YoU weRe mY evErYtHinG...NoT anYmoRe

2006年1月3日星期二 --

Well, it's back to school again...

Yup, it's back to school... once again... and this year, i'm a sec 4...

haiz...

sec 4...

even the 1st day is so stressful... what with people reminding us that we're taking our o levels very soon and we have very little time...

(.")

Well, the day started out fine... even though i slept at 1 plus am...I didn't feel sleepy at all throughout the whole day..

oh... yar, except at about 3pm like that...

early morning, i woke up as usual, at 6am... got ready and everything... decided that it was pointless to try a new hairstyle... and i'd msot likely look horrendous anyway...

bleah...

so, went to school looking like me... only with more pimples... i believe i have gained weight though...

and the back gate is still closed... so my mum dropped me off at the bus stop opposite our front gate... which was where she used to drop me off before the front gate was closed... or when the front door of the school began renovation, when she dropped me at the back gate cause it was really very near to the temp block, where i used to be...

-.-"

oh well... anyway, it feels weird going back to Anderson Sec and realising that it's different from before... as in, walking from there...

then, so many people were gathered at the foyer and the main stairs...

so many memories... of places that used to be there... or things we did at the places... mostly all related to choir... and of course... indirectly... XXXXXXX

then, met jiaru, nicky and dev.. headed to the sec 4 block together... up till now i have trouble saying that i'm from 4-2...

haiz...

sec 4...

the agony, the horror, the pain, the trauma...

well, so i found my block... and our dear 4-2 is right at the 4th floor...

GREAT!

well, at least our lockers are no longer so far away... though i never really complained about that because it's an excuse for me to go to the temp block...(".) except the time i forgot to take my practical workbook out of the locker and i needed it for lab lesson.. had to run all the way there and back again... kinda far then...

fine, i shall stop talking about things like the temp block and my memories, cause they're making me kinda sad...

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then, well~ it was GREAT to see my friends!

this time, i mean it...

and guess what? yirong rebonded her hair!

and it looks so nice...

so, huiyi went crazy and wanted to play with her hair all the time... so, she has somehow managed to convince me to go for rebonding after chinese new year... and yes, i will be using my ang bao money..

*sobs* may my money rest in peace...

anyway, this year is so much better! for once...

i can save the money to buy stuff for myself!

me, me and me!

for like, 3 years... it's always been the person i like or my friends... their birthday presents always used to cost a bomb...that was the past...

this year...

haha~ i'm going to save money...

as in, really SAVE UP...

ok, fine... save up temporarily to spend them on stuff i want...

like i said, want... not need...

fine... so i like to enjoy life..? big deal...

...

nevertheless, my friends' presents' budget should be up-ped...

seeing as i got a pocket money raise of 50 cents...

u must be thinking, big deal... but 50 cents... 1 month and it turns into 10 dollars...woo hoo~

and $4 a day is enough... but if i stay back for choir...

in which are on mon, wed, fri...

or for block revision...

on tues and thurs...

whoo hoo~ that's ... about 38 dollars a week... er- did i make a mistake with the counting?

well, whatever..

anyway, it's a lot!

i won't say staying back is worth it...

but then, it's kinda quite worth it.. if i can save up...

it feels so FANTASTIC not racking my brains for things to buy for wenfeng...

yea~!

well... not that i'm going to forget about him cleanly...

i still miss him a lot... but i am trying not to think about that...

my focus is to get 7 points...

...

speaking of which, seems extremely impossible...

our new teachers... are new... as in, none of our sec 3 teachers seem to be following up our subjects...

i want mr lim!

wait... i DEMAND Mr lim!

i miss his nagging already...

our form teacher is mr chye... he is ok lah... but still... HAIZ... i miss mr lim. despite the fact that he's sometimes very mean to me...

and well, i don't really know who our other teachers are... as the pathetic timetable only contains their initials... what a lot of help...

oh, i know ms patricia goh will be teaching us chem!

YES!

she should be very good... though i still like mr leow most...

i also miss Mr alex tan... my physics teacher..

i'm gona flunk not only chem, and a maths next year... (which is NOT normal... i always manage to scrape through just barely...) but also physics...!!!

duno who our new physics teacher is... gona have physics tomorrow...

but the thing is, it can't be mr alex tan..

='(

he somehow makes physics understandable...

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i don't want to flunk physics....

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... ...

i feel so hopeless currently...

WHY?! oh, and my chye is teaching us maths...we're having a maths on mon to wed... e maths from thurs to fri...weird to divide it like that... should finish one topic first what, like mr lim...

...

better not compare anymore... i'll end up being more and more miserable..

i don't even know my banding..

but we're starting lessons tomorrow...

today was just orientation and talks... the whatever final lap talk was so ... speechless... i just didn't like it... boring... and i ended up talking to huiyi and we were discussing our rebonding plans... she's going to rebond with me... yea! someone to accompany me...

duno how much it costs...but u can't wash ur hair for 2-3 days after rebonding...and u can't tie it... and we're planning to do it on the 3rd day of new year...

and i need to go back to school next day...

huiyi said that audrey rebonded and she tied her hair very loosely at the nape of her neck... and it was ok...

... i suppose i could do that too...

not like i need to look pretty everyday... but i do look old when i tie my hair using that style...

no choice...

for beautiful hair!

meanwhile, i have time to save up too...!

seeing as choir is starting soon and so is block revision...

isn't our school very kiasu?

starting block revision so fast?

might as well start the clinic sessions... i seriously need them... forgot all my sec 3 stuff...

and o levels contain stuff learnt in BOTH sec 3 and 4...

...

haiz...

well, i don't really like the new principal.. but i can't help but agree that it's true that our discipline needs measuring up...

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we just don't know when is the right time to talk...

haiz...

and she came to talk to us when we were waiting at the stairs for ann to be done with talking to ... er- i don't know who actually... she was impressed that we were staying back to do our work... on the first day...

i thought she was being dumb... until i went to all the sec 4 classes to write a notice about choir pract tml on the whiteboard and realised that we are the only class with people who stayed back...

we didn't get much accomplished though...

i concluded that i study better at home...

...

seriously...

anyway, she wanted us to eat at the canteen and discouraged us from going over to the coffeeshop across the road cuz she's worried about our safety... the cars...

we've been crossing that same road for like... 3 years! surely we're not that dumb...

...

ok, fine... i'm assuming that things will be fine... and taking my safety for granted...

but anyway, it feels weird talking to her...

it was always nice to talk to mrs tan because she was really nice...

mrs poh tries to be nice too... oh wait, she is quite nice... but i just don't feel at ease talking to her...

i want our yearbook...i want to have another picture of wenfeng...

bleah...

ok, fine...

our handbook is now given out to us only if we have made the payment as a whole class...

darn them..

...

i really need the handbook to plan all my homework and stuff...

i seriously rely on it A LOT!

And i like to draw in it...

though there's nothing to draw this year... well.... but i need it!

hope my class all pays for it tomorrow...

i already payed for my locker but yet, on thursday, i need to go and queue to get the higher ones... darn it...

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hate it... SO MUCH...

haiz...

at least i don't have to carry so much money around all the time...

aaarrrrgggggghhhhhhh.....

but still... ='(

i miss wenfeng...

haiz...

try not to think about it...

should i really go RJC?

ann says RJ seems bad... her elder bro seemed to change after he went there...attitude problem...

i hope not...

haiz..

but i should not build my dreams based on what others want...

but the thing is, i don't know what i want... i only know that i want to get 7 points... what a great lot of help that is...

i'm a person with no goal or purpose in life...

how pathetic...

haiz... choir tomorrow...

gotta start my drilling... must study really hard everyday...

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