YoU weRe mY evErYtHinG...NoT anYmoRe

2006年2月19日星期日 --

I realised my dream today

Well, if i remember correctly, the last time i went out with wenfeng was the 22nd of october last year. N today is the 19th of february 2006...

Oh, firstly, i want to apologise. because if i'm not wrong, i promised photos... n ... today, as i was about to leave the house, i found my bag a tad too bulky. so.. i took the digital cam out. because my hp, wallet and waterbottle are indispensable... (".)

so.. haha~ sorry hor...

well, let's start with last night. or rather, yesterday. i like, spent the whole day fretting and preparing. n that facial mask. haha~ =X it's supposed to help skin with pimples. n it's quite ok lah...n those who know me will know that i'm.. very hairy... =X

seriously... well, so, i spent about 3 hrs in the bathroom shaving... bleah... =X

den... i decided to go to out to get a new top. because i was sick of all my tops. n i bought this black and white one with a bit of yellow. i kinda like it. and there was another one that's more.. revealing. and my sister was telling me, "u're not a hooker lorh!" ...

oh god...

it's not THAT revealing, ok?!

...

anyway, decided against wearing it. since she used such an emotive word...

(".)

and i spent the whole of last night... not really sleeping... i couldn't get to sleep... (".) haiz.. then i slept a bit. before i woke up naturally. and went "shit... is it 9am already?!" and i winced and winced at the clock... cause it was completely dark and i'm almost blind without my spectacles... later, i decided not to take any risks so i got down from my bed and grabbed my watch and looked at the time. 2 plus am.

what the-

i climbed back up and tried to sleep. the air-conditioner has turned off by itself.. (timer) and it was kinda hot and stuffy. then i fell asleep... then i woke up yet again! at around 4 plus.

it was extremely sickening. so, i tried to sleep again. and then i woke up at 5 plus. then at 6 plus again. at around 7, my mother, father and brother were already up. so, i decided that i shan't be so stupid anymore and got up, washed up and took a bath.

i ate breakfast then washed my face before i started applying make-up. decided to take yanyan's advice and use the eyelash clamp thingy... seriously, i duno see the big difference... but the point is. i barely have any eyelashes to apply mascara on anyway... (".)

then, i was spending quite some time on my hair. duno wat hairstyle to tie. decided to stick to half-tie anyway. though i know he's seen me in half-tie countless times already...

we agreed to meet at 11am. so... i really spent 4 hours preparing. sorely preparing. ok, i did spent quite a lota time singing. my mum bought us a portable speaker. so i plugged it to my mp3 player. yay! finally! listening to songs on my mp3 player for mroe than 30 minutes without hurting my ears!

and then.. at 10am i left e hse. dad drove me to bishan mrt. i topped up $10 for my card then took the train to marina bay. changed to e green line... and alighted at bugis. i reached bugis at about 10.30am. 30 minutes earlier.

n i found out to my utter horror that there weren't any seats in bugis. no seats outside. and no seats at the train area. ok, on 2nd thoughts there must be seats in the mrt there. i must be blind. gosh...

so... i stood there for about 20 plus plus minutes listening to my mp3 player.

n...

well, it's quite obvious the effect wenfeng has on me. like huiyi said, i'm happy because of him. i cry because of him. my world seems to revolve around him... so...

well, given the times he promised me and yet didn't keep his word...

i was feeling extremely uneasy. and nervous...

so nervous my hands were freezing. and the 1st thing i did was to sms linxiu. she was so nice and encouraging. i was on the brink of tears... which is terrible. because though my mascara is waterproof... the consequences would be ... unsightly...

and i was like telling lin xiu "i'm going to cry... and ruin my mascara. i'll look horrible..." and she was saying "er... although i don't know what u're talking about... jia you! u can do it!" and she was saying something like i am the strongest person she has seen when it comes to this sort of thing... i think she means... being so... thick-skinned... haha~ ok, i know what she means lah...

seriously, i duno why i am so 主动... i used to be very very shy about these sort of things...

and then... she told me she'd always be there for me...

=)

so heartwarming! love all my best friends!

^^

and then, each time the train to pasir ris arrived, i'd be looking at the crowd. i was actually wondering if i could spot him. though i really shouldn't doubt myself. i've never failed before...

at around 10.50 plus, when the train arrived, i was once again looking around. and ...

i really think too highly of myself. i had to wait to 文峰哥哥to come within a very small distance of me to realise that he's already here.

and i instantly began to keep my mp3 player. so, we walked out of the mrt station. hm... he's not changed at all, actually. except that he wasn't wearing his spectacles. i didn't know what to say... so i was very quiet... and we took the escalator to bugis square. n he was saying that he's hungry and asked if we could eat first. obviously i agreed lah... den we were at B1... looking at the food stalls... n he was asking me if i mind going to the foodcourt. what the- do i look like a 千金大小姐to him?!

obviously i don't... and then he still carried on walking. so i asked him “你干嘛啊？” and he was saying that he's seeing what else there is to eat. he soon decided that the food there didn't catch his eye. so, we went inside the food court. and he bought from the stall i went to with yanyan that time we went out. what a coincidence. he bought 牛肉铁板烧... and it looks nice. he asked if i wanted to eat. and i didn't want to. he asked if i had breakfast. and i nodded. obviously he hadn't had breakfast... so, i stood there waiting for his food to be done. and we weren't talking... so.. it was very weird. i looked at him and realised that he's wearing nike air sport shoes... n i started to feel 自卑... why is he so TALL?!

then... because i was sorta standing in the way... this auntie was pushing this trolley and she accidentally brushed against my oh-so-white shoes... (".) and she apologised profusely. and i was totally... "oh...没关系" because... ok lah, let me be fair here. i'm standing quite far from wenfeng. so i don't think he saw. because he didn't look in the least bit concerned. and it was quite disturbing... and saddening. though i really think that he didn't see lah. maybe i shouldn't have stood so far away.

later his food came and we sat down.it was a 4-seater table. and he sat at the right seat. i sat at the left seat, diagonally opposite him. he asked me if i'm really always so quiet. and i didn't know how to answer. he moved his food to the seat right in front of me. n... this pleased me a little. n i forgot about the incident earlier on.

so... what else can i say? he ate lorh.. (".) n he asked me if i wanted to eat. and i shook my head. and he asked if i wanted to drink and i shook my head again. so... i spent the time watching him eat.

...

ok, that sounded so weird.

actually it's quite interesting. then, he decided against using fork and spoon so he went to the stall to get chopsticks. wa... so traditional. then he asked me what utensils i use. so i said i use fork and spoon. He asked why and i answered because chopsticks were too traditonal. I felt rather guilty. because i couldn't make out what he was saying at times. and i'd ask him to repeat it. though he didn't look irritated... i think he's used to it by now. who asked him! talk so fast...

...(".)

ok, i shan't blame people for my own stupidity n deafness...

=X

so... i just watched him eat. and he asked me how come i don't talk de... so i told him that i thought that we shouldn't talk when we eat. and he was telling me that he isn't like that. ok...

n he asked me if it's very 无聊 to watch him eat. and i said 还好啊~

he was telling me that the dish is nice. and i found it weird that he was taking out all the little chilli slices. because he's from chengdu... and who doesn't know that sichuan people are great at eating spicy food...

so i asked him, 你不吃辣的meh?

n i realised later that i said meh... which wasn't a chinese word... =X bleah...

and he said 我不吃辣的...

ER...

but then he was eating the spicy thingy they put at the side of the dish. the one in which i tried one slice and instantly began to shout 辣！ tat time i ate it... with yanyan... and kept gluping water. what the- how can he say he doesn't take spicy food?! he asked me if it's 四川泡菜... and i nodded... i duno mah...

and he said that 四川泡菜isn't spicy... which left me totally speechless... HELLO!

ok, obviously our definition of spicy is very different. and i instantly protested that it's very spicy. n he said 不会啊~i explained that 我不会吃辣...and hence, our definition of spicy is very different.

n then he started eating the chilli slices.

so much for not taking spicy food.... (".)

then... he suddenly stopped eating and he just looked at me. i looked back at him. and i was wondering what the... we looked at each other for quite a long time. before i started to feel very shy and asked 你干吗？n he answered...我要看你要多久开口讲话。。。

and so... he finished eating... though he seriously eats very fast. and the way he holds the chopsticks is so dexterous... seriously... he asked me if i have tissue paper. and i took it out. he thanked me and it was then that i realised that i'm very inobservant. because it was only then that i realise that he doesn't have a bag with him. ok... rich people only need their wallet with them. everything will be settled with their wallet in hand...

then he said, 走吧~and so we left the food court. he asked me what we were going to do now. and i replied, 拍大头贴。。。n he started looking very "HUH?!" and he was acting like he was going to die from taking a neoprint. and i was 撒娇ing and asking, 你那么讨厌照相吗？ n he said 是啊~so i asked 为什么？ n he replied, 因为我长得太丑了。。。不想看到自己。。。er- that's so not a good reason. and he asked me where watches are being sold here. and i didn't know so i said that we could check the directory. i was going to go up the escalator at the delifrance there. but he was going to the escalator to seiyu. so... obviously i just followed. so much for not knowing the way...

and so we went up 1 flr... to seiyu. and we went to the watch section. he was looking at the swatch watches. he asked me to help him ask the sales person whether the Swatch limited edition 2005 valentine's day watch is still available... n i instantly thought "is he getting it for his girlfriend?" but i went to ask anyway. and it turned out that it's out of stock. n may only be available next month. and i went to wenfeng to tell him and he was totally shocked. to put it lightly. and he was asking me 2005年的诶！

n i nodded and said that it's sold out... he began looking at the 2006 watches. they all seem to be valentine's special too... and seriously, i don't think they look nice. and they're like, $70 to $100 plus... so ex... and i was totally cynical. they seem extremely cheap to wenfeng...

and it was very very shocking...

then he said that he won't know what to buy if that's the case. because there were many varieties. he said that he's buying for his friend. i was rather suspicious of it. so i asked him why can't his friend buy it himself? and he said that his friend is in china. so i asked 中国没有卖吗？

and he said, 有啊，他（她）(duno if guy or girl) 想找机会接近我吧~

n i was totally... DENG...

oh gosh...

wenfeng can be hweeli's 接班人

so i haughtily replied, 哇！你好受欢迎哦！

we went to the top floor. because i asked yanyan last nite. and she said e neoprint shop is on the top floor. so... i was lost. like i said, i duno how to get out of seiyu one...so i confessed this to wenfeng. and he was saying that he doesn't know. i was protesting that i'm a 路痴what...

so, i asked e sales assistant there. "excuse me, but how do u get out of seiyu?"

so stupid! 啊啊啊啊啊啊！

then she pointed it out to me. and we went out of seiyu. and we were just walking past kinokuniya. and this comic book shop. wenfeng commented that the comics inside are so large in number. i asked him if he wanted to go in and he said no...

then i saw the directory! and i went to check it out. before i could even look at it, (i barely glanced at it) before i realised that wenfeng didn't follow me. so i went back and saw him standing there waiting. we continued walking. i was saying 我要去查那店在哪里...

and he said, 不用了。。。我知道在哪里...

and i was rather stunned. 你怎么会知道？你有来过吗？

n we were there already. before the neoprint shop. and wenfeng was over-reacting again. ok, maybe i think he's over reacting.. but to him he's not... because he really hates to take photos. and he was saying 你叫我去死了算了。。。。

n i was protesting... because i didn't want to let him off anymore... n i started撒娇ing, saying 诶，你又想溜哦？

so... he went inside with me. and we saw this machine that is also at heeren de. he began looking around at the photos on display on the machines and began to complain again. haiz...

i asked him, 你还好吧？ n he replied, 恩，快点吧。。。

n i went to change the money. $10 only first. so... i asked him to pick a machine. and he was saying 我不会，你选吧...and i asked him if he wanted neocard of neoprint... and he said 随便啦...he's dying to get out of there... so, i decided on neoprint. and we looked around. and we went into the machine that yanyan n i took neoprint in last time we came here. and i was saying that this is quite nice. we went to look at another. because it's background is black. and i was afraid that it'd affect the outcome. so... wenfeng said let's change then. he pointed to the one available in heeren de... and asked me 那个呢？

n i instantly said, 不要，我不喜欢那个。。。

so... we looked around. and i realised that for all of em, the screen is so small... so, we went back to the first one. and wenfeng was really getting restless.. he was saying 乘我还没有改变主意快点选吧!

and i was in a dilemna. so i decided that shall be it. and he asked, 你确定吗？and i replied, 恩。。。

so we went inside. n i put my bag down. i was reminded of the time i left the basketball i was giving to him here. obviously i found it lah. or i'd kill myself.

and he was saying that he's going to die soon. i've learnt the skill of ignoring him when he does that~ haha~ =X i'm so bad...

then i started putting one coin in. and nothing happened. so i put another in. and still nothing happened. wenfeng was standing near me so he came to my rescue. and he pressed the coin reject button. one coin came out. another was stuck. he said 只能救一个了...and i was frowning. so i tried to stuff another coin in to push the one stuck inside. and... it's still stuck! so wenfeng took the coin from me and pressed the button. and the coin stuck came out. i was looking at this in awe, and saying 你好pro 哦！

haha~ really mah...

so, i slotted the rest of the coins in as normal. and he noticed that it costs $9... and he commented that it's very ex...then after i finished slotting in all 9 coins, i began to choose the things. because its' in jap, i'm very very dumb... and was in a loss... and so i did it any old how.

and so we begun posing. haha~ u'd laugh like hell if u saw us. i can't believe wenfeng. at first, we wasted the 1st shot... because he wasn't looking at the camera. and he only started to just stand there during the 2nd shot onwards. and... he's really too tall... so... even though we were standing very very behind... such that we touched the background that would come down, u still can't see the whole of his head. haha~ n he was saying 天啊，太高的人不能拍大头贴...and i was laughing like hell... because it was so spastic. so i suggested that he squat a bit. and after a few shots, he said that we were too far from the camera, so we moved in front. and it was totally funny because he doesn't really get the hang of how the neoprint machine works. and there was this shot we took which shows... me laughing and him squatting down on the ground. it was so FUNNY! and there was this shot in which we were posing and he suddenly started to talk and the camera captured it. i think it's one of the shots i chose to print out... (".)

haha~ anyway, it was the funniest experience i had with regards to taking neoprints...haha~ then he asked 什么时候完啊？n i pointed to the time at the top and said 时间完咯~n he asked, 那现在就一直狂照吗？i didn't know how to reply. haha~

it wasn't as bad as i expected.. er... excluding those horrible shots.. but they were so funny... seriously. and i was totally noisy already so it wasn't as awkward and quiet as earlier on. i thought it'd be really really awkward... seeing as afterall it's like 孤男寡女...

but it was much better than i thought... at least we didn't stand like a mile apart. imagine how horrible that'd look. i was quite 主动...i'd stand nearer to him. n my sister noticed that i was leaning on him in one of the neoprints we took. actually i leant on him in a few other shots too. he wanted to stand on my right. because he said that his hair is very messy...(".) then the shooting ended. and we were waiting for the thing to load to go out and decorate. the time was free...

no, i meant...

THANK GOD the time was free...

he was saying, 你自己弄吧~我回家了。。。

n i began to 撒娇again... =X

being a guy... *rolls eyeballs* he was unwilling to decorate. so i had to decorate myself. =(

though i don't need him to decorate on 2nd thoughts... *shudders*

i picked only the nicer shots to decorate. because i was afraid that there wasn't time. though the time was free, it'd start timing after a certain time. the one with him not looking at the cam was totally out. so was the one of me laughing as he didn't want to stand up.

and i started on one first. and i signed my name. i gave him the pen to sign his name. and he wrote "CWF (his initials) on his face...

omg...

HAIZ...

so i instantly began to erase it and asked him to do it properly. i asked him what colour he wanted the font to be. and he said. black. so i chose black. and when i handed the pen back to him, he began colouring the whole of his face so that it was covered. i started protesting and pressed run-do all accidentally.. so i had to decorate that particular one all over again... then, i gave up all hopes of him decorating and told him, 你不要动那个笔！ and i chose some shots and began decorating. wenfeng was asking me why i am not choosing the shot of me laughing n him refusing to stand up... n i said 照的那么差！there was this shot he liked quite a lot and said 照的很好看~

when he saw me decorating it, he asked me 干吗要把它弄得那么复杂？i replied that it wasn't 复杂at all... without decorations, the neoprints look plain... (".) then he picked another shot and was going to disfigure it again.

HAIZ

i didn't see that it was a shot that was badly taken. so i practically shouted 不要！！！

n wenfeng was telling me, ssshh 你不要喊那么大声，人家听了会以为我在对你做什么...and i was laughing like mad... what the- who'd think so far lah... i didn't even think about that...

(".)

it came to my realisation later that it was a bad shot. so i wasn't going to take it later anyway. so i let him play with it. and i watched him colour the whole shot. it was so funny...i've never seen anybody decorating like that... haha~

so, i finished decorating. and i showed him the 4 shots i was going to take. he didn't have much comments. i was wondering where the "done" button was. and wenfeng pointed it out to me.

so... later, we waited for it to come out after i had chosen the arrangement. wenfeng asked me why i picked them to be so tiny... and i said if they were so huge, i wouldn't have anywhere to paste them... and wenfeng was saying that he doesn't want it and he was saying 拜托你不要给我。。。

n i said 我不管，你一定要拿！

the neoprint came out. n i went to cut it into half. and i stuffed it in his hands. he was refusing to take it. he said 那我送给你好了，你的情人节礼物...

i was totally, 不要，我不要。。。你给我收好来！

we left the neoprint shop with him feeling that it's too small... so our eyes look very tiny. on 2nd thoughts, he has a point.

bleah..

never mind. oh yar, i told hweeli i was going to get him to take 5. but ... let's not torture my kor... =)

he told me that he had something on later, so i asked him 你几点走？

and he replied 现在...

so i nodded. i asked him where he was going...he replied that he was going to bishan. i was totally... huh?! if he had told me, i'd have just made do with going to J8 to take the neoprint...

so we went downstairs. at the escalator, i asked him, 你迟到了吗？n i said it very badly, so it sounded like 你吃到了吗？n he was making fun of me. Fine... my chinese is not as good as his... (.") and at the 1st floor, we went into the wallet shop. he was looking at the wallets. actually, his wallet is very nice le... duno why he wants to change it...(".)

decided not to buy it later. the "life sucks" pencilbox caught his eye and he said that it's cool. he said that he'd buy it. i asked 为什么？and he answered 因为life sucks...

哈哈~

anyway, it was the first time i thought that he sounded good when he spoke english..

er...

ops... =P

sorry

...

i didn't mean it that way lah...

(".)

yar... so... we left the wallet shop and passed by the fountain. then we went back to the mrt station. i asked him if his friend would be angry if he was late. he said that 反正已经迟到了...and i was feeling totally guilty. so i said, 那我们走快几步...he said, 迟到了也可以慢慢走的。。。 i asked, 你朋友不会生气吗？and he said, 别说我的朋友了，这整楼的人都会。。。 n so i walked much faster than the speed we always walk at when we go out together because it was like... it's my fault. later he asked me 你走那么快干吗？and i said 你已经迟到了诶。。。he said 就是迟到了才走慢一点。。i was totally... deng...

so, we waited for the train. and he kept sms-ing. now i know how yanyan feels...

i'm so sorry, i shan't do that anymore whenever i go out with anybody...!

...

and i was like pouting.he commented that he was dressed like a primary school kid today. and i was saying 还好啊~he took the neoprint out and looked at it and said that he looked very 丑...and i was insisting that it wasn't...he said 我好想死啊...

没那么严重吧？

so we went inside the train. i asked him where he was going. as in the JC... and he said he's going back to china. he's still at it lorh! and i was quite angry because he kept 耍ing me...

and so when we were on the train back to bishan, we leant against the door that would not open. and he was smsing. i was quiet and feeling rather upset. it's was like, 12 plus only. then i started to ignore him because he kept lying to me. he was asking me if dhoby ghuat has already passed. and i said yar... we were at somerset then. and he said, he forgot to alight. and i was like, huh?! so i said, 那你下一站下去咯~

and he said that he didn't want to. he'd take this train to jurong east and then change to the green line then take back to dhoby ghuat. i was like, huh?! it's such a waste of time... why doesn't he just cross the platform and take the train back? and he said... 我很懒啊~ and i was saying 先生，那么短的距离而已诶！n he said 好远哦...

then i realised that once again he was bluffing me. so i started pouting. and not talking.

for some weird reason, he found it funny. he asked me 你怎么了？不讲话？你是不多话还是看到我就不想讲话了？n i replied , 没有啊~我生气嘛...

n then he kept looking up from his hp at me and smiling and half laughing. i asked him 你干吗啊？

n he replied, 我觉得很好笑啊~

n i didn't see what was so funny. he asked 为什么生气啊？

n i replied, 你一直耍我啊...

so... throughout the train journey, i was really quiet... n had my arms folded in front of me. n was pouting. he started laughing again, and i asked him 又怎么了？he said 你看起来很不爽。。。

i didn't reply to that... later he began laughing again. i asked 有那么好笑吗？he said, 你看起来很好笑...

hello! i'm angry leh!

ok, not very angry... i was showing that i'm a little angry. but still... how can that be funny? great... my anger is so not impactful...

so, we arrived at bishan and we alighted. he asked me 为什么你的家在bishan 要去到bugis啊？n i said, 因为我叫我随便选啊~所以我把手指放在directory上面，关眼睛，乱动手指，看开眼睛时在哪里就去那里咯~obviously i was lying.

he said, 唉。。。花了我九毛。。。

n i was still slightly angry, so i very haughtily replied, 我是故意的啊~好自豪哦！

n wenfeng's look was so funny... so i began laughing...

then he asked me which way i was going...he said that he's returning to the hostel for lunch. and asked me what about me, to j8 or where? i said that i was going home. and when we came to 7-eleven, he asked me if i'm going to the bus-stop at the opposite direction from where he was going. and i said 没有啊~你很想打发我走，是吗?你很讨厌我啊？fine...

n he was saying 没有啊，我以为你走那里的。。。

so i walked with him to RI and the bus-stop outside... i asked him which JC he's going. seriously. n he was saying YJ, inova... all the ... ERM JCs... and i was saying 你六分诶！n he said 没有啊~i said, 扣了四分是六分啊~i asked why he didn't want to go to VJC... and he said it's his 1st choice...

finally he stopped 耍ing me...

hope he gets in. though he'd most probably have to move then.. ='( i enjoy walking with him to the bus-stop.... guess today would be the last time...

then we crossed the traffic lights. while waiting for the green man to light up, he took the neoprint out of his wallet and said that it was my valentine's day gift. i said that i didn't want it. and told him to keep it, saying 我不管...then... he said 你不要我就拿去丢掉。。。你只有两个选择。。。i said, 我两个都不要。he replied, 不决定吗？不决定我就丢了...n i was looking pouty again. so he stopped it. "我不管，你一定要留着。。。" as we were walking to bus stop at the stretch outside RI... he looked like he was uncomfortable. i asked him 你还好吧？n he said 眼睛很痛...i was extremely worried, 为什么？那你等会儿还要出去？！he said he'd go back to eat, rest a while then go out again. i asked him where his spectacles were, and he said 不见了~i was 为什么？！again... and he said 不知道，睡觉后起来就不见了。。。i was rather shocked. 你睡觉时戴眼镜的啊？！n he nodded. duno if he 耍ing me... then... er- i forgot what he said. but i asked 为什么。。。n he said 这哪有为什么的啊？你怎么一直问为什么啊？

i was about to answer when we noticed that 410 had arrived at the bus-stop. he said, 诶。。。i ran over to the bus-stop. luckily, someone was alighting, so the bus was still there... i stood at the front door till the driver noticed me and opened the doors. i got up, tapped my ez-link card and then looked back. wenfeng was looking at me. i waved to him and he waved back, with a slight smile.

the whole bus was staring at us...

(".) so weird...

i took my seat and as the bus left the bus-stop i looked out of the window at wenfeng walking back to the hostel. that was around 12.38pm...

i had a great day. i sms-ed him to tell him to rest well when he gets back. he thanked me. and i thanked him for accompanying me to day. and reminded him not to throw the neoprint away.

i had such a great time. though it was really short... 1 hour 40 minutes like that.. but... i realised my dream... of taking a neoprint with him.

谢谢文峰哥哥给了我那么美好的一段回忆~

now... i shall concentrate on my studies. to go to the same JC as him... =) and now i have the neoprints as my motivation~ =)

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