YoU weRe mY evErYtHinG...NoT anYmoRe

2006年2月6日星期一 --

Hi~

My mum has told me that it has been announced that... o level results will be released this friday!

yippee~~

that means that i'd be able to pass 文峰哥哥his valentine's day gift.. i'm getting adidas wrist band.. i think... preferably, i'd get one white and one black. because i saw him wearing a black wristband once during cross country last year. =) and his favourite colour is white~

yesterday, yanyan gave me some counselling. she feels that i shouldn't feel guilty for feeling something for ** because he reminds me of 文峰哥哥... because i'm not 文峰哥哥's stead. i don't belong to him. and... ** is not my stead currently. if i feel guilty, i'm just probably unwilling to let go or... just treat liking him as a responsibility...

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no, liking 文峰哥哥is not a responsibility. it's more of a habit. and... i feel that i have no right to say that i love him. so i shan't say so. =) and 文峰哥哥is truly irreplaceable. =P

他真的是无可取代的。。。(".)

because before he came into my life....

i was suffering from depression. seriously speaking. when i was in sec 1 and 2... i'd comtemplate suicide very often at the smallest of things. and the person whom i liked then made matters worse. until i met 文峰哥哥... sure, he may not like me as a girlfriend... but at least he likes me as a 妹... though huiyi says that 文峰哥哥has a 妹to 摆美 only...

haha~ i agree... =P

no lah... i'm very grateful to him. for accepting me as a 妹... because he really gave me a lot of happiness and sense of fulfilment. and miraculously, depression left me for good...

i'd say that it's all his 功劳~ haha~

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fine, i'm so lame...

so, because he is my kor, i will get him a valentine's day gift. since i'm getting my friends' ones. and for my "family" too... =)

and i'll pass it to him on friday. early.

it feels weird. knowing that i'll see him this friday. 4 more days...

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he'll definitely come back to take his results. i missed him so much in his absence. absence truly makes the heart grow fonder.

hm....

he agreed to take a photo with me the next time he came back to school during CCA open house. so, i guess it would naturally mean this firday, right?

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duno.

who knows if he'll disappoint me again? it's become his newfound hobby. 敷衍ing me and making me more upset than when he didn't agree to my request in the first place...

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anyway, friday. there's choir.

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haiz...

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duno. maybe miss lim will come. maybe not. she's really tired of us. tired of watching us do sectionals... she's so disappointed in us she's given up hope completely.

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i don't think it'd be wise to ask 文峰哥哥to come back and watch us getting scolded.

but then, if he comes back, we can just go off after that and take the neoprint. i don't even know if he agreed to take neoprint or just a photo... (".)

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haiz..

anyway, as long as i wear the ring, i will be waiting for 文峰哥哥... no matter how long i have to wait. i will wait... and try my best to watch over him. though i most probably come in this 1 year...

today's e maths test on circle properties. was ... bleahish... haiz... i have never ever been good at maths and science. well.. haiz...

it's not like i can get in through DSA. because.. i don't think i want to continue choir. because i feel so inferior. i can't read music. so... i can't learn the songs or revise the songs by myself. i have to memorise... and hence, i take quite a long time to memorise a whole song completely.

haiz...

no choice. i'm musically declined.

forget it. forget about DSA.

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HAIZ...

never mind. anyway, oh no! i haven't done my treatment!

and i haven't bought facial masks... and the valentine's day gifts of course...

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aaaahhhhhh! i have to do everything before friday.

haiz...

so troublesome...

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never mind.

i'm worried about my chinese. Please... let me get an A1....

and let 文峰哥哥pass english. and let his L1R5 be 6. so he can go to RJC still and remain in the Raffles hostel.

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ok, fine, i'm so lame.

i just don't want to go search for his new hostel's address.. anyway, i have a chance of meeting him when i go home if he lives in raffles boarding school still...

anyway, the main thing i'm kinda mad about is... the incident in yanyan's blog. this "anon" person... is so rude and insulting. i couldn't stand her/him so much that i tagged in yanyan's blog... "To anon: Please watch ur mouth. like anybody wants to know u. Get a life. nobody is perfect. and stop being so bo liao. don't think u're so great. please have some respect for others." i think i'm gona kana bomb by this anon person soon.

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never mind...

it's true.

it's indecent and rude to write terrible remarks about others... please lorh. get a life. i feel so angry for yanyan. this is so unfair to her. not like she did anything wrong or stole her/ his stead. please lah! even if she did... u have no right to talk of someone like that. u're not that great, ok?!

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people nowadays....

no respect for others.

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