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2006年3月1日星期三 --

Haiz..

I'm still very pms nowadays... what with the returning of results and everything... (".)

and well.. i'm angry again.

...

i feel that i'm so selfish.

because i was rather angry that people all around were talking about their results and comparing. and obviously they scored better than me, so it was sort of getting on my nerves. score so well yet complain.

then... i realised as i reflected about today that...

i'm guilty of being insensitive too...

because today we got back our english grammar test. synthesis. and i got 18 out of 20. =)

and i was feeling really happy about it. duh... imgaine....

all the grades u've been getting for every single ... and i'm not exaggerating, it's seriously EVERY single test is a border line pass...

feel great?

obviously NOT...

so... this was the only test i was proud of. =)

but... when i added up everything to calculate my term 1 english marks, i got 64.2.

WOW! one more mark to make it to a B3...

and i didn't get that one more mark.

curses...

so, i was complaining about it. when... linxiu failed overall... and wanyi passed on the dot, 50.

so... i am in no position to be angry. when i myself am so... insensitive.

and i was happy because we got back our commonwealth essay. and i got 23. which is good, in my opinion. Miss heng said that the average is between 22 and 23. ooh... that's good, right?

so, i'm average... ='(

we had lit. and they said... to transcend, we need to take a step back and observe our feelings. and not hang onto it. admit we feel that way, then let it go.

well...

so.. i should be completely honest to myself. i was rather upset. because i got the average mark. but... on 2nd thoughts, it was still a 23. so... =)

and i was disappointed with miss heng's comments. she said that she liked the idea of a clone. but the 2nd part of my essay was cliche.

='(

this is like, the 2nd time she said my idea was kinda cliche.

so sad...

never mind.. (".)

i shall seek to improve my content and come up with more interesting ideas.

oh, i forgot to add that she said "nevertheless, good effort, weimun".

=)

yea..

all of a sudden, english is the ONLY subject which makes me feel happy.

haiz...

=(

anyway, heard that band 3A got back their compre. and only 1 person passed. Lin Hai of 4-7. 14 and a half. he's higher than me lorh!

but...

i'm going to say something terrible again.

a half?!

we don't even have half marks... =(

oh... i detest myself. i'm so terrible.

...

but i really feel that way. and i admit it. so, i've transcended...

whoo hoo! i've transcended!

ok, never mind...

haiz...

i'm turning into some terrible person.

i was extremely mad after we got back our differentiation test. and duh, i flunked. my concept is totally wrong in the 1st place.

but thankfully, i passed A maths.

with a 6 points.

wow!

let's take a look at my L1R5.

1 language. 4.

1 maths. 6. (i flunked E maths with a 46 out of 100)

1 science. 7. (i flunked both Chem and Physics)

who hoo!

1 humans. er-

i duno yet. getting our lit paper back tomorrow though... ss is so slow!

anyway, my geog is a 6.

and my chinese is a 5 or 4.

and i want to announce something....

A prc scholar failed our chinese test.

whoo hoo!

not overall lah, the paper, without the summary.

but still...

i passed...

so shocking.

the thing i'm very mad about is...

the fact that she said "this is ridiculous" when she realised that she failed and a singaporean near her got the 2nd highest in class... (which is like, 24)

this totally irked me. although i didn't see it with my own eyes, but i don't think why anybody would lie about such things...

and my afterthoughts...

what the hell...

u flunked lorh. don't despise us singaporeans, for goodness sake.

and according to huiyi, she was using a "ang mo" accent.

*incredulous look*

oh puh leez...

i wonder how come the other classes never do so badly. Mrs chan marks all of us down by so much. and she can chirpily say that she was very lenient. what the-

please lorh...

Eunice like, passed on the dot. she takes chinese lit. how bad can her chinese be lah?!

this is so terrible.

i mean, my chinese was never that good. but it's not that bad. b3 is like, the worst it can go. and yet... i doubt i even have a B4 this term.

what the-

i do realise that my entry is completely pms again.

aaagggggghhhhhh....

can't help it.

aiyar, what am i doing here? i ought to be doing all the homework that have piled up on my desk.

aaaaahhhhh

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