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2006年2月2日星期四 --

Haiz... duno wat 2 get 4 valentine's day prezzies...

O.O haiz... wat can i gif leh?

well, this year i'm only giving those i'm close to...that'd naturally be huiyi, hweeli, linxiu, yirong and ann...yanyan...hm... still got?!

haha~ i marvel at how little people i'm really close to...

6 only...

=) then again, on the other hand, i can save money. and get them better presents...

ok, that's so biased...

(".)

and... i've decided to give my kor something.

but then...

once again, i don't know what to get him.

by the way, i've decided to get him basketball shoes for his birthday this year... FINE... i know it's like- so far away. but ... yar... still, it's never too early to plan when it's his present.

=P bleah...

yirong has said chocolates. but it's so common. guess it's good this way. if it were really really special, it'd just suggest that i like him.

which is actually true. but i don't think i want him to know that i still like him. especially since he's starting to treat me like his "mei" more and more...

and it's probably the best he can treat me. so, i shall be contented... er... i am like, so deceiving myself. anyway, i am going to pray fervently that he doesn't like anybody after he went to JC... *prays fervently*

so... better get him chocolates. in case he asks me, "isn't this valentine's day? for lovers?" and i'd be stunned and attempt to answer, "because u're my kor mah... and i'm giving all my closer friends. so, naturally i'd give u..." and he'd say "oh~" and god knows if he believes. and maybe he'd ask "do u really treat me as ur kor only?" and i'd be too dumbstruck...

haha~ i think too much. according to how much i know him, he'd just say oh~ and then not ask whether i still like him even though he thinks this way...

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never mind...

wei hao has said that he'd expect a wrist band. that's ok too... wanted to get him that last valentine's day... (".) yar, the fateful valentine's day last year...

gosh... it's so ... dramatic.

anyway, yar... so now i'm not very sure.

but a wristband is normal too...

it's not like i'm giving him a box with 999 stars and 3 soap roses in the middle...

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that is very not normal...

haiz.. i duno. and how the hell am i going to pass it to him?!

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mail it?

(".) hm...

i have no idea at all... and after that time he didn't receive my new year card... i don't think i wana take the risk.

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so how?!

i know. i shall pay someone to go and pass it to him...

ok, that's the dumbest idea anyone can come up with. firstly... who? and secondly, i don't even know what time his lessons end...

and i don't know anybody in RJC who knows him...

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bleah...

let me worry about that next time.

today, i went to amk central to buy the box from the confectionary. and the wrapping paper at popular. was in a dilemna. then, sms-ed chew yan to say that there was no lime green wrapping paper. and she called me. she was at ntuc so she came to help me select a nice one. i am so not confident of my tastes nowadays...

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she chose this very cute and nice wrapper. so i bought it. and then, she was thinking of putting lollipops inside the box. so, we asked the price. and it was 35 cents for 1. chupa chups. =)

and so, it was kinda ex. decided to go elsewhere to look for cheaper ones. went to guardian. it's not being sold there. so,we went to a shop very near mos burger. and 1 lollipop is ... 50 cents!

god, that's so insane!

we went to mos burger. where i ate. yanyan already had lunch.

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it's so weird when u go out with someone and he/she is not eating. and u're the only one eating. and u're sitting opposite the person... and he/she will of course tend to look rather bored.

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anyway, after that we went to popular to buy the lollipops. =) 50 cents... it's an outrage!

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then we walked to amk mrt station. where we separated and i met jinjun. got off at J8. he was going to esplanade library. (".) gosh... decided to walk around j8 and see what i can buy for valentine's day gifts... and... got tired. heavy bag.

called mum. she was sleeping. so, i had to walk to the bus-stop. at the road junction, i was reluctant to walk to the bus stop outside RI. because the RJ people were streaming out at that time. so, i crossed the road to go to another bus stop. and i met weili... and a guy. the same guy i saw her with last time. hm... (".) she recognised me, obviously. and we sort of greeted each other by smiling. and just as i was walking to the bus-stop... some distance away. my 410 drove past me to the RI bus stop. Aaaaaahhhhhh!

it happens EVERYTIME i decide not to board the bus at the bus-stop outside RI...

fine, heaven. next time i shall go to the bus stop outside RI...

(".)

i'm so unlucky man...

anyway, not planning to take evening nap today.

went to read yanyan's blog. cause she mentioned it at mos burger. and... i don't really get it... anyway, it's best not to think too much. u'd be happier.

before i ever thought "i must be as clever as my kor. 不然，我就佩不上他了" i've been so unhappy and stressed up. and depressed, not to mention. i think to myself, "why am i so stupid? why can't i be as smart as him..." and... naturally, it affect me adversely... and i end up breaking down.

so, it's best not to think so much. though maybe yanyan's case is different. but still, alot of things are self-inflicted. subconsciously...

gota go wrap the box for polly... wana make it as nice as possible =)

haiz... there's a picture discusion presentation tomorrow. and my group has kindly asked me to do it. ridicule myself in front of the whole band 1. and miss heng... who looks extremely intimidating...

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and i can't make people laugh. like ananda. however u spell his name.

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i'll just stutter and have nothing to say.

because there is nothing to say...

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i'm going to fail picture discussion.

and we have to write a speech.

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god!

english is the most torturous subject in the universe... ops, that's so not right.. it's the most torturous subject after maths and chem... (".)

now, that is totally apt. ^^

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