeans are too loose or what... (well, i bought them at one or two sizes larger so that i can wear the thermal pants underneath) and wada ya noe? the shop attendant is right... jeans that are too loose don't look good... (.") then again, no choice... if i had bought tighter jeans to look nicer in singapore, then i'd froze to death in chengdu as i won't be able to wear the thermal pants... (".)

and there was this uncle and his son whom we shared a table with... he's going to be sec 2 next year... and he's from RI... lucky lah... no o levels.. but it seems like their life has no freedom... seriously... they sleep at like, 2, 3 am... (which is like the time i sleep when i burn midnight oil the night before exams) and they have so many projects... and that boy has 3 ccas... oh my gosh... and sec 3... they take... 11 subjects! and look at the triple science class in our school struggling with 9 subjects... (.") ok... so...

I LOVE ANDERSON!!!

at least with anderson, i actually have a life!

ok, that sounds so horrible... sorry to all schools that have through train...(.") i didn't exactly mean it that way lah... but still... yar, i kinda did... (".)

bleah...

anyway, RJ would probably be the same... wonder if wenfeng gege will be able to cope with it... but then again, "chu zhong" was probably like that for wenfeng gege... i mean, the schools in china begin at like, 7.30 am plus and they end school at like, 4, 5pm in the afternoon. yes, and that's ending school... (.") what about getting home? i saw my host's xue jie reaching home at 7pm or so... gosh! imagine having to go to school the next day... how on earth do they manage their time?! must be why the PRC scholars are always scoring so well... their education system is like, training them to manage their time well lah!

and i can't believe that uncle said that my ygr bro is cute! CUTE?! my ygr bro is far from cute... the definition of cute ... would be something like.. a golden retriever puppy... not my brother lah! deng... i can't believe people these days... they're like- so blind...! i'm cuter than my brother, ok?!

ok... that was a bad example... and it was like- a subtext... marteen's gonna vomit...

muhahaha~ ok, only those who went for the chengdu trip know what i'm talking about...Marteen is SO CUTE! yes! i found the definition of cute! marteen is the definition of cute! he's mrs kamal's son, for ur info... and he's really CUTE.... too bad he doesn't like me very much... as in, he won't stick to me or anything.. aiyar... never mind...(.")

then, i went to guitar... my dad, sis, bro and my cousin and her father (my uncle) are going to watch THE SNOW QUEEN on ice...darn it...i can't go because i have to go for guitar...but thank god i went to guitar... because there's a rehearsal for the performance tomorrow... yes! i'm ACTUALLY performing...

but i think i'm gonna make a mess out of it.. (.") 19th december 8pm at Cristofori J8...must be one of the studios bah...

yes, there's a rehearsal TOMORROW... And i have choir sectionals early in the morning.. then i need to rush to dhoby ghuat to PS where i eat lunch with the chengdu family...ok, chengdu family sounds weird... ok... my "family" who went to chengdu along with me...we're watching the 4.30 movie of chicken little...

and then i have to rush back to J8 to go for the rehearsal which is like, 7.30 pm...

oh my gosh... (.") i feel like - it's gonna be so rushy...

and then, i still cannot get the 3-beat strumming right...! it's just- aaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhh! giving me lotsa headaches... (.") hate it... and the people in that grp are gona be like- super fast... (".) i told my teacher i'll be quitting next year and he was like "results is it?" and yes... obviously... 14... ! 14!!!!

ok, though 14 is not THAT bad... but still, IT'S BAD ENOUGH! i know wenfeng gege is just trying to console me... 14 hen bu cuo... as if... he got 7 and he's complaining why didn't he like, get 6?! and i'm like- twice of his marks... hell!!!

oh, and after guitar, i stepped out of cristofori and went into poh kim and saw the movie that i wanted to buy was like... $14++ and decided... never mind... for chew yan... i shall sacrifice my desire to watch it... i only brought $20 out mah... then i can't possibly find a $6 present for chew yan.. that'd be so horrible... and she'd say i "zhong se qing you" seeing as she saw the presents i gave wenfeng gege for his bdae... and was helping to carry the $73 basketball... (.") I'm SO sorry, everybody! It's not that i'm being biased- er- ok... FINE! i'm being biased... but u know, he's graduating... and i won't be seeing him much anymore... and he's my kor... fine, i shall stop trying to deny my heinous crime here... i plead... guilty... i'm so sorry... but because i bought him his presents... ok.. i wasn't that broke yet...then, my dearest darling honey cum sweetheart mp3 player... see why i love it so much?! it's 200++!!!! I feel so xin tong... *cries, wails, weeps and sobs*

but never mind, at least i have it to "xiang yi wei ming"~ haha~ =D but still... i think i spent about that sum of money on wenfeng gege's presents totalled up together... and a lot of time... and "xin si"...besides, i gave him so many presents... ok, i shall stop elaborating... or my friends will kill me again for being biased...

and now... i'm BROKE...

why am i drifting so far away from the topic?!

yes... i went out of poh kim... and precious thoughts... YES! that "sha ren fang huo" shop which sells all the kawaii des ka things and then the price is like... OH MY GOSH! YES... that shop... wonder what is wrong with me... i went inside with my guitar and was like looking around... i spotted this really cute dog! it's really cute lah! then... ann called me... and she asked me if i started informing my level about sectionals tomorrow.. and i was like- er- i was gonna do it today... and she was telling me not to inform em last minute.. i should inform em the day i get the message... oh... so... that was tuesday... ops... i didn't know mah! i always inform em one or 2 days before practice... ann says that it shouldn't be done last minute... and so, i had to call em now... but i couldn't because i was outside... and hp bills are SO ex... so, ann said, never mind, u can go back then call.. so, me being me... stupidly just grabbed that dog i thought was cute and paid for it. and then the person asked, do u want us to wrap it? i was like- (wow! that's gonna save me a lot of trouble!) so i asked her, "how much is it?" "u need to pay for the paper bag which is $1.25..." and my jaw dropped and i was like, (hell... i'm broke already) because the dog like... costs $14.90... yes... a $15 dog... and i stupidly bought it...because i was in a hurry to get home to inform my level about sectionals tomorrow.. and print out the attendance list now that level leaders (like myself) have to mark attendance...WHAT IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME?!

i hope chew yan doesn't loathe soft toys... at least it's not a keychain (.") for some reason, she has a phobia of keychains... bleah... but it's so cute lah...!

only er- i don't know how to wrap it now... (should have just let the person wrap and saved the trouble and time and brain-wrecking) but then again, i was really xin tong over the money... amen... my money... please rest in peace...

anyway, first thing i did when i got back, be a responsible level leader~ (as i always am... haha~) and i printed out the name list... and updated those who changed numbers... (.") =) and i backed-up my data on a cd-rw...

whatever it is... yar~ and now, thankfully, i have my data!!!

YES!

geeesh... my bro is SO annoying...

(.")

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